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2007-07-30T03:10:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna shift my blog to here...so yea haha...sorry for th einconveniences...

http://feliz-amour.blogspot.com

wtf

2007-07-29T14:13:00.000+08:00

ah shit....this stupid blogger is killing me..i wrote it like damn long and yet it deleted evrything...eash....hate it .... and save the blank post..dammit...urgh!...
fine no mood to blog d...pfft...

vous avez enlevé mon souffle

2007-07-26T20:08:00.000+08:00

26/7/2007
not a special day for most of us...
but for me is a day that is special enough for me...

vous qui est que je veux

JERSEY

2007-07-23T01:43:00.000+08:00

oh no...now i wanted a jersey..desperate for it!

difficulty: rate ***** (5STARS)

2007-07-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

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THIS POST MIGHT BE TOO BULLSHITTING OR NONSENSICAL TO MOST OF YOU WHO READ THIS..IT IS TOTALLY INDIRECT AND IT IS DEPEND IF U COULD FIGURE OUT WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY...GOOD LUCK..IT'S OK TO GIVE UP
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these few days I've been in dilemma..dilemma in such a way that i could hardly control myself..sometimes i need to find a stabilizer..but nothing seems like it..i weighed it so evenly that it makes everything so difficult..at that moment i feel like my life is shattered..even though reality to me is obvious.. however, what i want instead is the fantasy..i knew i was not that lucky. i knew it from the initial..i don't expect any contentment or even misery..as i don't know how it will be until the instance arrived

..but...now i know..

when i was lost in the darkness, it was just a dots of light that enlightened me..seeing it was such a relieved, it was just like i was in another world..just like i got tele-ported to another space..undoubtedly, i wanted this light to guide me forever..to save me and lead me to a place that i could start breathing again..however, lights are not the SUN, it is not perennial..as i was in the other space, only the present that exists..with this, every steps i take, buds of flowers appeared and bloomed like a living that was just born..so virgin yet so beautiful and peace..but possessing it have a risk..it will either be a passionate scenario or it might be as evil as u can think of..or maybe it is the orbs of HEll or the lambency from HEaven...i couldn't determined..but for sure, it never fails to brighten the life of mine..still whatever can happened at anytime..

snooZy wUuziE

2007-07-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

everyone seems to b so tired today...studies are hectic and taking all our time...cant wait for 3month holiday...i need a break but first need to catch up with the subjects that, well, i missed alot/skipped alot.. this is wat happened when i am in such a money-minded state...i have no choice because petrol is expensive and need pay this pay that...i need to have my own income...luckily performances i did was fun!

yesterday scandaman n i was syaing bout CHARM and the new intake ppl...feeling sad as i heard cheewei saying in 3yrs time alot of them will b working n perhaps 50% of CHARM senior will quit..in lrt talked alot bout the time we're in spore n johor...was so fun and realizing cheer2007 have make our friendship bond closer!..but soon...some of us will surely b quitting...is so sad..i started to miss each n everyone...cant imagine wat will happen to CHARM without the seniors!

im so dead with my education now...so dead...so so dead....am dead...

what i want..(this is so random)

2007-07-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

so bored...well jsut random...

this is the things that ive been longing...well im still tyring my best to get it...haha..
so anyone wanna sponsor?

this is victoria secret 800 carat bra...so pretty and beautiful...i want it! ahha though my boobs nt dat big lah..ahahah well it costs millions..so ahahha im just kidding....

and this is N95! so cool...i will try to get it though..ahahah....or mayb i can get....This (below)
LG PRADA! ahhaha still tn cool enough ahahah i have 1 more...that is...

IPHONE!!!!

nEXT UP IS camera...
i really need a camera....i want this so badly....
Olympus μ 770 SW.

also this...
it's glow by j.lo...it's been quite sometime now this fragrance but i still ahvent get it....
the scents are so angelic seirously i lurve it!
not too strong nt too soft..just fine!

or mayb this...
still by j.lo

or this
glow in the dark by j.lo!
ahahah
y i lurve j.lo perufme so much...? i donno

besides all the pics above....i still wanna alot of thigns..ahahah
so broke!
i wan dell white laptop
i want sneakers which i donno which 1 shud i get it....
i wan bearbrick
i wan transformer..ahah kidding'
i wan surprise@!!!ahaha

short updates

2007-07-09T01:19:00.000+08:00

sorry guys for nt updating...has been so hectic nowadyz coz of thozse short short but yet killing me exams....and also cheerleading coz got eprformance..which i will nt wanna missed it coz indeed i need money so much! yeah so desperate hehe...wat to do need to pay this pay that....anywya datz nt important rite..ahha...

k where shud i start lerh..nth much actually....oh i got shortlisted once again for the great eastern schoalrhsip...among all the utar ppl dat went for that interview...im the oni 1 got it! woohoo! okla mayb or mayb nt im a step closer to having that schoalrship..i really hope i can postponed the exam or bring forward my exam so dat i can b free ont he day of accessing...not sure how they're gonna access me this time....how i hope it is the last n for all! ims o tired of goign ere n there for this man....whatzmore uni is gettign tougher n tougher for me....my calculus results is nt that favourable...so haihz...just liek wat chin hong say...mayb i jsut nee dto move on and slowly adapt to it..im adapting though...but just so hard..cant stop thinkign bout hw others can cope with their studies....well everyone noe that cheerleading is my apssion n mayb thatz wat makes me take cheerleaidng as my firts priority...coz thru cheerleading i can dance i can train lotsa thigns....so sometimes i actually dont feel guilty fo skippign class coz of practices..ok this si bad i noe! i feel bad nt coz i skip class...i feel bad coz i trouble my fren to help me sign my name! sorry guyz..im such a lazy bitch!

i tried to take leave sometimes bt u noe hw inefficient is utar office ppl....dman inefficient...haihz....procedure like ages long lidet...hmmmph....
soon someone bday is coming!ngekz* ngekz* wonder who...kla i donno y im so happy for that....not like i will celeb it.....at this very moment i miss goob..goobiez where r u? when r u coming back? wein i hope we can go out again! jo i wish that i could stop cheerleading for someitmes n we can go crazy again.....lixin i hope u can actually keep in touch with us so that i wont doubt of msging u coz i feel liek im disturbing u....l.

these few dayz..many thigns happened to me....
is all desperation, desperation, desperation....
uni sux sux sux....
and everythign just seems so chalenging to me..haizh.....nt sur eim tryign to say..coz is ahrd to be explained.....

2007-07-05T03:35:00.000+08:00

this show rox man! love it so much! though im ignorant bout transformer (not anymore *winks*) it just so nice to watch n i guess i fall for them...! ahahah...seriously i wanted to watch the second time...!! i don mind..hehe....

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE

2007-06-30T17:02:00.000+08:00

29 june 07

went to RUUMS KL to support my fren DENNIS... though ALAM won..but i guess dennis is better coz of his variety of dance styles he can do....SUE is so hot n i really love her..ahaha...but guess malaysia just love alam...sigh* i din eat my dinner..was so hungry and thirsty u noe...i so in need of camera coz when the wonner announced i don get to take pics coz my h/p batt died....sigh...really need a camera...after that headed to makan n jeremy suggested to go his hse for buffet..end up kena conned coz there aent any bufeft...so finally decided to go murni ...bout 12+am oni get to eat..haihz...and til 2.30am oni i reached home..so tired....but it was a greta day...sorry for the blur image coz i oni use a lousy phone....

jeremy driver for the day! n eric besides him

the top20

top4 finalists!!! dennis in orange attire

top 4! alam, dennis,sue,brancy...den in orange again..

rashmonu performing...izzit rashmonu ah? ahahah

it's live show!!!

rapper dont know who

DJ doing their thing

anyway congatulations Alam!

DENNIS U'RE THE BEST

Suhaili u're the bomb!

Brancy u're a Great competitor!

cheer2007

2007-06-28T03:08:00.000+08:00

my life's slowing down currently. sorry guyz for nt updating my blog..well, im trying to think how should i blog nowadayz. coz u noe my blog is so pathetic. anyway bout cheer2007:~

first of all i shall say this yr is awesome! everything is just so fun so cheeky so great! and Sarah Tan was oen of the host with Jien...love sarah so much..i hope to c amanda soon.but seems like donno where she go.yanuz (the hot judges for so you think you can dance reality show was there as judges for best dance choreograhy.) he's so dman HOT.. and im the score keeping fella..who staple the scoresheet n colelcting the scoresheet fromt he judges..whee! apparently i get to know th emarks and i get to sit at a place where hundreds of people would wanna sit! withotu squezzing n perfect view of the front! muahaha...so i get to b so close with yanuz, the miss malaysia/universe, sarah tan and others...whee! so as u noe, i get to know who's the winner first, and thus, i gotta act like i dont know anything n scream anf yell at the same time(so fake*) when they announce th ewinner...kinda spoil the atmosphere i had la...hahah..but then oh well! i edi expected ADYNAMITEZ to win..coz they rox! and ocoz im ex-dynamitez must sokong dynamitez...dynamitez th ebomb man..don play play..as usual 1! nyahahah...im so proud of dynamitez..they did superd routine..n i mean SUPERB!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

Dynamitez mascots..so cool!

and as for the CHARM! luckily i din drop on my ass when doing my tumbling..was so worried coz i actually sprained my elg dat day..but then still able to suck it up..n i thik coz i sprained my that leg b4..so my partticular ankle kinda flexible...and yea i did it! wohhoo! and CHARM did a greattt-kick-ass job! it was sucha greta honour to b part of the routine seriously...as chee wei said we r CHARM da national team! we shall show off! wahaha...n luckily did a fantastic unique and unexpected routine eh...if nt kena boo...not nice rtie..ahha...imagien hundredss of eople cheering for "WE WANT CHARM WE WANT CHARM" the feeling is just A-W-E-S-O-M-E TOTALLY... haha...ok gettign hyper d...if u wanna catch us perform! go to my friendster and check out d video! haha...or u could wiat till 15th JULY07 at 8tv 12noon to watch the cheer2007 show! u wont regret! sarah tan is just so simple but yet pretty...haha....oh n u can c our silky girls..ahhaa....u try to go to pharmacy liek watson in 1utama..u'll get to c CHARM silky girls!! ahahha i eman the poster..ahaha...so cool! and SEVENTEEN MAGAZINE also got CHARM interview with pics! geez im tn there sadness...ahaha...finally CHARM is getting publicity...hopefully people will know what is cheerleading n ocoz CHARM...(=

ok letz talk bout the first runner-up and second runner-up..that is shirtliff and vulcanz all-boys respectively....shirtliff really din disappoint us this yr...they r much better than last yr ...i guess they really wanna kick our ass....and yet this is a warning that dynamitez next yr need ot b superly duperly work hard to defend the champion! wah..hard work...and their routine especially tansition is awesome with greta expression but it hink Xavier got th ebest expression...if im nt mistaken...xavier props r damn nice im loving it..n ocoz TITANS sign is magnificent and creative...u should watch TITANS ending..u will b stratled by how nice their props too....VULCANZ all-boys got 3rd which i think they deserve it coz they r like a symbols that tells cheerleading is nt only for girls but guys as well..and doesnt mean they r CC-fied ok...they did a greta job n whatzmore they r strong n with a great smile! woohoo!! ok dat zbout it....

after that we(CHARM) with the 2 U.S judges went to mid valley the picollo mondo's to eat our dinner.....as wat marcus' blog says...dont know y we celbrating also..aagagga....btu having so much fun....n after that when evryone bloated ...we play game...a very scary and lame game....is liek if u lose rite...u will b punished to do somehting LAME!!! btu it cracks my ass off..so funnnnyyyyy!! especially oen of our member called John..haha EElyn punished him to go to a stranger and point at him..and den..........laugh at him!!! ahahahha damn funny..u shoudl c the guy face...feel shocked n i guess is the best time for ppl to whack him up! hahaha so funny la....is liek u point at him and laugh..ahah..just iamgine a stranger comes towrads u n point at u n laugh..ahahah...funny shit....and another victim is ScanDaMan...ahaha she got punished to go upt he escalator n sing the elmo's song and happy 3 fren song...ahahah dat zso funny and cute....another is annie...she got punished to run up and escalator that is goign downwards..ahahah....pity her...eelyn got punished to do cartwheel in fornt of coffe bean...wat a retards...hopefulyl noone puke out their coffee while lookign at this retards doign cartwheel at the main antrance of the coffee bean..ahaha damn funny....and last but nt leats is.......our CAPTIAN chee wei..ahahah he got punished to follow a perosn behind n if the person turns to looked at him, he need ot act as if he donno anythign...ahahahah dman funnnyyy...we r such a freak! CHARM is retards on that day...evryone int he shoppign cnetre is eye-ing on us..ahahah...bising orang....ahahha

retards in mid valley!

yanuz!! so hot..sad i din take pics wiht him..he's just surrounded by fans..ahah

with 2 samnatha...the U.S judges...they r so fun to b with..imagine the white 1 is 18 and the green 1 is just 17..omg....swt!

sarahtan!!! she's so pretty so sweet...so ncie smile...whee!!!

wein i got her pics!!!hahaz...

quiz

2007-06-28T03:04:00.000+08:00

haha took this quiz...thought he image is so lame..haha...but i kinda agree with the results though...wahahah....

