i just realised goobiez go n post up my precious book's content! ..eeks malunye.....great la she...cis...
anyway nothing much 2 say today...
all i can sya is my calculus is dying.... coz the lecturer has a weird tone of voice...too fast and sharp and aiyah just weird la and couldnt listen wat she said...sadness...
anyway tmr is friday and hopefully classes end early....sigh*
tiring! coz of boredom and av...
how come none of you call me out to watch movie????
i want watch POTC, shrek 3 and more!!!!!
please call me!!! ahahah *desperate*
Thursday, May 31, 2007
E[=
got request from sw dat i need to update my blog...sorry girl...i've been so tired lately due to having AV and also practices plus studies...well not really studies lerh but having to go to uni and cant deny it, it is so boring n the weather sux..my slk's air-cond retarded some more. sigh* just like having sauna inside..
updates bout my uni
it is the 3rd day in my degree..so far nothing seems to interest me--lecturer, subjects, surroundings, etc....still trying to figure out who's in my class because currently i just get to attend lecture class as tutorial n practical nt gonna start on this week. thus, i can only hang out with square and frenz but they r in diff class. sobness... some of the people in my lecture's class were just plain noisy. i mean if u wanna make some noise n make the class happening is ok but the thing is these ppl just interrupting the class n not even saying something that is funny..somehow i missed cheng kiat, chi liang, and chong (foundation's fren) who alwiz hype up t he class...wahahaha....
im gonna out of clothes to wear...so dead...seriously im broke again...and i have lost sense of what to wear to uni d...ahahah...frustrated...is like the weather is sooo hot..but in th eclass is sooo cold...can get sick soon...i hope my slk is fine....just so worried....sigh*
today after programming class, i joined square and frenz to makan and we planned and waited like so damn long just to decide where to go and how to go...finally we went to PA to take our results but later on..plan changed...coz xiao sun they all wanna go millennium square which i donno where izzit..moreover, i dont wanna go there coz noone sending square back..so i decided to call square to teman me makan in kfc so dat i can send her back to mc. coz she alone lerh...dangerous! haha...called zack till we wanted to vomit blood* coz she din picked up the phone...grrr! ended up oni both of us hanged out together in kfc...saw ms samantha and ms sharmila i guess...izizt sharmila..ahaha....anyway they recognised us..and we did talk for awhile...ahah....so datz my day in uni.
i went home so tired n slept for like 4 hrs before heading to practice!..routine is superbs and is sooo ambitious...tiring and dangerous...CHARM is so cool! and i got so many goodies fromt he shape mag and aso silky girls...too many lipglosses now...i guess i no need buy d for 2 yrs...cant finish it..oh n aso got underwear ahahah....eh from wacoal 1...nt bad...ahha...
enuff of my uni n practice...
my life's just so dead...
random...
supposing i wanted to post this up on last Sunday but i was too tired again so i actually forgotten bout it...but yet it remains in my mind so vividly. gymnastic on that day was never been so emo..haha y i say so...coz of my fren, choo.. i remember she said something which makes me so alive ..mayb alive is not the right word to describe the state of mind im in at that time but yea is more or less dat kinda feelings..well i hope she can move on..saying this im trying to deliver it to my own as well..rite here i wanna thank her for listening to my hiccup n saying the wonderful words that i'd never tot that someone will actually said that to me..haha...well choo i will appreciate and love myself...for true beauty only can be seen in the inside..i hope u can be happier than b4...*hugz*
it is exactly 4am now...im tired but yet i refrain myself from sleeping...nope not that i got insomnia this time..is that im refraining..bah! my vow has broken once more...anyhow i dont know wat to say bout wat im thinking now...or mayb what i get myself into...
all iw anted to do is to get thru the days as long as i can and as much as i can..
as long as i could sense the joy in me...
but will it be taken away when i reached to the top of just ..joy?
goobiez must be thinking that life's depressing...
well i still dont think that way though...haha...coz i believe i still havent enjoy life yet...when i do, i know dat life's beautiful..just like it is purposely created for me!...ahah...u wont know rite...
noone know the future....
