typical argument

just wat im expecting, a day which is so bad that i wanted to scream at 8a.m.
i almost gorge my eyeballs out to look into my left side contact lens..
and OMG!!!!!!!!!???****
there isnt any lens..im so dead..i noe is my execution day today..
yla...
i just din wear u for 1 day..
y u need to leave me like this.....
so **** i tell u...
i was so worried and yet i cant shout my lungs out...
i tried to calm down n is nt really me who can keep my rage so successfully, but i did!
i kept it in my heart.
my plan for today failed miserably...
due to this matter, i got no mood to coach dynamitez.
no mood to go for a jog.
i walked aimlessly to ping's hse to return her book.
i went back home, trying to put on a smile and bade goodbye to my sis to work...
i tried spend entire time left, forgetting the incident.
when the time comes, i knew that my torture chamber's door is opened so widely for me..
and i got no choice but to go thru it to survive.
it was worse than i thought
$ do kills...
$ is everything since im young.
with $ u cant actually buy everything, but without $, u definitely cant buy ANYthing...
this may even ruin ur relationship.
so will u want to have $ but might or might nt ruin a relationship (a 50/50 chance)
or will u want to hv no $ but ruining a relationship?
well, it's clear i think, well at elast for me...

when i was small, i wish to meet my prince when im teenager. so i wish i could grow faster n step into teenage life...
when i was teenager, it wasnt that gd to hv bf anyway.
coz none of us know hw to drive, n God knows hw much trouble i deal with transporation.
so i wish to know hw to drive when im older.
so i waited for my 17th bday to come.
when i knew hw to drive, my prob doesnt solved yet.
$ dat matters now...
so i wish to b an adult real soon so i could work to reduce my burden to the family.
and yet im waiting wat is awaits me now....


for quite some times, i havent cried like today.
as i feel so angry, gulty, stress, i donno a mixture of feelings when dad strated to explode.
i can die everytime this occured.
mayb, im nt so sure, is somehtign good...
i felt relieved but yet im dissatisfied.
for the moment, i just want to msg you, joaquim! !!!
i need u so abdly rit enow!


*imagine for a lil thing like losing a contact lens can bring me to hell already!*