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)

You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy, social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's day! You are very kind and a real people person because you have several friends (or atleast should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable and your stunning looks are sweet and stand out. (please forgive me if you cannot see the pics. If you go to my userpage then you can see your result picture at the bottom)
Take this quiz!

i need rest

2007-06-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

i need a vacation rite now..
im feeling so breathless nowadayz..
though im really excited bout cheer2007;
i needed to take a lonnnnnnnggggg hols just to cure myself and eliminate all the stuff in my brain rite now..test1 is just next wk..and i dont even know what i've studied...screwed me...
ah! im being tortured by nt having to talk as much as before...ah!!!
i found this sneakers so fweaking nice...i wana have it but it's kids size..i hope they'll hv size 4..ahahah...but i really paiseh to ask for kids shoes..ahah..
so short la this post...kla nth to sya d..ahhaa....

is a good n nt so good day for me today....

great eastern scholarship interview

2007-06-19T11:12:00.000+08:00

yes yes i know all of u waited for so long for this post rite...*u-know-who-u-r*
my interview went well la though i kinda stuck coz of the question they throw to me..im total ignorant..first thing we need to do is to write a 30mins essays....without discussion n the questiion is the same as everyone....was so hard ler..haha mayb im just plain stupid...well i cant tell u watz the question coz this is a blog n if i ever said it here..wat if some of the unknown ppl havent attend the interview yet? den terbongkar ler...i managed to write on time lah just dat very low marks...after that got 2 sessions of interview..my first session is fun but soemtimes the qt they asked me is like i never thought they'll ask...they expect me to know everything about utar...weird...oh n got 1 interviewer looks like nanny mcphee...im serious...hahah but she's so funny...

sry guys ...allow me to stop ere coz i wanna go for my claSS d...n later need go practice straightaway...! bah! tiredness......

to be continued...

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ok continue....

and den i went to the 2nd session of interview...the questions are more serious...i actually answered it badly...perhaps er really make no sense at all...but i just dont want to make it worse so i apologize n request if i could change the answer..i think if u really donno..please dont hesitate to tellt hem that u donno lah..but also dont keep saying u dont know coz it'll make a bad impression...try ur best elrh...until u really cant....so uhm...n den i get to pull thru..so phew* but it is very important to be able to sell yourself...seriously..i donno hw i sell myself to them but i just say wat i wanted to say..just b true to urself..dat is how u can get comfortable n confident u noe...but the best part is...despite myself for nt worrying bout i answer or im smart or not...i just hope i dont stop when im answering....though i feel like im talkign nonsense...well datz just me...n i promised my dad nt to b crappy..but aiyah...fail..ahagga...anyway the guy (who throw question to the deepest to us most fot he time" compliment me! wahahaha...eeks happy lerh....
eh nt bad mah..out of the 5 ppl im d oni 1 got compliment....kakaka....imagine got ppl admire u..n smao is an interviewer....ahahha....*kembang*
but then cannot be happy too fast..later the higher the hope, the hardest i will fall...ahaha..so i just keep my finger crossed...well i cant dney ir eally wanna work there lah..the ppl is just so nice!! n it really looks liek big company..ahahha...

uhm guess dat zall i hv to say lah....nth much....interview is alwiz scary u noe..ahaha...btu just get used ot it lah.....now i hoep i am 1 of the lucky 1 lerh....pray hard*

sleepy sleepy tired tired

2007-06-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

yea dat explained all about today...
not sure y...i think due to the hardcore practice i had yesterday...
till now still not fully energized myself...
several things bout my shcolarship and schedule are killing me...for now...
wanted to sleep peacefully but evrytime got disturbed by humans...
sometimes i want to be disturbed but yet noone is available to disturbed me...
sigh*
anyway..today in class i fell asleep out of sudden without me realizing it...
was writign halfway n oopss...ter-tido...ahhaha...
but still able to write like i donno what im writing at all...till my fren woke me up...
kakaka....seriously when i looked at what i wrote was darn funny...
time flies....
tmr is practice again! O.K.!
must menatlly prepared and go up!
yeaman....
p/s: im quite worried....

Eeyore

2007-06-10T02:10:00.000+08:00

YEAYYY!!!

yeap today i got my eeyore! sub-chars from winnie the pooh...ahhaha u noe gaurdian hv this stamp stamp thingy so that u can redeemed these plush toys...yeay i finally got it for free after hard time of colelcting the stamps...ahaha...so expensive this toys..aihz but i love it...donno y lah i like all this 1...but i noe im just hangat-hangat tahi ayam..but isnce i know someone, i begin to cherish my toys! hehe....now i wanna redeem pooh coz big sis wanted it...aihz..i wanted kangaroo...oh weird thing is they dont have piglet...noe y? oz malay mah..mana boleh ada babi kan? wat la..i wan piglet as well..cis....anyway im a malaysian must learn to tolerate..but still..haihz is just a toy....

papa...

2007-06-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

Dear PaPa...

being a horrid child, i know that no matter what i do, u will never feel happy bout it coz this is the stereotype u have on me...but i really hope that someday i could tell u this...

i've written this before in my free-essay writing during my first year sem1 foundation in english class and i wrote, "my father is lanky and skinny. however, do not be denied by his appearance because he is able to provide us security and ability to take care of us." yes i said this...without papa, i'm not gonna be able to survive till now. other than providing us income for our everyday life, everything regarding the cars, house, bank and stuff, we turned to you. though often we will begin with an unavoidable quarrels, u will still help us out and make sure we learn and be wiser. i know what u did is good for us. but, everytime we're in a commotion, words really hurts and i hope u realised that sometimes u just need to control. or else, we're gonna b distanced. to be frank im kinda scared whenever u're here. besides the dark side of our daughter and father relationship, we do have the love for each other. still, u r my dad. i thank u for evrything u did for us and i'm really sorry for wat i've done to you..i love u papa...i hope u will be happier each and everyday! stay healthy and i will be hoping for the day where we r back again just like before! white straind of hair of urs is obviously seen, and no doubt papa u're getting old .i wish that we could help u out and i understand is hard for u, only u alone to take care of us 3..and i wish i could really stop having a grudge on u...im trying so i hope u try as well...help me help urself...(=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

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2007-06-09T01:38:00.000+08:00

today practice ended so late...i reached home like 12.45am! bah! luckily is friday and everyone surely go clubbing or night out..so i get to park my car nearer.. again..sorry guys for not posting up anything...because have been trying to think of what to blog..everytime blog about my unhappening life is just so pathetic...and boring rite....but since someone actually thought im that busy till i din post anything besides only a single line post...so i need to blog something to show that im still alive!

ahahah

im currently broke again...after paying for my unit exemption...im broke...i gotta used up my ang pow money though i plan to save it! again failed! grrr....and i owe my sis money aso...n petrol is killing me..alot of things need money as well...lately i'm having an unbalanced diet and my timing is all jumbled up...whenever i get to rest, often there'll be something for me that i need to do...sometimes im not trying to be lazy but if u actually have lack of rest, u definitely be happy about having a day off where u can rest all day long without doing anything rite?...sigh i envy my sis for having to go holiday and leaving all the duty behind....i cant deny that i felt abit annoyed coz im busy enough...the only time i can sit down and relax is at night...no wonder im so immuned to it...haha

wah boring post...

today noone online!!!!!!!!!!!
at this time i mean....sigh* i got noone to talk to....
oh yea im quite happy today..one of the reasons is that my primary fren added me in friendster..ahahah ok u might thing this is not a big deal..but for me it is... because im trying to find her contact but it just failed....imagine is primary!!! only now we can finally keep in touch again! is such a miracles! i recall back many happy moment during primary with her..she change alot..i culdnt recognized her but somehow i recognized her ahhaa...wth im talking...

guess shall post more tmr lerh...
coz i guess u all already fall asleep
ahahha...boringgggggggggg

im nt sure if this is ally..ahah..

2007-06-07T23:59:00.001+08:00

so cute so fat so chubby...adorable betul...ahahah....

random

2007-06-07T02:44:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S SUX BUT LOVE'S A BITCH...

HAPPY BIRTTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
19TH
BIRTHDAY
JOAQUIM!!

XOXO

so cute

2007-06-02T04:37:00.000+08:00

so cute...
i got this from captain ming email...ahaha
so darn cute..
i hope my future kids will b like this...
ahaahhaa....
i just lurve lurve lurve it ...so adorableeee

random

2007-05-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

i just realised goobiez go n post up my precious book's content! ..eeks malunye.....great la she...cis...
anyway nothing much 2 say today...
all i can sya is my calculus is dying.... coz the lecturer has a weird tone of voice...too fast and sharp and aiyah just weird la and couldnt listen wat she said...sadness...
anyway tmr is friday and hopefully classes end early....sigh*
tiring! coz of boredom and av...
how come none of you call me out to watch movie????
i want watch POTC, shrek 3 and more!!!!!
please call me!!! ahahah *desperate*

E[=

2007-05-31T03:28:00.000+08:00

got request from sw dat i need to update my blog...sorry girl...i've been so tired lately due to having AV and also practices plus studies...well not really studies lerh but having to go to uni and cant deny it, it is so boring n the weather sux..my slk's air-cond retarded some more. sigh* just like having sauna inside..

updates bout my uni

it is the 3rd day in my degree..so far nothing seems to interest me--lecturer, subjects, surroundings, etc....still trying to figure out who's in my class because currently i just get to attend lecture class as tutorial n practical nt gonna start on this week. thus, i can only hang out with square and frenz but they r in diff class. sobness... some of the people in my lecture's class were just plain noisy. i mean if u wanna make some noise n make the class happening is ok but the thing is these ppl just interrupting the class n not even saying something that is funny..somehow i missed cheng kiat, chi liang, and chong (foundation's fren) who alwiz hype up t he class...wahahaha....
im gonna out of clothes to wear...so dead...seriously im broke again...and i have lost sense of what to wear to uni d...ahahah...frustrated...is like the weather is sooo hot..but in th eclass is sooo cold...can get sick soon...i hope my slk is fine....just so worried....sigh*
today after programming class, i joined square and frenz to makan and we planned and waited like so damn long just to decide where to go and how to go...finally we went to PA to take our results but later on..plan changed...coz xiao sun they all wanna go millennium square which i donno where izzit..moreover, i dont wanna go there coz noone sending square back..so i decided to call square to teman me makan in kfc so dat i can send her back to mc. coz she alone lerh...dangerous! haha...called zack till we wanted to vomit blood* coz she din picked up the phone...grrr! ended up oni both of us hanged out together in kfc...saw ms samantha and ms sharmila i guess...izizt sharmila..ahaha....anyway they recognised us..and we did talk for awhile...ahah....so datz my day in uni.

i went home so tired n slept for like 4 hrs before heading to practice!..routine is superbs and is sooo ambitious...tiring and dangerous...CHARM is so cool! and i got so many goodies fromt he shape mag and aso silky girls...too many lipglosses now...i guess i no need buy d for 2 yrs...cant finish it..oh n aso got underwear ahahah....eh from wacoal 1...nt bad...ahha...

enuff of my uni n practice...
my life's just so dead...

random...

supposing i wanted to post this up on last Sunday but i was too tired again so i actually forgotten bout it...but yet it remains in my mind so vividly. gymnastic on that day was never been so emo..haha y i say so...coz of my fren, choo.. i remember she said something which makes me so alive ..mayb alive is not the right word to describe the state of mind im in at that time but yea is more or less dat kinda feelings..well i hope she can move on..saying this im trying to deliver it to my own as well..rite here i wanna thank her for listening to my hiccup n saying the wonderful words that i'd never tot that someone will actually said that to me..haha...well choo i will appreciate and love myself...for true beauty only can be seen in the inside..i hope u can be happier than b4...*hugz*

it is exactly 4am now...im tired but yet i refrain myself from sleeping...nope not that i got insomnia this time..is that im refraining..bah! my vow has broken once more...anyhow i dont know wat to say bout wat im thinking now...or mayb what i get myself into...
all iw anted to do is to get thru the days as long as i can and as much as i can..
as long as i could sense the joy in me...
but will it be taken away when i reached to the top of just ..joy?
goobiez must be thinking that life's depressing...
well i still dont think that way though...haha...coz i believe i still havent enjoy life yet...when i do, i know dat life's beautiful..just like it is purposely created for me!...ahah...u wont know rite...
noone know the future....

