Friday, April 27, 2007

forget the day i had a smile on my face

a person once came up to me and ask..
wat is my happiest moment with my family?
i could not believe that i have difficulty in answering this question.
i stoned for awhile..thinking so exhaustively..
and nothing came to my mind.
i was terrified.
i say..i have a broken family..
biggest impact on me was most probably that it happened in the mid of my childhood year
when my brain is not mature yet but i know how to think already.
the problem is this.
if is happen when i was real young..i wouldnt b even thinking of it.
but at the young age i was and considered to b a person who hv brian to think..
it can haunts me sometimes..not trying to say im such a pity..and i know people like in Africa is worse than i...their mother or father or children can die anytime from now..just like that and nothign they could do..the young child may think, this is part of live...death is a usua thing to them..well is good...ratehr than u grieve and mourn for it....
back to me..
is almost 8yrs...
mama was in oevrseas...i just dont know if i shud worried or wat..
the adult alwiz say..this is adult prob this is adult prob..
mayb im really a deep-thinker or shall i say gullible?
yea i juts dont know how to enjoy life...ppl may see me liek a free soul...
i am..but i think more 2 a psycho or somehting...?!
ah i cant go on....stop ere

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