~me signing out!~
updates bout my uni
it is the 3rd day in my degree..so far nothing seems to interest me--lecturer, subjects, surroundings, etc....still trying to figure out who's in my class because currently i just get to attend lecture class as tutorial n practical nt gonna start on this week. thus, i can only hang out with square and frenz but they r in diff class. sobness... some of the people in my lecture's class were just plain noisy. i mean if u wanna make some noise n make the class happening is ok but the thing is these ppl just interrupting the class n not even saying something that is funny..somehow i missed cheng kiat, chi liang, and chong (foundation's fren) who alwiz hype up t he class...wahahaha....
im gonna out of clothes to wear...so dead...seriously im broke again...and i have lost sense of what to wear to uni d...ahahah...frustrated...is like the weather is sooo hot..but in th eclass is sooo cold...can get sick soon...i hope my slk is fine....just so worried....sigh*
today after programming class, i joined square and frenz to makan and we planned and waited like so damn long just to decide where to go and how to go...finally we went to PA to take our results but later on..plan changed...coz xiao sun they all wanna go millennium square which i donno where izzit..moreover, i dont wanna go there coz noone sending square back..so i decided to call square to teman me makan in kfc so dat i can send her back to mc. coz she alone lerh...dangerous! haha...called zack till we wanted to vomit blood* coz she din picked up the phone...grrr! ended up oni both of us hanged out together in kfc...saw ms samantha and ms sharmila i guess...izizt sharmila..ahaha....anyway they recognised us..and we did talk for awhile...ahah....so datz my day in uni.
i went home so tired n slept for like 4 hrs before heading to practice!..routine is superbs and is sooo ambitious...tiring and dangerous...CHARM is so cool! and i got so many goodies fromt he shape mag and aso silky girls...too many lipglosses now...i guess i no need buy d for 2 yrs...cant finish it..oh n aso got underwear ahahah....eh from wacoal 1...nt bad...ahha...
enuff of my uni n practice...
my life's just so dead...
random...
supposing i wanted to post this up on last Sunday but i was too tired again so i actually forgotten bout it...but yet it remains in my mind so vividly. gymnastic on that day was never been so emo..haha y i say so...coz of my fren, choo.. i remember she said something which makes me so alive ..mayb alive is not the right word to describe the state of mind im in at that time but yea is more or less dat kinda feelings..well i hope she can move on..saying this im trying to deliver it to my own as well..rite here i wanna thank her for listening to my hiccup n saying the wonderful words that i'd never tot that someone will actually said that to me..haha...well choo i will appreciate and love myself...for true beauty only can be seen in the inside..i hope u can be happier than b4...*hugz*
it is exactly 4am now...im tired but yet i refrain myself from sleeping...nope not that i got insomnia this time..is that im refraining..bah! my vow has broken once more...anyhow i dont know wat to say bout wat im thinking now...or mayb what i get myself into...
all iw anted to do is to get thru the days as long as i can and as much as i can..
as long as i could sense the joy in me...
but will it be taken away when i reached to the top of just ..joy?
goobiez must be thinking that life's depressing...
well i still dont think that way though...haha...coz i believe i still havent enjoy life yet...when i do, i know dat life's beautiful..just like it is purposely created for me!...ahah...u wont know rite...
noone know the future....
~me signing out!~
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
1st day in degree
this will be a boring post cause my life is starting to get bored.
as most of you know, this period shall be the school holiday! but not for the people who are in colleges and universities as this time may be the examination time or like me, beginning of a semester. sigh*
as i entered to the building that seems like a building of suffocation,
i began to observe the people around me. pretty different from my previous foundation building but yet still maintain the poor accommodation.
i was blurred and looking like a lunatic going back and forth just to find a particular class. kept my finger-crossed that i will not be alone and that i will meet up someone that i know. and woot* i saw them! i was in desperation that i leap into the room and started to converse with them.