~me signing out!~

1st day in degree

2007-05-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

this will be a boring post cause my life is starting to get bored.
as most of you know, this period shall be the school holiday! but not for the people who are in colleges and universities as this time may be the examination time or like me, beginning of a semester. sigh*

as i entered to the building that seems like a building of suffocation,
i began to observe the people around me. pretty different from my previous foundation building but yet still maintain the poor accommodation.

i was blurred and looking like a lunatic going back and forth just to find a particular class. kept my finger-crossed that i will not be alone and that i will meet up someone that i know. and woot* i saw them! i was in desperation that i leap into the room and started to converse with them.

my very first class was indeed the basic professional writing which is pretty obvious about the purpose of this subject. since is our first lecture class, it ended early...i was relieved! haha because the lecturer is so expression-less that even if she tell something lame, she still looks like she's not been smiling for ages. scary*

i was surprised that a girl from my secondary school who i didn't know at all, recognized me..the reason is that i was a prefect in my secondary school so i actually jaga her class before...wahahaha..i thought that she must be hated me since she can still remember my face.but nola i so friendly rite...haha....

i didn't sleep at all before that and so i was darn tired. once i reached home i online awhile and i just hit the sack..lucky for the rain that i the venue of my cheer practice changed to a place that is so convenient for me.

i finally can sleep longer. but no! i was flooded with sms from SHANA. so i just gotta reply n sleep awhile n reply n sleep in the end is like i didnt get to sleep at all..

now im darn tired coz of cheer practice..stamina so low lah lousy me...im gonna looks like a man soon..seriously! no kidding.. but i guess definitely worth it!

for once im gonna sleep early because noone gonna wake me up anymore when i have class at 8am...(u-know-who-u-r ahem* wein* ahem*)

just in case the parking spoils my day, i need to wake up early n park my slk! sadness...stupid utar not strategic at all the place...find la a land that is big enough to park cars!

how long more should i follow the footsteps that is left by you;
how many more challenges and obstacles that i need to deal;
how can i ever not be human just to stopped my heart from beating;
how can i try to understand what i want when i do not even know what exactly i want;
how can i find the truth that lies within my feelings;
how must i differentiate happy and contented;
how must i differentiate the pain and the hurt;
how i can answer the question how when i'm basically asking the question of a question;
*silent*
move on and i will find more clues.

degree

2007-05-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

eeks tmr strat my degree d...
sadness...aiyah no mood to blog d....

geisha is pweetie

2007-05-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

angel of mine

2007-05-27T04:14:00.000+08:00

i believe true frenz do exists..
i have!
(=
though doubt can will exists coz no one will foresee the future..
but is already enough and exceed my expectation of the period we spend with each other..
tonight was heavenly...
is like being in a paradise that is indescribable...
only can be truly felt within our own heart!
all i could say is THANK YOU for being there for me my fren!

do believe in miracle human!

a day to remember...

2007-05-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

if i ever read back my post...

i hope this will be the post that reminds me of this very special day..

a day where i truly feel the multiple feelings swirling like a tidal wave in my soul..

im not imagining, not hallucinating, not thinking..

but i definitely feel it...

to make it even discrete...

it begins by having the enthusiasm...enthusiasm for me to actually finding thigns out by myself..

moving on to independant...independant for me to stand by my own...finding true enjoyment of loneliness...

wrapping up with warmness..so warm that i will not doubt and go ahead to do something that i will never count its risk.

possessing the satisfaction....satisfaction of getting the task completed....

threatened by doubt...doubting the nonsensical things that im doing for an unknown purposes..

ponder by frustration....dilemma and in a state of paranoia...

soon covered by professionality...able to work and a splendid occasion...

surrounded with worries....concerned bout my fren...so hard to mend the broken heart...how i wish i could let outmy anger...let the fume delivers my message to my fren..how silly she can be..worries oh worries...

happiness finally present...happiness dat is untold undefined..for i've opened my eyes...

sadness i defend...forbidding ti to enter in my life..for it is toxic and evil omen of mine....yet it is there..it will alwiz b there....yet to come....

check it out! so funny=)

2007-05-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

TttiireD

2007-05-22T15:41:00.000+08:00

yesterday i was so tired..exhausted...
hvaing muscle pull n aching evrywhere since sunay gym den mon having 2 practice at once pulak...
but then is good for building stamina i guess...so i slept quite early...wake up quite late...
ahahha...so it was a good sleep for me...but then i feel like it's wasting lotsa my tuesday's time...
and now dat leeping went to sg long...i lost 1 kaki to go out again...sigh*
mon prac was a great dissapointment to me coz indeed i didnt do well...
i was somehow very self-conscious....it makes me feel like im so lousy sometimes...
but i wanna progress....looking at evryone i hope that im not a loser...
but....

tmr is orientation...it sounds so depressing to me as if im goign to utar for the first time...
wat to do..the oni 1 that i noe is only zeying n chin hong..yea wahh oni 2? geez...
im so lazy and i bet tmr i will overslept...and now dat i havent settle my financial problem yet....i couldnt go for japanese class...ocoz i wanted to continue but the thing is i dont have the courage to tell my dad...by the time i tell him i guess there wont b any place left for me...if till then still go t place..kla i will go..ahaha....c la how...
finally, today there's a page in BIZ in Star newspaper that talks about actuaries...if those of u who don't really know wat is actuarial science/actuaries do....den just take like 5mins to read that page...is in the centre of the BIZ that pages....is not all about earning lots of money...is more to using ur sensibility n wisdom i guess....well u c i dont seems to b in that course...bah! y must i doubt i wonder why why why....

oh and yesterday again...i went to redbox...just hv an outing that *AHem* "organize" by goobiez(u noe who u r)...with leeping b4 she leave to sg long...and we have so much fun coz aiyah once i get to go out i surely have fun 1...coz i SS...ahahha....but while both of them are singing chinese songs..i camwhore myself...n later when is my turn to sing english song....dey makan...ahahahha....wella t last i noe few chinese sogn that i noe! i din use my lyrics book eh...ahahha....great improvement...leepign say my chinese not bad..ahhaha...*winks*

broke

2007-05-20T02:48:00.000+08:00

ah ah...
is not <3>
is im broke...
i got a saman...huhu...unpaid saman! 100bux weyh..
in just about 5mins im away frm my slk...
the smart-ass-got-nothing-to-do mbpj come n saman my slk...
once again im sorry slk for leaving u alone lidet...but hey i noe u think people are askign for ur autograph? gosh im insane...*scream* 100bux...
how much can i deduct from appealing tell me!!!!!!!
i need to save so much...
from now on i guess i need to starve myself...
instant mee all the way...and treat my dad extremely good (*impossible*)
so dat could get extra bux...
huhu T__T pathetic...
any performance CHARM????please count me in ...
i needed money rite now...
or any of u wanna donate to me? sponsor?
now i feel guilty fo getting the adidas jacket...
y must it be this way? am i destine to not able to enjoy life...?
i did this like once in a blue moon!just to get somethign to compliment myself...
is this a crime?
sigh*
how i wish i really get schoalrship again...but i really dont feel like getting the schoalrship i apply because i need to have 3yrs bond with them after i graduate..yerh i wanna work in some place that i put my effot to got hru the proper interview n stuff n work there...but well ont he other hand i really need scholarship...wah dilemma!!!!!!(not like i will b getting the schoalrhsip but then i need the schoalrhsip)and all this applying financial support is just total nutz coz u keep on photocopy the stuff which cozt u like at least 5 bux...n times by donno hwo many schoalrship u aplying..in d end coz u like tons! but end up not getting any responds frm them...not to forget posting it as well....ma fan....ive been this situation b4 my foundation..and it's sux...so if u ever wanan apply allt his thing..think twice...unless u r rich lah..unlike me 5bux aso sya cost me alot...
blame myself for not being genius or even smart ...someitmes i hope ima nerd that oni noe hwo to study n scores well n keep studying for my entire life till i end up in hospital bahagia....but then...is just kidding k..i dont hope to b crazy...it is shitty too...
degree is just so near to my life....*taking a deep breath* i shall breath when i can still bretah now...i dont noe watz ahead of me...all i noe is it will b lifeless...utar is nt where i can get used to..mayb for now...communication is a problem...but yet the major problem is there's oni a small patch of ppl that i could actually get along......shall say im the odd 1 there...being a banana is not easy u noe...but i lurve to b banana...at elast is unknown..ahahaha..and i wouldnt need to care wat ppl say...i can ignore anytime i want....i dont know if i can sense the smell of the first day i step into utar again or not...but i think most probably will..the smell of loneliness, new world, weird ....just weird smell...but eventually u will get used to the smell...*so ironic*
but my whole new world will b absolutely competitive world...
just imagine u are a primary tecaher working with professor!
yea da feelings is lidet coz i'll b studying with whoel bunch of 4.0-cgpa-people...
interetsing....oh wat am i get myself into!!!!!

i got tagged!

2007-05-19T00:46:00.001+08:00

5 things found in your bag
>wallet
>cardholder
>pen
>keys(car and house)
>tissue

5 things found in your purse/wallet
>ic
>money ocoz
>coins
>receipt
>namecards

5 favourite things in your room
>bed
>comforter
>pillow
>bags
>accessories

5 types of humans
>liars
>hypocrites
>blissful human
>bipolar human
>genius

5 things you've always wanted 2 do
>sleep
>meeting up with angelina jolie or oprah or gaspard
>going to japan with mama and sis and my other half(winks*)
>b a volunteer
>make a difference in ppl's life

5 things you are currently in2
>onlining
>cheerleading
>skateboarding
>sneakers
>emo-ing

s#!t Day no.2

2007-05-17T18:36:00.000+08:00

haiyoh today im having such a bad day..
grr...
y y y y y
)=

random

2007-05-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

nowadayz nth happenign in my life...
so i'll just briefly type out some crapz and dull stuff for u guyz..
every odd day i hv practices which already taken half of my day...
and every even day i'll try to go out n hang out with frenz..which is darn hard to plan an outing with them....
finally yesterday went out with my old-frenz....ahaha...
and we went to mcD centrepoint...
talk like non-stop(or mayb is me only) frm 9pm to 1am...
ahahah
boleh tahan elrh me....and ai wee actually laughed till her jaws became numb...
ahahah so exaggerate lah...
it was fun to actually hv a group of fren get togeda n just talk n talk n talk...
besides just gossip...we were more to tellign out lifestyle recently...
so kinda interesting...ahhaah

i couldnt enjoy my holiday any longer....
so soon den i'll have my orientation...sounds liek orange..ahahah anyway crapz!
sigh* sigh* sigh*
n i don hv money to pay for it yet....abit worried...
yet i havent sent those schoalrship forms..
sow eird lah i feel coz my resutls so bad but insist on getting a schoalrsip...
grr...life's such a bitch soemtimes....
but i love it somehow..ahahahah

dowan talk about studies...makes me stressed...
oh thx joaquim for ur candies and chocolates frm U.S.
is yummylicious....really makes me relieved...
ahahha

iw anna watch movie....haihz...

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don't want to have hope
dont want to have imagination
dont want to wake up from my dream
just want to go through life the way it is...

