exhaustion

today is one hell exhausted day... though i dont like it...as i got exam tmr bt i still havent study yet...9topics???..hw can i study all in nt even consider a day?...just a few hour...oh gosh...y do i become like this...** online again...and datz y im ere..writng blog instead of studying?...im ruining my future soon...hv not been goin out wit ** for couple of dayz...mayb ** like the way ** is now...bt i dont...im such a silly n stupid person...hw could i still like ** when our relationship have ended for almost 3 mth..im suffering still deep down in my heart...couldnt figure out hw to get back who i am...my soul hv trapped in ** body...**'s drying my blood slowly...i read **blog...bt i dun really understand entirely what **'s saying..all i noe is that **prefer to b just friends...im nt sure wat got into my mind dat i can still b fren wit **.sometimes i just cant bare the situation im in...mayb i really love **.just hate the way hw 'hbz'i am...nowadayz im so f'ng hate the time n the activities i involve...just couldnt spend much time wit **....i wasted lotsa chances to c **..n dat seriously hurts alot...man i think the way i sacrificed is just too over bt i can thelp it..for i c ** happy...i will b happy too...i still hold on to my believe : faith..fate..belief..trust..naive..
nonsense...