my very first class was indeed the basic professional writing which is pretty obvious about the purpose of this subject. since is our first lecture class, it ended early...i was relieved! haha because the lecturer is so expression-less that even if she tell something lame, she still looks like she's not been smiling for ages. scary*
i was surprised that a girl from my secondary school who i didn't know at all, recognized me..the reason is that i was a prefect in my secondary school so i actually jaga her class before...wahahaha..i thought that she must be hated me since she can still remember my face.but nola i so friendly rite...haha....
i didn't sleep at all before that and so i was darn tired. once i reached home i online awhile and i just hit the sack..lucky for the rain that i the venue of my cheer practice changed to a place that is so convenient for me.
i finally can sleep longer. but no! i was flooded with sms from SHANA. so i just gotta reply n sleep awhile n reply n sleep in the end is like i didnt get to sleep at all..
now im darn tired coz of cheer practice..stamina so low lah lousy me...im gonna looks like a man soon..seriously! no kidding.. but i guess definitely worth it!
for once im gonna sleep early because noone gonna wake me up anymore when i have class at 8am...(u-know-who-u-r ahem* wein* ahem*)
just in case the parking spoils my day, i need to wake up early n park my slk! sadness...stupid utar not strategic at all the place...find la a land that is big enough to park cars!
as most of you know, this period shall be the school holiday! but not for the people who are in colleges and universities as this time may be the examination time or like me, beginning of a semester. sigh*
as i entered to the building that seems like a building of suffocation,
i began to observe the people around me. pretty different from my previous foundation building but yet still maintain the poor accommodation.
i was blurred and looking like a lunatic going back and forth just to find a particular class. kept my finger-crossed that i will not be alone and that i will meet up someone that i know. and woot* i saw them! i was in desperation that i leap into the room and started to converse with them.
my very first class was indeed the basic professional writing which is pretty obvious about the purpose of this subject. since is our first lecture class, it ended early...i was relieved! haha because the lecturer is so expression-less that even if she tell something lame, she still looks like she's not been smiling for ages. scary*
i was surprised that a girl from my secondary school who i didn't know at all, recognized me..the reason is that i was a prefect in my secondary school so i actually jaga her class before...wahahaha..i thought that she must be hated me since she can still remember my face.but nola i so friendly rite...haha....
i didn't sleep at all before that and so i was darn tired. once i reached home i online awhile and i just hit the sack..lucky for the rain that i the venue of my cheer practice changed to a place that is so convenient for me.
i finally can sleep longer. but no! i was flooded with sms from SHANA. so i just gotta reply n sleep awhile n reply n sleep in the end is like i didnt get to sleep at all..
now im darn tired coz of cheer practice..stamina so low lah lousy me...im gonna looks like a man soon..seriously! no kidding.. but i guess definitely worth it!
for once im gonna sleep early because noone gonna wake me up anymore when i have class at 8am...(u-know-who-u-r ahem* wein* ahem*)
just in case the parking spoils my day, i need to wake up early n park my slk! sadness...stupid utar not strategic at all the place...find la a land that is big enough to park cars!
how long more should i follow the footsteps that is left by you;
how many more challenges and obstacles that i need to deal;
how can i ever not be human just to stopped my heart from beating;
how can i try to understand what i want when i do not even know what exactly i want;
how can i find the truth that lies within my feelings;
how must i differentiate happy and contented;
how must i differentiate the pain and the hurt;
how i can answer the question how when i'm basically asking the question of a question;
*silent*
move on and i will find more clues.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
angel of mine
i believe true frenz do exists..
i have!
(=
though doubt can will exists coz no one will foresee the future..
but is already enough and exceed my expectation of the period we spend with each other..
tonight was heavenly...
is like being in a paradise that is indescribable...
only can be truly felt within our own heart!
all i could say is THANK YOU for being there for me my fren!
do believe in miracle human!
i have!
(=
though doubt can will exists coz no one will foresee the future..
but is already enough and exceed my expectation of the period we spend with each other..
tonight was heavenly...
is like being in a paradise that is indescribable...
only can be truly felt within our own heart!
all i could say is THANK YOU for being there for me my fren!
do believe in miracle human!