2007-05-14T03:50:00.000+08:00

..it is sad to know that even your very own family do not really know who u really are..

human

2007-05-14T03:23:00.000+08:00

straw: thanks for mentioning banana in ur blog..keke...well at least u din say ah na...or did u actually said that...cis...but anyway...is my pleasure to share my deep thoughts which seldom people understand to you...sorr i couldnt help much but then mayb someday u'll understand...so as i say million billion times...i'll wiat for ur feedback someday....wahahah...

regarding my title for my post today...hmm what i can actually relate to it...
well maybe i shud begin like this..

human oh human..
we never know where we're actually from..
we never know where we gonna end up at..
we definitely wont know what will happen in future..
human like us can never stop asking for more...
bad ppl is everywhere including u and me
coz we're sinner i supposed...
is so hard to b good people...
sometimes u do heard people saying that monk is good...
well GOd is good..and den ur bf is good..ur mtoher is good ur fatehr is good
and on n on n on...
but have u ever say that urself is good?
so hard to say it unless those really have thick skin...
wat im trying to say is no1 is perfect...
we r human n human make mistakes...
before u say others mistake...think about urself...
and think hw u shud say it...dont just say..
because speech is like a sword....
u need to be careful while u handling it...

basically i donno wat crap im talking..
mayb someday when i can really relate all the small parts of what im thinking now..
den i think..i think...it will b awesome..ahahah

hysteria

2007-05-14T02:36:00.000+08:00

today besides being a special day for all the mother in da world...
is also a day i resume back to gymnastic class...
i missed being there and i missed the critics, the skills that yet to be learnt...
often critics are a way for me to discover wat i supposed to improved..
but sometimes when i just couldnt get it and thus i couldnt improve it as well,
it really bothers me...but....at least is something that i need to work on...
i have a priority den...
and today 8tv crew came...
and once agian CHARM on TV..whee..
when whole bunch of charm get togeda..hmm u noe wat it'll b like...ahahah
whatzmore we're on camera..hahaha
everyone went wild (those lame become lamer)
tell u we had a great time...
but never will gymnastic b relaxing...
i gain muscle again..woohoo..forever manly...gosh..bruises evrywhere..
sigh*
just pay more attention to th e8tv advert for cheer2007!
hahaha....mite c my blur face...eee ugly...
hahaha..but im nt sure when wil it b on tv...i aso donno..
often i'll missed it...

trying to cut the normal stuff i did...
i will move on to the next thing...

i watched national geographic at night...
ahahha..im so into discovery all those when it comes to not having to watch any nice show...
btu i do watch lerh ..
and guess wat...
have u ever heard of EL CHUPACABRAS?
hmm nope? but im sure u heard of UFO...
both similarity is that...u will never know if such thing really exists...
this is the EL CHUPACABRAS...aka goat-sucker...
y called that..coz this creature kills livestock with the most gruesome way u can ever imagine..
but lotsa scientist as alwiz try to prove that no such thing exists...
wateva it is...is up to us ...

i watched this topics till like so into it...
seriously i mmg love all this mystery stuff coz itz so amazing...
like myself..
im a mystery too...
ahhaha
too find out on this creature..just google it ..ahah...it tooks 1 hr for me to watched the national geographic so basically it's more interetsing but yet 1hr i gained too many info..ahahah....so i lazy to say it all out again...

frustration kills

2007-05-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

all i can say is that..
i beh tahan!
coz of so many things...
im gonna b insane or somewhat having bipolar disease...
im nt so sure y these dayz i cant control my soul or my spirit..
sounds liek threatening my life but yet i cant do anything...
mayb someone is putting a curse on me...
*think too much*
eh but it is possible k...and this is so scary...
and i mean "scary"
ahahha

well donno la...i try nt to think so much...but i sense something somethign
just nt so right gonna happen to me
can anyoen sense it?
hmm...just hope i really think too much...

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next up....
basically i got aot of craps to say...
but i just dont know where to start it...
saw kids sneakers today...
so nice i really want it..just a size bigger more than i cna fit in..
i justw ant size 4 but the biggest is 3..grr...heartbroken..ahahah
anyway the fella looks so discriminative when he sense that i wanted to buy kids shoe..
like wtf...hey! i can fit in can d lah...i just need size 4!
ahaha
and so cheap la...i sced i regret buying adidas sneakers...
u noe lah it costs alot...
but iw anted a sneakers lerh..
in my life i din buy b4 nike or adidas...
so i just want to get 1 ....
just O N E pair...
ppl alwiz say i got alot of sports shoes...
eh where got la...

oh almost forgot...
i wanna clarify something ere...
perhaps ppl may think im a very cool person n "ba bei" for the first impression
"really ???!!! sad i have face problem"
k but let me clarify this..
i don ok...im very firendly..is just dat yea i have face problem elrh...
n once noe me..im nt dat cool or corky at all...
soemtimes really lerh...i think i have face problem..gosh...
need to do plastic surgery..ahahah

i think im gonna have a hard time during my degree d...
i lost all my fren that can translate the conversation for me
seriously thanks to them i survive in utar...
but now...i donno...
i hope i can cope btw...

hapPy mother's day

2007-05-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

to ALL the Mother in the WholE Universe

even the animals and plants and mother EARTH

ahhaa

HAPPY moTHer's DAY...

to my beloved woman!

Mi i guess the best gift that u want is that to get to see us rite..?

but then as my sis say we r such a filial daughter..

for so many yrs we havent been to NY to visit u...

coz of lotsa consideration need to b considered...

SORRY mum!

but yet u r alwiz special in my heart

u r my mother, my friend, my counsellor, my phsychologist, my angel

u're alwiz being so helpful in my life...

i miss u so much

but im still so doubt...not sure y...

anyway really glad u like the flowers!!!!

XOXO

i love u mum!

XOXO

penang again..

2007-05-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

someone actually wanna noe bout hw is my penang trip..
well..is basically nth much to say d...
coz previous post already clarified..
and so it is clear!
so betetr read n use ur imagination ...
coz im so tired now dat i don feel like saying my trip frm day1 to day4!
haha....

oh and i got into top20 for cheer07 performing team..
really thx to chee wei for giving me th echance and still believing in me...
i hope i dont diaapoint him..
oh and im kinda pressured as im giving pressure to myself...
really hope dat i can handle it...
so wish me luck!

1st day of cheer07 prac

2007-05-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

so this is wat happened to my back of my knee!
haha...it's bruised ...coz of constant stepping..
but im fine with dat..
proves that the flyer din step properly..and i admit
im a "WEAK" base...huhu~
need to work on my strength d....
anyway it is painful...i cant squad down at teh moment...coz it seems like swollened...
hopefully recover b4 fri...
which is oni 1 day to recover...
sigh*
asap plz...

PENANG TRIP!!

2007-05-08T04:12:00.000+08:00

I'm back from penang!

guess by watching the short movie pics, u can get the rough idea of the entire trip..
it's in sequential order though..
haha...
enjoy!

p/s: wein...we rode on the banana boat!!! wahahah...

penang day 2

2007-05-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

wah is only 11.15pm..
and im so liveless now...
wish could go out walk around.....
but hen horh...my frenz all sleep very early and they will b dead after 10pm...
wonder y r they so good girl..
wahahah....
just too bad....
anywya when they r so liveless, i felt the same way as well...
so right im here to blog again....

well nth much..oh let me tell u wat i did today...
i woke up at 9.20am...
and den we went 4 our breakfast nearby my fren's hse...
but since we r so late we missed all the food that is said to b nice....
anyway..anythign lah breakfast..i aso seldom eat breakfast....
den chi liang anf alvin soh aso join us as well...
ahhaha..
later we went to kek lok si...
so darn hot but camwhore damna lot...
next wen tto uhm...the famous 3 storey aqua shop...(pethsop)
and aso bought some biscuit frm forgot wat d/...him heang i guess...
den too tired..all dying d so end up our plan of going to various place all cancelled..
so leh we went home..den wait for BBQ!
ahahha....so damn full ...bloated like hell..
die d i need go jogging tmr...nvm tmr waking up early go makan dim sum...
ahahahaha
realli damn alot of food this bbq...haihz...cant resist

they playing mahjong now...i dont know hw to play...sienezz strike me again...y lah..
ahaha.....
still wondering wta did CHARM did....
i felt so far behind once again....
guilty aso...
whee tmr goign beach....
the wind the sea the sand the sky!!!

kla i felt so down again....straw u realli influence me d...ahahaha
sigh*

silent night

2007-05-05T03:04:00.000+08:00

guess wat..
for the very first time..
everyone was shocked tat i came early to pudu!
often im the 1 who will alwiz late and overslept
yet today i still overslept coz i promise someoen to b there at 8am...
n he kinda "sei ban" coz din call me when is edi 8.08 n i havnt reached kj station...
coz b4 dat i told this fren to nt call me coz i will most probably scold him..ahaha
n he really didnt..sigh*
so sorry...
but overall i reached there earlier than i thought..
than yoon sin,weicyn and shing yee..ahahha
really thanks to my fren for sending me to pudu which i donno wher eizzit...
ahahaha

reached penang at 3pm!
nice bus bt still is a bus whihc often lack of the comfortable-ness ahaha...
it was such a small place...but yet we hv fun..
we did lotsa stupid things...
stays in tzyy shyuan hse n sheril hse...
got com so i blog abit...

*in a state of frustration and depression....shedding tears..but soon tmr i'll b fine like
fogetting watz happening int he past!*

au revoir

2007-05-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

leaving to penang tmr...!
abit of uneasiness coz im still in a dilemma..
but yet i 'd make my decision...

will b back on monday...tillden...
adios!

2007-05-02T05:23:00.000+08:00

avril-lavigne-when you're gone

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

mayb u really r scary to me...
scares me to death that i dont hv the courage to stand for myself anymore...
i just dont know why..
already ive said i'll let u go...
freeing u away is my biggest humanity that i ever did..
coz i love you and that is why im letting u go as ive said b4...
but there's soemthing that i missed out...
im not that hapy since the day u're gone..im serious..
coz i m living in a place where there's oni fear surroudning me
and also the world that somehow dont seems to be mind...

somehow, i didnt just close the door...coz.....

lara fabian-i will love again

I will love again though my heart is breaking I will love again stronger then before
I will love again even if it takes a lifetime to get over you heaven only knows

But I've got to be strong tell me wut else can I do

but i just cant let go the fear i have in me...
mayb i just dont deserve anything...
(=

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today i chat with straw..ahaha first time we've been chatting for so long..till uhm 4am?
well is truly unexpected...thank u for spending time wiht me straw!
hahaha

and cant stop saying how banana speaks mandarin..
cis...ok wert no meh...
ahhaha
anyway datz all bout today....

adios

shabu-shabu and sushi

2007-05-01T17:41:00.000+08:00

ahhaha shabu-shabu is not the steamboat in this case...
just thought that this name is kinda suits this...

doesnt seems delicious aight...
but no is delicious n healthy* *wahaha...tak kenal malu*
nt supposed 2use this mee...but then i got no other mee..
so haiyah nvm lerh..

next is...i went to eat sushi tomo...in ss2..
ahah
che favourite sushi restaurant...
indeed the salmon is so voila!

c! ahahah thatz da okonomiyaki..not quite nice actually...
ahaha

exam is over..

2007-05-01T01:35:00.000+08:00

yeay..finally my last and final foundation exam is over..
feel blessed that it went fine...
i have so much trouble for my management...
i was so worried and i go n consult my mum n told her my probs..
finally after a session of emotional moment...i was so tired that i went to sleep
but i cant sleep! n i turn to elft n right like several millions times n i cant sleep
stupid...killing me...

anyway long story short...i think i did fine...

den after that went to 1u...i had a hang out session with the same gang... watch wild hogs...
humour show...not bad....hehe...

den don hv a satisfying dinner coz ate in waffle worlds...
ahha...thought of buying sneakers but realised ive got no money once again...grr!
ah!!!! geram....

came home sis use the com...
so sorry straw* dat i cant c u online...sos orry....
den by 1 liet oni get to online...
talkw ith 2 crazee monkey...
now is 4.09AM n again i cant sleep...
ping! my improper timing struck me again!
bah! my effort failed...

anyway i so wish to watch hills have eyes but i couldnt find any kaki...
sobz sobz...

normal day

2007-04-29T00:39:00.000+08:00

is a saturday...
nothing special to do..
wat else besdies studying, oh i did my cooking again..is a success well just need abit of modification..overall is healthy and delicious lah...ahha my sis siad is good..so shud b ok..ahah
will post it up sooner or later but nt now...
and dden basically i watched tv all day long..eeks!
and i post my blog...
haha...
so there's nothing much...
guess datz all ler...
so glad miza replied me..ahahaha
i think i frightened her ahahah....

k nth else...
let me end with a short stuff or oh well i donno wat shud i called it...

the persona is so similar,
i couldnt resist but wanting more,
i hope it begins to b familiar,
so that i would not hang on, no more.

i hold back as i discovered,
no, i repeatedly reminded,
begging for mercy not wanting to suffered,
but it just made me wondered.

may or may not begin,
the tragedy might soon begin,
it'll hurt if is true,
i somehow wish it is true.

forget the day i had a smile on my face

2007-04-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

a person once came up to me and ask..
wat is my happiest moment with my family?
i could not believe that i have difficulty in answering this question.
i stoned for awhile..thinking so exhaustively..
and nothing came to my mind.
i was terrified.
i say..i have a broken family..
biggest impact on me was most probably that it happened in the mid of my childhood year
when my brain is not mature yet but i know how to think already.
the problem is this.
if is happen when i was real young..i wouldnt b even thinking of it.
but at the young age i was and considered to b a person who hv brian to think..
it can haunts me sometimes..not trying to say im such a pity..and i know people like in Africa is worse than i...their mother or father or children can die anytime from now..just like that and nothign they could do..the young child may think, this is part of live...death is a usua thing to them..well is good...ratehr than u grieve and mourn for it....
back to me..
is almost 8yrs...
mama was in oevrseas...i just dont know if i shud worried or wat..
the adult alwiz say..this is adult prob this is adult prob..
mayb im really a deep-thinker or shall i say gullible?
yea i juts dont know how to enjoy life...ppl may see me liek a free soul...
i am..but i think more 2 a psycho or somehting...?!
ah i cant go on....stop ere

random random

2007-04-27T17:01:00.000+08:00

this is a sneakers that a fren intro to me..

well i hv no idea wat izzit called already...

but looks cool to me...

if the swoosh have texture then mayb better..ahhaah..yesh my fren teach me that it is called a swoosh ..yeay i learn new thing!

wahaha...

eh my bday coming plz someone buy this for me..ahahahaha..kidding lerh..everyday is my bday anyway...ahahaha....TTM....

OK!

today i wooke up at 2PM..ahaha....actually got up at 10am...but end up procrastinating...till i finally lift my butt up...so i get ready...fetch my sis to centrepoint...i headed straight to giant/atria...yesh i went there? must b thinking wat i did there aite...going supermarket ocoz buy groceries lah...yea i very ah ma i noe...well just like shopping..i can spend like few hours there walking forth and back...

im nt just "zhai" walk lerh...meaning im nt just walking blindly with no purpose...iw ent there to buy food lah...since im so broke i need to stock up food so that i can cook for long term...and ive counted..it will definitely save my money for a month!...so guess wat i bought...i bought alot of stuff...and is oni RM** ahahahah...wink* so ive tried to make my shabu-shabu (datz wat i called) and turned out iw ent home by 4Pm++...and so is gonna b dinner time anyway so i keep it for tmr...ahaha....so the results of my shabu-shabu is unknown...wait till then...n i'll let u noe watz shabu-shabu...hahah....hopefully is delicious n healthy...

toodlez!

nite of dawn

2007-04-27T04:48:00.000+08:00

havent been like this for a long time..
so many memories passedby my delicate brain..
not sure if i shud b happy or sombre...
but ti seems that my life is so much happier before that..
i noe nothing will b the same again..so as u...
im getting over it...
im really trying so dman hard...
just alil bit more...
well anyway thanks to this fren...
this fren company me for the whole night of despair...
haha really a joker...
yet we play the same thing like wat u did to me..
sigh* well is just coincidence i mean..yea i wouldnt hv th eright to think so much anyway..
coz is impossible..i acnt turn back time nor anyone...
however, i think i feel so happy...
not been having a happy night/mornign as now...
really appreciate the effort and rite here i wanna thank you..thanks so much..
great song...great effort...joker ..lame and the perosn is dumber..ahaha
din noe got such ppl dumebr than me
ya allah...alhamdulila...
so sorry dude for if i have making so much inconveniences to u ahahha....
God knows who i am...

*let the music heal my soul* yeay!

random

2007-04-27T01:52:00.000+08:00

it was the weather!
i claimed but is certainly not the matter!
undefined by its hardbitten day!
somehow all stays the same...

is all jumblled up

2007-04-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

my bills for degree have arrived...
and im so frustrated coz my papa keep bugging me to apply loan
schoalrhsip and other financial help..
stress stress stress..
worse than exam...
rit enow i got so much pressure as if i dont hv any help..
yes i might stop studying n become a begger...
ahhaha nola too exaggerating..

anyway will figure it out later..

lixin is back! whee
our conversation started today!
finally since for so long she vanished in perak for SAM
gosh...woman u owe us a big time...

geez i should appreciate evry seconds from now to study but then..
im blogging...
wat am i doing here!
ah! screwed it
im gonna GG soon
GG everyday aso..
how i wish everythign will b just fine...

my luck has been dropping nowadayz...
u know i dont believe in luck
but then now i do..
coz i really cant figure out hw bad is my life rite now..
seriously u dont wanna know...

jo im still waitng for ur return!

2007-04-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

tried this test posted in choo's blog..ahaha
kinda cool..
but i doubt bout this..
so impossible i mean...

You are the World

Completion, Good Reward.

The World is the final card of the Major Arcana, and as such represents saturnian energies, time, and completion.

The World card pictures a dancer in a Yoni (sometimes made of laurel leaves). The Yoni symbolizes the great Mother, the cervix through which everything is born, and also the doorway to the next life after death. It is indicative of a complete circle. Everything is finally coming together, successfully and at last. You will get that Ph.D. you've been working for years to complete, graduate at long last, marry after a long engagement, or finish that huge project. This card is not for little ends, but for big ones, important ones, ones that come with well earned cheers and acknowledgements. Your hard work, knowledge, wisdom, patience, etc, will absolutely pay-off; you've done everything right.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

CongratZz CHARM II

2007-04-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

CHARM Takes
THe 4Th PlacE InJapAN!!!
EXCELLENT!!
GOOD JOB!!!
WE ARE PROuD TO Be CHARM!!!!

COngRatzZ CHarm

2007-04-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

though CHARM got 2nd place in cheer emas/ SCP.... u all r still the best!...really proud of u guyz...
good job n great effort....
hopefully u all really hv fun n nt just all bout winning le...
as long as u all put all ur effort n do ur best!
datz wat matter!...CHARM is tough stuff!!!!

yeay!
sos ad cant b part of it..sobz sobz

but still very happy fo rthem...
today another CHArm group coming back frm japan!
wonder hwz the competiiton!

random..sweet!

2007-04-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

typical argument

2007-04-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

just wat im expecting, a day which is so bad that i wanted to scream at 8a.m.
i almost gorge my eyeballs out to look into my left side contact lens..
and OMG!!!!!!!!!???****
there isnt any lens..im so dead..i noe is my execution day today..
yla...
i just din wear u for 1 day..
y u need to leave me like this.....
so **** i tell u...
i was so worried and yet i cant shout my lungs out...
i tried to calm down n is nt really me who can keep my rage so successfully, but i did!
i kept it in my heart.
my plan for today failed miserably...
due to this matter, i got no mood to coach dynamitez.
no mood to go for a jog.
i walked aimlessly to ping's hse to return her book.
i went back home, trying to put on a smile and bade goodbye to my sis to work...
i tried spend entire time left, forgetting the incident.
when the time comes, i knew that my torture chamber's door is opened so widely for me..
and i got no choice but to go thru it to survive.
it was worse than i thought
$ do kills...
$ is everything since im young.
with $ u cant actually buy everything, but without $, u definitely cant buy ANYthing...
this may even ruin ur relationship.
so will u want to have $ but might or might nt ruin a relationship (a 50/50 chance)
or will u want to hv no $ but ruining a relationship?
well, it's clear i think, well at elast for me...

when i was small, i wish to meet my prince when im teenager. so i wish i could grow faster n step into teenage life...
when i was teenager, it wasnt that gd to hv bf anyway.
coz none of us know hw to drive, n God knows hw much trouble i deal with transporation.
so i wish to know hw to drive when im older.
so i waited for my 17th bday to come.
when i knew hw to drive, my prob doesnt solved yet.
$ dat matters now...
so i wish to b an adult real soon so i could work to reduce my burden to the family.
and yet im waiting wat is awaits me now....

for quite some times, i havent cried like today.
as i feel so angry, gulty, stress, i donno a mixture of feelings when dad strated to explode.
i can die everytime this occured.
mayb, im nt so sure, is somehtign good...
i felt relieved but yet im dissatisfied.
for the moment, i just want to msg you, joaquim! !!!
i need u so abdly rit enow!

*imagine for a lil thing like losing a contact lens can bring me to hell already!*

random

2007-04-20T03:27:00.000+08:00

it has been a year now..
a year..
if a person really can let go so easily, that person probably have no feelings...
anyhow..
today i saw L..
to those who doesnt know who's L, well u may try to read back my gazzilions posts in the yr 2006.
ahhaha
for th moment i think this is such a small world..
my heart drops like when i first sat on a roller coaster rides..
nope i shall say bungy jump..
i cant believe i was hiding,
avoiding
like a scary cat..
and yet i am..
yes im suhc a chicken
but seriously i think is better for me to avoid..
if nt i'll b rather emo now..
i guess jo noe hw i react if im unhappy...
i'll nt b that sad but instead happy in an awkward and forceful and fake way..
yes..
guess most of u all dont know..
but mayb crazy ppl like me will react sucha way
i think im a good actress...
i often feel insecure..
insecure owrried bout this particular day willcome
often i leave my hse,
every steps i take is a deja vu for me
seriously i just so afraid i'll see L again
so afraid...
not knowing wat shall i say
not knowing if i shud smile
cry
angry
slap and make upa fight
i dont know...
thus im scared..
anyway i trie dnt to think this is fate...
is just coincidence..
yes..coincidence...

au revoir

2007-04-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

my besties: joaquim aka jo aka 1/2 yau char kuai

yes im the other half...

r going to US tmr..
huhu~~~
sobz
im alone again...
no~~~
anyway rememeber souvenir saya okay!
i wan cool stuff...
i don care u read this or not ya...must know wat im thinking!
ahhahaa

c u soon!!!!

oh n my another bestie is comign back frm metriculation...
this bestie haihz..i disspointed d...
hopefully is really for good...
Lixin u better visit my blog..i know where u stay n is nt far aso..
ahhaha
so watch out!
hahahaha

good luck CHARM!

2007-04-19T14:54:00.000+08:00

part of the CHARM is heading to JAPAN today!...so nice!
wish they could make our CHARM proud n we can b offcially undermalaysia soon..
datuk azalina knew bout it..
at least got ppl like her knew it...
CHARM u guyz better kick their ass k..
haha
and another part of the CHARM going for CHEER emas/SCP soon on this sat n sun!
hoepfully by then i've edi studied n gonna go support u guyz...
u all really did a great job despite all the tension u all have at the beginning...

CHARM is on the STARTWO newspaper again yesterday!
whee!!
but i hoep no1 saw me..
so ugly
so round like a fishball (i mean my head)
ew!
anyway is alwiz proud to b ont he newspaper..
i mean in ur life, how often can u b on a newspaper aight?

though im nt eitehr part of the CHARM for any competition..
i went for their practices when i culd..
n try to help if i do..
during that time often i forgot that im nt in the ocmpetition..
but i always felt happy that i could help n im part of the CHARM!
so sometimes is nt teh matter of u r in a great mission or not..
but is the matter of ur passion u have and chance are always there..
is a tough journey to b in a team...
but all in all, just hoping that everyone know hw to b humble and realise other ppl present

omg feel so nice they could go japan...
waiting for souvenirs...
WINK WINK
*later don hv malu aje*
ahhahaha

kla all bout charm oni this post...

bout exam..i gt no comment...
hehe

boring-ness

2007-04-18T03:29:00.000+08:00

im nt supposed to say boring..
coz i shud b studying..
but yet as i think bout charm compeititon..
eeks..feel sos ad lah...the team is going to japan this thurs d!...
hmmm...
and i din even study anythign yet...
lurve to chill and do everyhting last mins..
tsk tsk...
tmr will hv mission!
to b a postwoman ahaha...
oh n today wat id id was cleaning my hse..
typical routine..
mop, swept, wash, clear!
tada!

this is my 2nd time posting this again...
but yet my 2nd sis say ok..haihz..sad betul...
anyway this is my "spaghetti la allécher"

boredom

2007-04-17T18:12:00.000+08:00

how come nowadayz everyone seems to b missing?
or am i invisible to them?
often my mum said,
there is no such thing as "no time"
and i knwo thatz qutie true..coz is u dat is trying to take the time to laze around or sleep or rest.
but izzit more important than families, friends, and ur responsibility?
just to reply someone sms or calls or calling/smsing them?
well, this is wat calls human...full of excuses but alwiz never confessed it's an excuses to them..

wateva it is...
is just my thoughts.

dad hasbeen playign mahjong since starting of chinese new year till now...
im so sick of the noise n the egoism he has
or sarcasticm..
i feel so mad of him sometimes for being irresponsible father..
though he's been the one supplying allt he income to us..
but all i want is a fatehr who cares and really give the best for the child..
rather than ranter ranter and never tried his best...
ppl mite think im a horrid child for saying my own fatehr liek this..
but im used to it..for ppl alwiz stereotype me...
often he said 1 thing now but diff next time.
im so tired of hearing it lerh...
if he hv no money, y keep wasting money...
even i save moeny for him, i got scolded for nth..
omg..im clueless of being good n bad...
nt only him who's behaving liek this..
yet some other ppl too..

being the youngest is nt that good at all..
for those who may think is so good to b the youngest..
but in my situation is nt at all..
ive responsibility to do..
a hard 1..seriosuly i dont know why me?
ive tried every means i have...
and for 6 yrs...i got oni a pinch of success...
ah! i feel such a failure sometimes..
indeed i stress alot but i never show it..
coz is part of my growth..
for almost 7 yrs...i learn alot..
and i got treatened in many ways...
and i noe that, theres no point showing hw u felt when ppl acnt actually help u...
so jsut turn it into ur strength then...
but such strength that watz makes my beloved woman worrie dbout me..

these few dayz...
thinkign about doign something..
btu yet i never tried ot do it
coz whenever iw ant to do it,
i backup because some thigns just swayed thru my mind
and i hold back...
i begin to use the reverse-psychology
but yet it hurts me and also u...
sorry it is the pain that i often gives to ppl
it is the hard side of me that i can only give to u...
sometimes mayb is good to b a loner...
as to not continue to hurt others...
so just stay away from me...

ah! wat a pessimistic post i got...
eash!

this darn funny

2007-04-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

done by clasmates...tsk tsk..
finds out more at chin hong's blog ppl..
ahahaha

TEll Moi Watz Ya GOt? winkY

2007-04-15T16:19:00.000+08:00

did the 2nd time coz got few question i was nt sure..ahah guess imt oo free an di got this...