Friday, May 25, 2007
a day to remember...
if i ever read back my post...
i hope this will be the post that reminds me of this very special day..
a day where i truly feel the multiple feelings swirling like a tidal wave in my soul..
im not imagining, not hallucinating, not thinking..
but i definitely feel it...
to make it even discrete...
it begins by having the enthusiasm...enthusiasm for me to actually finding thigns out by myself..
moving on to independant...independant for me to stand by my own...finding true enjoyment of loneliness...
wrapping up with warmness..so warm that i will not doubt and go ahead to do something that i will never count its risk.
possessing the satisfaction....satisfaction of getting the task completed....
threatened by doubt...doubting the nonsensical things that im doing for an unknown purposes..
ponder by frustration....dilemma and in a state of paranoia...
soon covered by professionality...able to work and a splendid occasion...
surrounded with worries....concerned bout my fren...so hard to mend the broken heart...how i wish i could let outmy anger...let the fume delivers my message to my fren..how silly she can be..worries oh worries...
happiness finally present...happiness dat is untold undefined..for i've opened my eyes...
sadness i defend...forbidding ti to enter in my life..for it is toxic and evil omen of mine....yet it is there..it will alwiz b there....yet to come....
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
TttiireD
yesterday i was so tired..exhausted...
hvaing muscle pull n aching evrywhere since sunay gym den mon having 2 practice at once pulak...
but then is good for building stamina i guess...so i slept quite early...wake up quite late...
ahahha...so it was a good sleep for me...but then i feel like it's wasting lotsa my tuesday's time...
and now dat leeping went to sg long...i lost 1 kaki to go out again...sigh*
mon prac was a great dissapointment to me coz indeed i didnt do well...
i was somehow very self-conscious....it makes me feel like im so lousy sometimes...
but i wanna progress....looking at evryone i hope that im not a loser...
but....
tmr is orientation...it sounds so depressing to me as if im goign to utar for the first time...
wat to do..the oni 1 that i noe is only zeying n chin hong..yea wahh oni 2? geez...
im so lazy and i bet tmr i will overslept...and now dat i havent settle my financial problem yet....i couldnt go for japanese class...ocoz i wanted to continue but the thing is i dont have the courage to tell my dad...by the time i tell him i guess there wont b any place left for me...if till then still go t place..kla i will go..ahaha....c la how...
finally, today there's a page in BIZ in Star newspaper that talks about actuaries...if those of u who don't really know wat is actuarial science/actuaries do....den just take like 5mins to read that page...is in the centre of the BIZ that pages....is not all about earning lots of money...is more to using ur sensibility n wisdom i guess....well u c i dont seems to b in that course...bah! y must i doubt i wonder why why why....
oh and yesterday again...i went to redbox...just hv an outing that *AHem* "organize" by goobiez(u noe who u r)...with leeping b4 she leave to sg long...and we have so much fun coz aiyah once i get to go out i surely have fun 1...coz i SS...ahahha....but while both of them are singing chinese songs..i camwhore myself...n later when is my turn to sing english song....dey makan...ahahahha....wella t last i noe few chinese sogn that i noe! i din use my lyrics book eh...ahahha....great improvement...leepign say my chinese not bad..ahhaha...*winks*
hvaing muscle pull n aching evrywhere since sunay gym den mon having 2 practice at once pulak...
but then is good for building stamina i guess...so i slept quite early...wake up quite late...
ahahha...so it was a good sleep for me...but then i feel like it's wasting lotsa my tuesday's time...
and now dat leeping went to sg long...i lost 1 kaki to go out again...sigh*
mon prac was a great dissapointment to me coz indeed i didnt do well...
i was somehow very self-conscious....it makes me feel like im so lousy sometimes...
but i wanna progress....looking at evryone i hope that im not a loser...
but....
tmr is orientation...it sounds so depressing to me as if im goign to utar for the first time...
wat to do..the oni 1 that i noe is only zeying n chin hong..yea wahh oni 2? geez...