2007-04-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 2pm today.
not knowing wat to do or wat to say.
both sis went clubbing yesterday.
i wish i could go but turns out nt that way.
anyway i dont really mind as im tired and feel lazy.
i online again while chatting with the same person again.
felt a pinch of loneliness inside myself.
but oh well it will fade by itself.
i looked at the way ppl's living their life.
simple and fine..
wonder why and if i could b like those ppl.
just plain dull or just splendid with no sigh*
i reflected myself.
not too bad not too dull
just almost satisfied but yet is a distance away.
i experienced extraordinary of life.
yet, there r more to come in the future.
i will add a tinge of colour in my life every day.
just to reach the paradise i expecting.
every falls i've revived again.
someitmes just think if it do any good to b able to let put the problems aside
i believe problem is a way to help u be wise.
and mistakes help u to b a better person.
only by having negativity, u will find the positivity.
only argument can help u understand the matter better.
so isnt it better if u could just be open-minded and be patient
tolerant and caring,
u'll realised that understanding ur peers are so vital in any relationship.

tiring day

2007-04-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

today is somewhat friday the 13th which si also the 2nd last day with my td12 classmates.

ate witht hem for lunch in 'my noodle house'.

but some spaghetti ingredient coz im broke so need to stock up food for logn term use.

the day doesnt ends here..

continue with a wonderful suggestion frm wein..to play baseball

ended up watching a movie...

keep pursuing them to watch reaping or hannibal..

but wien refused

instead she ratehr watch perfume

botha so phsycho show wert..haihz

bad lerh...

anyway im too desperate to watch hannibal coz i booked tix..is ahrd to book tix u noe...

so what did i do?

i go call up another fren of mine..which is mya nother half yau char kuai..jojo

she's so nice..though she somehwo liek wein..sced to watch bt she's a great fren..

she teman me wtach

so after the 4.40 show i straightaway rushed up to cinema again to watch th enext show

ahhaha

skipped dinner

so darn cold i don even feel any hunger

and also i sprained my sprained-before leg again!

painfulnye...well used to it d...coz once u sprained ur leg b4..u tend to sprianed it again
coz is fragile...but malu lah...got rip in cinema..luckiyl is dark inside...

but i was sos atisfied..i mite gonna go phsycho for watching so many maniac movies..

ahahaha

ont his particular day..

but nevertheless...im so happy that this actor in hannibal is so damn cute..

he is sexy hot,, cute...elgant gorgeuos pretty..

ah! total package for me..

i repeat ah..is fo rme...

wta othe rppl think i donno la...

i love this guy..ah!...crazy over him...

GAspard Ulliel...

XOXO

**** my connection

2007-04-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

jorh y y y this time!
is friday the 13th...ok...so?
y must b me
yerh...stupid..i cant connect to msn now n i cant even load the hotmail page..y oni this 2...
omg....
shyt lah..im darn bored..wat if..
wat if
i got hacked?
wat if..i cnat used my email add anymroe...
shyt lah.....

sPecial@---}{---

2007-04-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

this is ck..
or you can call him Tan Shui Bian
he is a tree..a tall tree in my td...
(luckily he din wear green on that day!)
just like yao ming ..for those who do not know who's yao ming..he is actually a
renowned basket-baller...
haahha..
look at those people around him!
we're so tiny like a dwarf!
ahahah..anyway this guy ere is very lame, funny,
total lamer, lame, very lame, and alwiz got himself almost GG
he is all-lecturer fav.
he is very good actually...

ok after this special introduction which i cant resist myself from posting this guy ere..
we move on to the next....

ok ahem* ahem*

human! we are a stranger
ignorant as a beginner
only know we are here to be a learner
not knowing we will meet each other.

it was then, our relation just swayed
it is now, together we are gay
in deep thoughts we somehow say
how we hope we can turn back time someday.

day by day, distance by distance
we are apart in just an instance
just remember to feel each other existence
in any means, yes! a vital conscience.

XOXO
dedicated to td12 from peikee
*sry if its lousy.. but heart dat counts ok*

"appreciate every extraordinary moment
treasure every everlasting memory"

short breath

2007-04-11T14:48:00.000+08:00

finally my assignments and presentations are over...
and guess watz coming up next?
is................my finals!
c...is so lifeless!
just around the corner....final sem final exam...
haihz just nt so ready for this...
and also spending less n less time with foundation fren...
sigh*

CHARM is goign for japan cup compeitition n also SCP...
im so upset for missing it...
y alwiz lidet..
haihz....
but nevertheless, i wish them all the best and bring victory to CHARM!

oh general prac is off for now..
hmm..well again u c...y lidet..when i free got nth when im nt free gt so many events..grr...

anywya im relieved now!
oh n i got lotsa pics...stupid pics, lame pics, serious pics, vain pics..wat pics aso got..
so erm
when i got the mood first k..
coz blogger is lousy...

m.i.s.s.

2007-04-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

I MISS...

EVERY SINGLE FREN IN UTAR
EVERY SINGLE DAY I SPEND WITH MY FREN
EVERY MOMENT IM IN PA
EVERY SWEET AND SOUR MOMENT IN FOUNDATION
EVERY LAME AND STUPIDITY WE DID TOGEDA
ZACK
YOON SIN
WEI CYNN
SHING YEE
SUK WEIN THOUGH SHE'S NT LEAVING ME...SO NICE!
THOSE WHO GONNA LEAVE PJ CAMPUS
FUN TIME WE'VE SPEND EACH AND EVERY SINGLE SECONDS
TZY SHUAN(NT SUR EHW TO SPELL), SHERIL, FERN, LILI, SOH NEE, AND SO ON...
ALL THE GUYZ IN MY TD
ALL THE LECTURER I NOe

SO....

people...
keep in touch!
a single respond can mean alot k...
i think on the last day im gonna cry...
T__T

tiring weeks

2007-04-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

hey guyz im back to blogging...
been dayz im bz with all the assignment..
i can really break the record aight!..for not sleeping for 3 dayz and also sleep for oni 2hrs for 5 dayz...
man this is insane..
now 1 more left to go...
hw i hope everythign will goes well...and stop torturing me!!!....
timetables for finals is up!
my goodness they're nutz...
y cant they just do the exam straight in a roll but split it up into a whoel big gap!
gosh i ppl want holiday lah...
yorh...u c they r nutZZzzz.....

lazy to type all sortsa rubbish...

pics pics pics...

this is our drama! we rehearse, we spend so much time on it! great effort...on thta day was damn farny...forgot script and all.. but overall everyone is so pretty on that day..hahahah.....oh and the guys actually do a drama by the theme of "romeo and romeo" is about gay stuff...ahaha darn funny....
and then we have our web page design presentation...we did well...yeay!
and staretd to camwhore after that...

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next up...is few dayz before all our presentaion stuff...
our class all go crazee ...
the room is conquer by us noisy ppl...ahaha
doing lame stuff which is karaoke in lecture room..ahaha
ok so this guy chong actually serenade to shing yee..
ahaha...by force of course...
but it was sos chillign elrh...

shing yee the beuty *trying to ignore* ahahha

chong the beast *singing like a prince*

the audience who thought of this lame thigny *haihz..bunch of lamer*

shytty days ive been

2007-03-31T14:53:00.000+08:00

i tot short sem will nt b that hectic but it proves me wrong.
for almost 4 dayz ive nt been sleeping..
1st,2nd and 3rd day were fairly well which i self-proclaim dat at least im able to sleep
*yea sos call "sleep" which is like 1 or 2hr'"
so peikee is looking ratehr "chan" (fatigue) already
and worse i didnt sleep ata ll ont he 4th day along with my fren, wein who is also strugglign togeda
with me to finsihed up d assignment..
so on that day itself finally we still havent finished but wat to do at leats must submit somethign our head, zack, who i guess also didnt sleep the whole day...
so 3 panda were in utar..
but the shitty day doesnt just end here...
we go for our class withotu sleeping at 8am...
and guess wat..once me n wein reached there...our lecturer happened to call me to do the task of..
acting about the situation that is projected in the slide.
so im like "huhhh...i just reached only..." (and im darn tired n sleepy ..ant even think..but all i did was just to go with the flow)
and then...later...lecturer called another person..and that is....wein! ahahah wat a coincidence....
shytty hell i tell u...
after that we continue our assignent n oops got prob with the pendrive of yoon sin...
so....
me zack n wein were working out with the com..n we eneded up not attending the management class..
after that my eyes gonna cry d n its nerve wanna burst d...but still need to rehearse our drama..
den yada yada yada...
they decided to go "sing ma in pasar seni to get stuff for our drama"
my goodness i also nt sure y i go along..
so once i fetch yuen to lrt n i waited for wein in her hse..both of us headed to lrt n there we go...
so it was fun le...but i really darn sleepy
going back home...we sat bus..n luckily is cold inside n nt hot...but i fall asslep evry now n then...
n we din noe that the bus actually stop after ss2...n so we tot got taxi..
so me n wein like keep walkign hoping to c a taxi...
but is in vain...
so...we decided to walk back to.....SS4!!!!!!!! wah datz insane man....
ahvent sleep whole day, go pasar seni...walk back home...is a far far journey....
whatz more i have to drive abck hoem after dat..wah im glad im still alive..went hoem eat my dinner....bath....i lie on my bed n knocked off...
and i idn noe i slept....tillt he next afternoon!...wah sleep for mre than 12hr....
n now i online to continue my assignment again...
this is y im nt able to post anything...
hahaah.....
sigh*

It's Not Over- Chris Daughtry

2007-03-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

this song kept running in my mind!
but yet i havent sick of it..

C3 finally over and done.
i shall say is just almost gonna be a success for me. but sigh* why must ended up ruining my
goodie mood. just a lil bit more and is gonna b a great event. as everyone noe, i aim for perfection
which is indeed an issue for me. however, nothing i can do to turn back time. I wanted it to be
perfect because, i really put my effort and time in doing my job. )=
but anyway, is over. and i learn from it.

however, even so and so is over, as im still alive, im nt over yet...

my 'plague' day is coming soon.
is been a year now..
i still think bout u now and then.
this is call "jin" in cantonese..
i really cant accept the fact that we've been apart for a year!
n still im nt over u yet...
like the lyrics goes:

"Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
This love is killing me
But you’re the only one"

to be honest,
i just feel that im nth good..
i dont like ppl to understand me..
but i fall for ppl very easily...
even if the person undertstand me just a lil..
is somethign that i feel enough as i'm hard to b understood.
im so clueless..
if u think i should change,
i rather forget wat ive said..
ahahah
coz i jsut dont know how...

so my life moves on..n nothing is over...

uhm...

2007-03-20T17:21:00.000+08:00

i couldn't figured out what title should i put but anyway that doesnt matter so much.

im so so exhausted..!!!!!!??!!!
ive not been sleeping like 2 dayz because of doing assignments and exam coming soon again and also i gotta call up the participants which is so many and yea my bills also came out rather shocking! even there's this person who reply my message around 4am! wah this person sure smart enough to knwo i havent sleep yet.

anyway i noe u guyz will b thinking..since im so tired and sleepy y nt i sleep now..and wth im doing here blogging rite..uhm..well i'll say that...i cant help it lah..i c my blog so retarded.. it makes me feel pathetic as the blogger..haha..so just let me crap something..whatz more is the best way for me to review my day as well..

so tmr is the brieifng day for CHARM cheerleading championship 2007. i was actually kinda worried. not sure about wat. however, i really feel pissed because someone just said somethign to me which is i feel that izzit wrong to ask question?
anyway watz past edi past and i dont feel is a disgrace to myself if i admit im a noob. at least, i try to do the best i can. and my feedback is as if im wrong..in short, the person must b thinking im a total loser.
*sigh*
hopefully everything will turn out alrite tmr..
no..cannot hope...is a MUST
God knows hw much i put my effort into it.
keeping my finger-crossed..

drama script, ms samantha said it was good! yeay!
so now i wished that my directing skills will b alrite
so that the actresses will perform well.
i just hope u guys enjoy urself and just b lively!

watz left for me to think about is management..
im so way back from others..
so i guess tonite i wont b able to sleep again..
y la i cant figure out the difference between opportunities and strength
alwiz get myself trapped into the pool of confusion.!
pfftf...

in a month times, i will finish my foundation!
goign degree..im kinda like sad and nt excited at all..
gonna miss seeing all my utar fren..*sobz*sobz*
not sure if im used to the environment there or wat but the dissatisfactioni have towards utar is now gone..i no longer hate utar except...EXCEPT...for the stupid parking space and nonsensical rules from G.O....can never get a good parkign space!..grr..
well people may say utar is not good this n that...
well diff ppl hv diff thoughts.
i mean if u hv da money...den go on saying the bad thigns bout utar lah...
if not...try it and is not that bad at all...
(haha i better nt say so much...later someday i changed my mind when i starts my degree)
hahahaha....

i shall get some nap now or i'll looks liek begger later...

to be continue...

this shudnt b happenign to me!

2007-03-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

i shall say that im such a blur queen..
imean im the head
hw can i dont know that we're gonna perofrm the first?
stupid me
tot it was just kidding
well...shhoott..
i dont even noe they pick no. on thurs...
hw can a head dont know bout this?
this is unforgivable
i dont forgive myself
nor i really think that im so doink!
omg!
i failed

i need a break

2007-03-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

im tired
im exhausted
im fatigue
im stress
im frustrated
im drained
.
.
.
.

i need some fresh air
i need some help
i need to know watz goign on clearly
i just need some break
i just need some support

going crazee

2007-03-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

whatz going on with me nowadayz...
totally clueless
could feel my life is almost shattered
my heart is almost plagued by hurts
and my brain will soon messed up...

i dont want this to happen...
i fear
im afraid
i wanna shoot the gun not to myself but to u
yes
u
u
u
u
and finally me...

sounds so psycho...
gosh...

dilemma

2007-03-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

People alwiz say that being a human is difficult. The moment ur brain starts to function, you start to think, and think, and think again. Why in our life we must make so many decisions? Why cant it just as simple as getting up frm sleep, eat, entertain urself, bath, sleep again.of course such route is boring. whether u like ur life to b stressful or boring, i'll just leave it for u to think. As for me, i alwiz thought of questionz that have no answer for it. like for example, why must we breath, why must we hv legs to walk, why cant our legs just like those wheels with tyres then we no need to take so much energy to walk.
haha obviously im tryign to say im lazy.hahaha.LAME! for me i normally get frustrated bout decision that i have to make for my education. so much to b considered and is a real big deal.
if u ever make the wrong decision, ur future will b affected as well. see is future.
i brought up this topic because...
i still not sure bout wat i really wanted to study.

i cant really decide on whetehr should i go for the course that will earn $$ and gaurantee better life and u r average interested but u r not qualified for it
OR
the course that u really interested & mayb will qualified for it but is hard to get job because lotsa competitor and payment will b low.
i got not much time to think bout it...so i hope if anyone could just give me some advice or tell me what potential can u see in me? hmm seems liek i dont really noe myself at all..
oh and u noe i got analyze before bout the career that i should b in or somethign lidet in my previous post? not sure when was it..but the statistic, well not only int his test but for many coucelling ive attended, i alwiz in the performing art category...y lah....i eman i liek it lah but then...when i think bout my future and u noe nowadayz ppl r just so real..no cert no professional qualification no talk..grrr...
haha and my math lecturer mr ong so funny...he said that he definitely neo that im good at cheerleading..grr im nt asking bout that elrh sir....nonsense betul dia..
oh n this is our conversation dat day ...

Part I

me: im gonna stick to actuaries lah mr ong..im gonna work in oil and gas d...

mr ong: hahahaa...eh good then next time i no petrol i giev u a call "eh my car just out of oil lah can u come n deliver ah?"

me: cis...(wanted to say i will take the gas and explode ur car!..ahaha jk) i will coutnt he probabilty of your car to explode when use my delivered oil..ahahah

Part II

mr ong : What do you like to do?

wein: i dont liek to do anything.

mr ong: hmm den i know...you should just keep to actuarial science n faster married wif a rich guy n b housewife!

wein: uhmmm....

(the group of ppl burst in laughter)

me: i love to sleep

mr ong: huh...sleep....erm..what kinda job requires taht uh...?

zack: hahahaha....

me: i will go CHina

mr ong: huh china? y?

me: coz i'll b dere doing prostitution..lurve sleeping mah...ahahah

(mr ong sweat to death..ahahahah...)
(of course is justa joke)

continue with blogging

2007-03-12T02:12:00.000+08:00

its been awhile that i havent been updated my posts.
finally i got the initiative to do so due to several errands im running these dayz.

first of all, did anyone see CHARM in STAR newspaper?
haha...is alwayz exciting for me to see myself on newspaper! though is just a tiny lil me.
i went to JOHOR on fri nite which we took 12am (sat) midnite bus.
i got food poisoning just afew hrs before heading to pyramid.
i wanted to back out so much but unfortunately i couldnt coz of no having substitute.
and also i dont want my captain to b frustrated bout it instead.
so i forced myself to just do it. and hellt he journey i would say is my worst journey so far.
rite now, i already have food phobia.
so sick of eating n puking all out again..whatz th epoint eating n letting me to suffer
like im having bullimic.
anyhow is great to go for a performance specially to elsewhere with a big bunch of ppl!

just finished studying my web page design..
not sure if i can remembered wat ive studied but i just hope i can roughly know wat izzit
coz today i just partially recovered and tmr is my mid term exam..
tsk tsk...not really enjoying 3rd sem..as everything is so rushing..
assignment is due on the same day..lack of time..lack of preparation..
ok n im the head of drama..so im so not sure if i oculd handle it..just so worried coz
i think that im not capable as i cant fulfill everyone's needs..
eventhough my members seemed to agree with wateva i said, mayb i think too much,
but is as if they'r nt sincere..sorry guys but i just want u all to enjoy..
coz there aint any good if is making u all to do it reluctantly rite..
easy to type it here but hard to say it out..
thatz just me waiting for the rite time to say it..

Oh n durign the trip back frm johor..i get to watch "u think u can dance?" and also my captain, cheewei, and yenniez dance! in my own opinion, i think that they're pretty good..it was so um..sentimental, elegant, gentle, and dreamy..haha i donno..just so soothing..
good good...really admire those ppl who can dance so well..i myself really loves dancing but i shall say my dancing sux..(not tryign to b humble but is true)..hope i can work on it though..(=

in about a month time, i will again meet my worst day in my life.
time flies like there isnt 24 hrs a day u noe wat i mean..
i am moving on but whatz holding me back?
impossible to b ntohing but the fact is nothign holds me back.
unless the scars that i possessed...
yea it remains forever..
why why why.....

cny is over/ random

2007-03-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

cny is over n im gonna opened up my ang pow tmr!
yeay!
and my fever just gone!
bt still im mute...wtf...
anyway tmr gt class...
wanted to blog lotsa things....
mayb tmr oreven tues lerh...

liveless me

2007-03-02T00:13:00.000+08:00

i looks so fatigue nowadayz like as if when i stared myself at my mirror..
i will somehow have the goosebumps feeling...

these few dayz i cried alot
reasons i cried im not gonna specified here..
if u really concerned bout me,
i dare u to ask me..jk*
what i mean is ive no point if i state my reasons here..

do u noe wat i hate at this moment?
is dat those cheater was actually a wise person.
seems like it makes sense..well duhh...since he/she successfully cheated someone...
of course considered wise wert.
ok mayb is just the person happens to b stupid..
eitehr way...
dat is y i hate ppl who think they r smart n hv the power and thus can misuse it
unintentionally on those stupid ones.
does they have hearts? did they ever connect their heart to their brain..
well nt much ppl can b like Jesus CHrist i mean i 100% salute Jesus!
how HE did that?
if only the homo sapiens can hv 1/2 of His values,
i think this world would b so beautiful and filled with happiness...

*mind me if im being so unreasonable or anything...i wont give a damn to it..
because i hv my own opinion n i think is true...ask ur self personally...
ppl alwiz liek to sin but nt confessing n try to realised it*

tiring

2007-02-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

i know that is kinda useless to say this but well seems like it is part of blogging..would like to say sorry for those who have waited for my post..sorry again that ive nt been posting anything coz im bz with CHARM championship 2007 in cineleisure...and also during CNY was too bored bt still i didnt post coz im bored n gt nothing to post about.. so on sat n today i went to do my duty in cineleisure as registrat-er..ahah gt such word eh?? ...wateva..
on sat was tiring coz woke up at 6.30 reached there at 7.30 but yet no1 is there..tot im late...cis!..den looked as if liek dong dong...sitting at hsbc booth with no1 there n almost 95% door closed with several gaurds who pretends to b responsible n dedicative (don open door for us...dam dum dum..or mayb we're dumb..got here so early..ocoz havent open lah..duhh!!!")
den waited for like 35mins...finally 2 ppl came..n me&shana nt aloen anymore..den set up our place!...since it was a long process so i'll nt say much bout it...
jump to the next..
then go sell da yummy marshamallow n etc..really thx to the ppl who helped to contribute money to us! unlike those ppl who couldnt spend even a sec to hear us talk..eash...
so....stand stand stand sit sit eat stand stand talk talk talk talk sleepy sleepy sleepy tired tired tired thirsty thirsty...yea datz all i can say bout that event...

for today, earned quite lil i heard...bt its ok at leats yesterday was good..i was there till 6.00 then i go my grandma hse as usual..force dad to sent me home at 8 but end up 7.55 went back coz dad wanted to go back...once im home i rushed back to cineleisure coz promised (hhaa..jk) that will c sandra
performed..but the real purpose i went back there is to help out to clear the area..coz i think is nt enough ppl...i could oni c half of the show bt more than enough...

+++++this was my dayz in cineleisure++++++

starting my uni tmr...aihz...exam results im speechless...so...
now im speechless..ahah....

time is running out

2007-02-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

school starting soon
and cny is nt dat fun at all
boredom and oni a lil bit of ang pao in hand...cis!
shopping centres arent playing any gong xi fa chai song
omg wat kinda atmosphere is this?
these dayz kinda lazy and bored
and ocoz non-stop cramming my brain with thoughts..
haha datz hw i spend all my day..
and datz y i kept digging for troubles or stresses or even depression...
hahha
datz me

oh yea i might be closing down my blog soon...
)=
but...
is nt that i dowanna blog anymore
is coz...
im gonna make a new 1!
well again
ahhaha
(=

cinema cinema cinema

2007-02-14T14:07:00.000+08:00

recently i watched death note 1 and death note 2...DN2 in cinema
aahhaha whee...
finally i watched it...yea as u can c im very happy
this shows hw desperate n how i love this show.
oh and i realsied that i really admire genius...
the director and the writer of this comic definitely
extraordinary..brilliant i mean...
n n n....tatsuya and matsuken haaa! so dreamy!
love the way they act and their appearance...
almost in any of their show liek nana, battle royale etc...
nt the handsome type but what they hv is the ..erm..the...
sophistication within them despite the normal physical appearance..
also nt to forget there's so many sweetss and choco..though im nt fond
to eating sweet stuff bt it looks so sweet...ahaha...

L.o.v.e <3 is in the air!

2007-02-14T13:59:00.000+08:00

haha is again valentine's post..
so for the lovelybirds..r u all ready to face the day?
hope all the couples in this world will hv a wonderful
and unforgettable valentine's day...

itz VAlentine's Day

2007-02-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

as the sunrise and all that we see is the sweetest skies
doing the last preparation and ensure nothing failed
today will be the chaotic moment for these lovers
may it be the couple that struggling to hv some specialty
may ti be the fresh-couple who felt nervous and excited for the moment
or may it be the singly who just hoping that miracle will come
may it be wateva, still the streets and candlelight is belongs to
both genders today!