im so lazy and i bet tmr i will overslept...and now dat i havent settle my financial problem yet....i couldnt go for japanese class...ocoz i wanted to continue but the thing is i dont have the courage to tell my dad...by the time i tell him i guess there wont b any place left for me...if till then still go t place..kla i will go..ahaha....c la how...
finally, today there's a page in BIZ in Star newspaper that talks about actuaries...if those of u who don't really know wat is actuarial science/actuaries do....den just take like 5mins to read that page...is in the centre of the BIZ that pages....is not all about earning lots of money...is more to using ur sensibility n wisdom i guess....well u c i dont seems to b in that course...bah! y must i doubt i wonder why why why....
oh and yesterday again...i went to redbox...just hv an outing that *AHem* "organize" by goobiez(u noe who u r)...with leeping b4 she leave to sg long...and we have so much fun coz aiyah once i get to go out i surely have fun 1...coz i SS...ahahha....but while both of them are singing chinese songs..i camwhore myself...n later when is my turn to sing english song....dey makan...ahahahha....wella t last i noe few chinese sogn that i noe! i din use my lyrics book eh...ahahha....great improvement...leepign say my chinese not bad..ahhaha...*winks*
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
broke
ah ah...
is not <3>
is im broke...
i got a saman...huhu...unpaid saman! 100bux weyh..
in just about 5mins im away frm my slk...
the smart-ass-got-nothing-to-do mbpj come n saman my slk...
once again im sorry slk for leaving u alone lidet...but hey i noe u think people are askign for ur autograph? gosh im insane...*scream* 100bux...
how much can i deduct from appealing tell me!!!!!!!
i need to save so much...
from now on i guess i need to starve myself...
instant mee all the way...and treat my dad extremely good (*impossible*)
so dat could get extra bux...
huhu T__T pathetic...
any performance CHARM????please count me in ...
i needed money rite now...
or any of u wanna donate to me? sponsor?
now i feel guilty fo getting the adidas jacket...
y must it be this way? am i destine to not able to enjoy life...?
i did this like once in a blue moon!just to get somethign to compliment myself...
is this a crime?
sigh*
how i wish i really get schoalrship again...but i really dont feel like getting the schoalrship i apply because i need to have 3yrs bond with them after i graduate..yerh i wanna work in some place that i put my effot to got hru the proper interview n stuff n work there...but well ont he other hand i really need scholarship...wah dilemma!!!!!!(not like i will b getting the schoalrhsip but then i need the schoalrhsip)and all this applying financial support is just total nutz coz u keep on photocopy the stuff which cozt u like at least 5 bux...n times by donno hwo many schoalrship u aplying..in d end coz u like tons! but end up not getting any responds frm them...not to forget posting it as well....ma fan....ive been this situation b4 my foundation..and it's sux...so if u ever wanan apply allt his thing..think twice...unless u r rich lah..unlike me 5bux aso sya cost me alot...
blame myself for not being genius or even smart ...someitmes i hope ima nerd that oni noe hwo to study n scores well n keep studying for my entire life till i end up in hospital bahagia....but then...is just kidding k..i dont hope to b crazy...it is shitty too...
degree is just so near to my life....*taking a deep breath* i shall breath when i can still bretah now...i dont noe watz ahead of me...all i noe is it will b lifeless...utar is nt where i can get used to..mayb for now...communication is a problem...but yet the major problem is there's oni a small patch of ppl that i could actually get along......shall say im the odd 1 there...being a banana is not easy u noe...but i lurve to b banana...at elast is unknown..ahahaha..and i wouldnt need to care wat ppl say...i can ignore anytime i want....i dont know if i can sense the smell of the first day i step into utar again or not...but i think most probably will..the smell of loneliness, new world, weird ....just weird smell...but eventually u will get used to the smell...*so ironic*
but my whole new world will b absolutely competitive world...
just imagine u are a primary tecaher working with professor!
yea da feelings is lidet coz i'll b studying with whoel bunch of 4.0-cgpa-people...