**especially to the single including mua,
stay away frm steppign out today as to nt being like a psycho
which doesnt fit in the situation! haha eeks**

//dad and mum must be both lonely..sigh**//

2007-02-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

this journey that i chose was bever been easy
how i hope it is that simple
like how it is that me brutally slash
leaving me at least a reason to die
rather than pondering my identity
as though im a public nuisance
time goes on
i still holding on u
the total jerk dat put me into nothing
considering me worthless
yet i blame that i never good enough
how can i be that naive to actually trusy dat u want me
such mistake is way too far to be forgiven
sometimes i think i better off dead
as im such a stupid person
i want to let u go
i really want
but how can i when i cant do anything to let myself free
im such a fool...
why cant valentine's day really changed the way i think bout it?
why must everything just slipped away
before this particular day
so just considering me that im unlucky(=

GoodByE Captain!

2007-02-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

today my captain yeeming will be leaving to Aussie..
yesterday was kinda like heartrenching moment as the CHARM gathered with yming
for somehwat the very last time (except for those who's gonna b sending her in KLIA tonite)
well, for me i felt awkward as i never thought i knew yeeming for almost almost 3 yrs now or mayb even more than that just that nt that close. i knew her when she was in taekwando (oh bt im nt k) .just that we're same school so im a nerd who alwiz go for co-curiculum last time..whatzmore she same age as my sis..so heard she's a superwoman.coz she involve in almost everything..
then when i rememebr the time i saw her during audition for dyamitez, she gave me the stren look that i was so afraid bt yet when u know her alil longer...she's nt that fierce anyhow unless she get serious with us..(hahaha....disaster)
and now, knowing that she's leaving, i have a sudden thought of hw heavy hearted i will be.
no matter hw weird it sounded, i seriously cant get used to not receiving mails from yeeming bout Charm ...kaka... eh yeamah my mail alwayz gt spam by rubbish except i will oni read those bout CHARM.
though is as if charm loses a capable captain, nevertheless she's ognna be back real soon. till then hopefulyl charm wont upset yeeming.
oh and im happy that yeeming actually responded to my diy card.never thought she'll like it that much (akibat drod tiada wang beli hadiah bagi dia) *well hearts taht count liek wat ym said*..haihz but i forget to write this:"thanks yeeming for fetchign me to practice for the beginning of me stepping into the CHARM family. Really appreciate it!"
till then, charm will be waiting our captain to b back
and tonite ima fraid im nt sending her as it'll b very chaotic there
and tonite also i wonder whatz atmosphere will b during practice.

2007-02-09T00:56:00.000+08:00

there's total of 53 photos but it takes soem time to load evrything
so mayb u may need to wait few minutes to view all the photos...
sry for the inconveniences

me.{m}oirs

2007-02-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

kaka i noe u all must've been waiting for me to upload the pics in malacca..!!
ahhaha tada! ive done it! but then u noe since i got over 100 of pics to upload so it'll b very troublesome for me to put it 1 by 1 so i gotta do it in slideshow so that u can see it in 1 point of view...rather than scrolling down n down till ur eyes pop out..but if u wish to hv the photos plz let me noe n i'll try to send to ya..but then it'll nt so fast coz my connection is so slow and need to wait a logn time to upload it...and also my com often hang..so i'll b very irritated to do again n again yupz..hope u all enjoy the photos bt buddies i guess we enjoyed more during the perios in malacca..ahha...oh 4 those who do not know, i actually havent been to malacca b4...and congratz me that i finally know hw malacca looks like..omg waited for 10 yrs plus just to go malacca...ahahah...now im aiming to go penang coz i havne go b4 too...in fact i havent go many places in malaysia whatzmore in other country...ekks* kesian lah...

anyway this is wat i wanna comemnt bout the trip!
it was awesome except for the bus..ahah coz we need to travel to the town or cetral ro wateva they call it...by bus and it is just so tiring as we need to chase for the bus, wait for the bus, bearing the way the driver's drove the bus...but at times especially at nite it is the time for me to SS..ahha...oh n i went for kayak-ing...eshausting...hahaha...we ate chicken rice ball, chendol, n i ate popiah..popiah was nice!!...ahah...
1 think i know bout malacca is that...the ppl who dorve like to honk..keep honking for no reason...y r they so rush i wonder n is nt jam at all...

things that we didnt get to enjoyed)=
**sate celup
**banana boat
**snorkelling
**shopping(oni me coz i brought oni a weebit of money...kanasai)

overall i enjoyed the way we spend togetehr (me,wein,cynn,zack,shingyee,tzyy shuan, sheryl, leeping, zack's 2 cousin and brother sister n relative....)it was fun! hopefully in the future we will tn forget each toher n again we get back together and
go for trips again...

and now back to those sien-nezz(boredness) in the hse..bah!

going to malacca

2007-02-03T02:50:00.000+08:00

hey guys...in 4 hrs time im gonna leave pj
heading to malacca!
haha ok rite i noe malacca nt that big deal la k..
but then i din go b4 mah.
so cant blame me that i act like jakun.
i only hope that my blog still erm "happening"
though i noe my blog is alwiz dying where i talking
oni to myself most of the time.
anyway u guys enjoy ur day and i enjoy mine!
hopefully*

chinese new year is coming soon
valentine's day also!
i wish that i gonna get lotsa ang pao..
n money will come come this time
and i dont wish that my heart will come
as i hate valentine's day since i was born.
but then i still wish those of u who gonna celeb V'day:
may the day filled with tolerance and understanding
and having the sweetest day in ur life on that day.

@---}{-----

this is my masterpiece...got nothing to do..bahahah

eeks all the perverto!
ahahah
hey im nt pervert k...
just that la senza's model often
have the hot figure...
and how i wish i have dat eh'...*winks*
*daydream*

but think again...
this girl may not need to wear branded stuff or having good figure..
but still she looks sexy from within
and whatz more she is beautiful
FYI she's frm afghanistan..
and we should be glad of wat we r and wat we possessed
most of them from afghanistan
do not get to live the life they wanted it to b..
so b glad
there mayb alot of ugliness in this world
but there are lots more beautiful things that
we need to discover....
open ur white eyes and see it within ur heart<3

but this lamborghini is tempting though...

HOLA!

2007-01-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

its my holiday people..
and im utterly scheduling my days..
and hell it was hard to state watz my main priority..
just so stress of planning things.

so my holiday was just normal..
i went shopping saw many clothings that i wanna buy
but i go no cash)=
cant imagine that i "owe" whoel sum of money
from my dad..well jsut saying liek i owe him.
so that i feel guilty as i cant forgive myself.
ahah sound sliek im doing a crime.
yes i am.
oh and guess wat...im watching latin grammy awards now.
wow...Shakira is da bomb! got so many awards.
my goodness..so crazy n nonsense that i can feel how happy she was..
akakka..so silly*
im reaching for my new year resolution soon.
guess which 1 im gonan succeed..
not yet but i hope soon!

ok well...
my day is so far watching tv blogging n shopping
for new year ocoz..bt nt much $$ and need to
be thrifty so dat i will not dwell myself
into a worse situation.
so what about u people?
whazzup with ur life?
please do share with me
!!!!

Xu wei Lun passed away)=

2007-01-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

NEWS*

7.37pm on Sunday (January 28). Her heartbeat stopped at 5.09pm and the doctors didn’t managed to get her back after 2 hours of rescue.
Wei Lun met with a car accident on Friday night and couldn’t recover from her head injury. She suffered internal bleeding in her skull.

she's really pretty and ive seen ehr act a couple of time..
is nt that bad after all..comapre to most of other artists nowadayz..
rest in peace weilun*

world is changing

2007-01-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

the world is changing
everything is rearranging
forget others
as the frustration presence
wonder why ppl dont ready for plan B
anymore
r they desperate n think they r alwiz right?
doign the right thing at teh right time
bt nt looking at ppl's right
when they r wrong?
well thatz how everyone will feel
mostly i mean except may 20% of it dont
when they r in responsible
world is also changing
starting 2007
relationship comes rojak..
ppl round me
now there's 3 pairs who broke up
i wonder watz wrong this month
truly make me feel so depressed to see
hw depressed they are...
well world is changing
people is changing
and the mind have lost sense of direction too.

ExAM's OVer

2007-01-28T00:18:00.000+08:00

yeay! exam finally over..

oh b4 that i wanna ask...hw come no1 comment on my
previous post?
nt nice meh
i felt so cool!
ahahah
cheh....u all ah...grrrr

anyway miza im so excited to see u soon...
u going malacca wit us rite?
yeay eyay i gt teman d!
ahhaha
eh sry peeps doesnt mean u all din teman me yea
just that ..in u noe "li hai" prospect
ahahah

talkign nonsense again...

anyway i totally used up my entire energy for exam...
so now is time for me to re-energize...---sleep

but somehow i am bothered by something which..
erm really i dont know wat to do...
nop is nt bout [L] this time..
anyway...i dont now hw should i view it...
or hw am i gonna responds to it...i just...cant...urgh*
wanna scream!!...like...why does they have to..eash...
seriously i think in all of ur mind u all should know that
who's in and who's out already.
y wanna force? mayb i just think too much..anyway..
haihz i dono lah..
is like i dont give, it will lose..if i give is nt free...
*winks dont try to figure out! is hard*
*"you" refers to certain ppl..nt me nt some of us..just
dont b too eprasan k ahhaah*
ok nt funny

problem-digger....

2007-01-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

im so confused, i dont know what to do besides hiding like im illegal to b in this place. standing
strong, still moving on. Glad that putting myself in another situation can help well though not much (as ur presence never fail to eliminate frm my mind). then as i expected, the more i love life each day, the more i will dig depression. i was yearning some changes so badly. is not that easy though, not like u can write out ur undecisive to-do list in a box and just randomly pick up 1 n datz it. hoho hw i hope is that easy! then i wont indulge myself in such behavior. mayb datz a good idea if i ever
gonna let go my perseverance spirit. Anyway, bet u can ever imagine how toxic u r. wonder y
dopey ppl liek me will long for u till this day... again ignorant?NO. im just confused. mayb the vow that i make finally meet the excellent time to do so. but still i have a heavy heart..and is so hard just to carry such burden. yet is even harder to unload the burden. &&&
seriously confused by the feelings i have now. not sure how to distinguish watz fading n watz not.. i may say is fading bt somehow it tells me otehrwise. gosh this is getting worse. Mayb i shall just not say it anymore.im puzzled..

chemistry paper tomoro..
pfah!
dying and slacking!

taDa!

2007-01-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

its been awhile i din blog eh!
dis is wat exam will do to me

Lixin is back..
hey girl if u ever read this
i wanna say sorry for not able to spend some times with ya...
i promise i will call u up when im free!

nothing much to say..
coz almost 80% of my brain is jammed coz of exam!

anyway pics will say it all!

howz it looks? delicious?
guess where i ate this..
ahaha actually i cooked it!
i called it erm erm..."Le Voila Miscela"
basically i simply taruh only..but resultant is mama mia!

PILES and PILES of noteS hv to read! n study and understand and and..
well thatz me! feel so semangat to study!!!

AN HOUR LATER...

BORING! boring! sleepy sleepy!

FEW MINUTES LATER.....

ZZZZZZZ........

tsk tsk tsk...
hopeless*

}|{ HyMns Of MiraGe }|{

wtf

vous avez enlevé mon souffle

JERSEY

difficulty: rate ***** (5STARS)

snooZy wUuziE

what i want..(this is so random)

short updates

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE

cheer2007

quiz

i need rest

great eastern scholarship interview

sleepy sleepy tired tired

Eeyore

papa...

im nt sure if this is ally..ahah..

random

HAPPY BIRTTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so cute

random

E[=

1st day in degree

degree

geisha is pweetie

angel of mine

a day to remember...

check it out! so funny=)

TttiireD

broke

i got tagged!

s#!t Day no.2

random

human

hysteria

frustration kills

hapPy mother's day

penang again..

1st day of cheer07 prac

PENANG TRIP!!

penang day 2

silent night

au revoir

shabu-shabu and sushi

exam is over..

normal day

forget the day i had a smile on my face

random random

nite of dawn

random

is all jumblled up

You are the World

CongratZz CHARM II

COngRatzZ CHarm

random..sweet!

typical argument

random

au revoir

good luck CHARM!

boring-ness

boredom

this darn funny

TEll Moi Watz Ya GOt? *winkY*

tiring day

**** my connection

sPecial@---}{---

short breath

m.i.s.s.

tiring weeks

shytty days ive been

It's Not Over- Chris Daughtry

uhm...

this shudnt b happenign to me!

i need a break

going crazee

dilemma

continue with blogging

cny is over/ random

liveless me

tiring

TEll Moi Watz Ya GOt? winkY

me.{m}oirs