interetsing....oh wat am i get myself into!!!!!
is not <3>
is im broke...
i got a saman...huhu...unpaid saman! 100bux weyh..
in just about 5mins im away frm my slk...
the smart-ass-got-nothing-to-do mbpj come n saman my slk...
once again im sorry slk for leaving u alone lidet...but hey i noe u think people are askign for ur autograph? gosh im insane...*scream* 100bux...
how much can i deduct from appealing tell me!!!!!!!
i need to save so much...
from now on i guess i need to starve myself...
instant mee all the way...and treat my dad extremely good (*impossible*)
so dat could get extra bux...
huhu T__T pathetic...
any performance CHARM????please count me in ...
i needed money rite now...
or any of u wanna donate to me? sponsor?
now i feel guilty fo getting the adidas jacket...
y must it be this way? am i destine to not able to enjoy life...?
i did this like once in a blue moon!just to get somethign to compliment myself...
is this a crime?
sigh*
how i wish i really get schoalrship again...but i really dont feel like getting the schoalrship i apply because i need to have 3yrs bond with them after i graduate..yerh i wanna work in some place that i put my effot to got hru the proper interview n stuff n work there...but well ont he other hand i really need scholarship...wah dilemma!!!!!!(not like i will b getting the schoalrhsip but then i need the schoalrhsip)and all this applying financial support is just total nutz coz u keep on photocopy the stuff which cozt u like at least 5 bux...n times by donno hwo many schoalrship u aplying..in d end coz u like tons! but end up not getting any responds frm them...not to forget posting it as well....ma fan....ive been this situation b4 my foundation..and it's sux...so if u ever wanan apply allt his thing..think twice...unless u r rich lah..unlike me 5bux aso sya cost me alot...
blame myself for not being genius or even smart ...someitmes i hope ima nerd that oni noe hwo to study n scores well n keep studying for my entire life till i end up in hospital bahagia....but then...is just kidding k..i dont hope to b crazy...it is shitty too...
degree is just so near to my life....*taking a deep breath* i shall breath when i can still bretah now...i dont noe watz ahead of me...all i noe is it will b lifeless...utar is nt where i can get used to..mayb for now...communication is a problem...but yet the major problem is there's oni a small patch of ppl that i could actually get along......shall say im the odd 1 there...being a banana is not easy u noe...but i lurve to b banana...at elast is unknown..ahahaha..and i wouldnt need to care wat ppl say...i can ignore anytime i want....i dont know if i can sense the smell of the first day i step into utar again or not...but i think most probably will..the smell of loneliness, new world, weird ....just weird smell...but eventually u will get used to the smell...*so ironic*
but my whole new world will b absolutely competitive world...
just imagine u are a primary tecaher working with professor!
yea da feelings is lidet coz i'll b studying with whoel bunch of 4.0-cgpa-people...
interetsing....oh wat am i get myself into!!!!!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
i got tagged!
5 things found in your bag
>wallet
>cardholder
>pen
>keys(car and house)
>tissue
5 things found in your purse/wallet
>ic
>money ocoz
>coins
>receipt
>namecards
5 favourite things in your room
>bed
>comforter
>pillow
>bags
>accessories
5 types of humans
>liars
>hypocrites
>blissful human
>bipolar human
>genius
5 things you've always wanted 2 do
>sleep
>meeting up with angelina jolie or oprah or gaspard
>going to japan with mama and sis and my other half(winks*)
>b a volunteer
>make a difference in ppl's life
5 things you are currently in2
>onlining
>cheerleading
>skateboarding
>sneakers
>emo-ing
>wallet
>cardholder
>pen
>keys(car and house)
>tissue
5 things found in your purse/wallet
>ic
>money ocoz
>coins
>receipt
>namecards
5 favourite things in your room
>bed
>comforter
>pillow
>bags
>accessories
5 types of humans
>liars
>hypocrites
>blissful human
>bipolar human
>genius
5 things you've always wanted 2 do
>sleep
>meeting up with angelina jolie or oprah or gaspard
>going to japan with mama and sis and my other half(winks*)
>b a volunteer
>make a difference in ppl's life
5 things you are currently in2
>onlining
>cheerleading
>skateboarding
>sneakers
>emo-ing
Thursday, May 17, 2007
random
nowadayz nth happenign in my life...
so i'll just briefly type out some crapz and dull stuff for u guyz..
every odd day i hv practices which already taken half of my day...
and every even day i'll try to go out n hang out with frenz..which is darn hard to plan an outing with them....
finally yesterday went out with my old-frenz....ahaha...
and we went to mcD centrepoint...
talk like non-stop(or mayb is me only) frm 9pm to 1am...
ahahah
boleh tahan elrh me....and ai wee actually laughed till her jaws became numb...
ahahah so exaggerate lah...
it was fun to actually hv a group of fren get togeda n just talk n talk n talk...
besides just gossip...we were more to tellign out lifestyle recently...
so kinda interesting...ahhaah
i couldnt enjoy my holiday any longer....
so soon den i'll have my orientation...sounds liek orange..ahahah anyway crapz!
sigh* sigh* sigh*
n i don hv money to pay for it yet....abit worried...
yet i havent sent those schoalrship forms..
sow eird lah i feel coz my resutls so bad but insist on getting a schoalrsip...
grr...life's such a bitch soemtimes....
but i love it somehow..ahahahah
dowan talk about studies...makes me stressed...
oh thx joaquim for ur candies and chocolates frm U.S.
is yummylicious....really makes me relieved...
ahahha
iw anna watch movie....haihz...
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don't want to have hope
dont want to have imagination
dont want to wake up from my dream
just want to go through life the way it is...
so i'll just briefly type out some crapz and dull stuff for u guyz..
every odd day i hv practices which already taken half of my day...
and every even day i'll try to go out n hang out with frenz..which is darn hard to plan an outing with them....
finally yesterday went out with my old-frenz....ahaha...
and we went to mcD centrepoint...
talk like non-stop(or mayb is me only) frm 9pm to 1am...
ahahah
boleh tahan elrh me....and ai wee actually laughed till her jaws became numb...
ahahah so exaggerate lah...
it was fun to actually hv a group of fren get togeda n just talk n talk n talk...
besides just gossip...we were more to tellign out lifestyle recently...
so kinda interesting...ahhaah
i couldnt enjoy my holiday any longer....
so soon den i'll have my orientation...sounds liek orange..ahahah anyway crapz!
sigh* sigh* sigh*
n i don hv money to pay for it yet....abit worried...
yet i havent sent those schoalrship forms..
sow eird lah i feel coz my resutls so bad but insist on getting a schoalrsip...
grr...life's such a bitch soemtimes....
but i love it somehow..ahahahah
dowan talk about studies...makes me stressed...
oh thx joaquim for ur candies and chocolates frm U.S.
is yummylicious....really makes me relieved...
ahahha
iw anna watch movie....haihz...
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don't want to have hope
dont want to have imagination
dont want to wake up from my dream
just want to go through life the way it is...
Monday, May 14, 2007
human
straw: thanks for mentioning banana in ur blog..keke...well at least u din say ah na...or did u actually said that...cis...but anyway...is my pleasure to share my deep thoughts which seldom people understand to you...sorr i couldnt help much but then mayb someday u'll understand...so as i say million billion times...i'll wiat for ur feedback someday....wahahah...
regarding my title for my post today...hmm what i can actually relate to it...
well maybe i shud begin like this..
human oh human..
we never know where we're actually from..
we never know where we gonna end up at..
we definitely wont know what will happen in future..
human like us can never stop asking for more...
bad ppl is everywhere including u and me
coz we're sinner i supposed...
is so hard to b good people...
sometimes u do heard people saying that monk is good...
well GOd is good..and den ur bf is good..ur mtoher is good ur fatehr is good
and on n on n on...
but have u ever say that urself is good?
so hard to say it unless those really have thick skin...
wat im trying to say is no1 is perfect...
we r human n human make mistakes...
before u say others mistake...think about urself...
and think hw u shud say it...dont just say..
because speech is like a sword....
u need to be careful while u handling it...
basically i donno wat crap im talking..
mayb someday when i can really relate all the small parts of what im thinking now..
den i think..i think...it will b awesome..ahahah
regarding my title for my post today...hmm what i can actually relate to it...
well maybe i shud begin like this..
human oh human..
we never know where we're actually from..
we never know where we gonna end up at..
we definitely wont know what will happen in future..
human like us can never stop asking for more...
bad ppl is everywhere including u and me
coz we're sinner i supposed...
is so hard to b good people...
sometimes u do heard people saying that monk is good...
well GOd is good..and den ur bf is good..ur mtoher is good ur fatehr is good
and on n on n on...
but have u ever say that urself is good?
so hard to say it unless those really have thick skin...
wat im trying to say is no1 is perfect...
we r human n human make mistakes...
before u say others mistake...think about urself...
and think hw u shud say it...dont just say..
because speech is like a sword....
u need to be careful while u handling it...
basically i donno wat crap im talking..
mayb someday when i can really relate all the small parts of what im thinking now..
den i think..i think...it will b awesome..ahahah
hysteria
today besides being a special day for all the mother in da world...
is also a day i resume back to gymnastic class...
i missed being there and i missed the critics, the skills that yet to be learnt...
often critics are a way for me to discover wat i supposed to improved..
but sometimes when i just couldnt get it and thus i couldnt improve it as well,
it really bothers me...but....at least is something that i need to work on...
i have a priority den...
and today 8tv crew came...
and once agian CHARM on TV..whee..
when whole bunch of charm get togeda..hmm u noe wat it'll b like...ahahah
whatzmore we're on camera..hahaha
everyone went wild (those lame become lamer)
tell u we had a great time...
but never will gymnastic b relaxing...
i gain muscle again..woohoo..forever manly...gosh..bruises evrywhere..
sigh*
just pay more attention to th e8tv advert for cheer2007!
hahaha....mite c my blur face...eee ugly...
hahaha..but im nt sure when wil it b on tv...i aso donno..
often i'll missed it...
trying to cut the normal stuff i did...
i will move on to the next thing...
i watched national geographic at night...
ahahha..im so into discovery all those when it comes to not having to watch any nice show...
btu i do watch lerh ..
and guess wat...
have u ever heard of EL CHUPACABRAS?
hmm nope? but im sure u heard of UFO...
both similarity is that...u will never know if such thing really exists...
this is the EL CHUPACABRAS...aka goat-sucker...
y called that..coz this creature kills livestock with the most gruesome way u can ever imagine..
but lotsa scientist as alwiz try to prove that no such thing exists...
wateva it is...is up to us ...
i watched this topics till like so into it...
seriously i mmg love all this mystery stuff coz itz so amazing...
like myself..
im a mystery too...
ahhaha
too find out on this creature..just google it ..ahah...it tooks 1 hr for me to watched the national geographic so basically it's more interetsing but yet 1hr i gained too many info..ahahah....so i lazy to say it all out again...
is also a day i resume back to gymnastic class...
i missed being there and i missed the critics, the skills that yet to be learnt...
often critics are a way for me to discover wat i supposed to improved..
but sometimes when i just couldnt get it and thus i couldnt improve it as well,
it really bothers me...but....at least is something that i need to work on...
i have a priority den...
and today 8tv crew came...
and once agian CHARM on TV..whee..
when whole bunch of charm get togeda..hmm u noe wat it'll b like...ahahah
whatzmore we're on camera..hahaha
everyone went wild (those lame become lamer)
tell u we had a great time...
but never will gymnastic b relaxing...
i gain muscle again..woohoo..forever manly...gosh..bruises evrywhere..
sigh*
just pay more attention to th e8tv advert for cheer2007!
hahaha....mite c my blur face...eee ugly...
hahaha..but im nt sure when wil it b on tv...i aso donno..
often i'll missed it...
trying to cut the normal stuff i did...
i will move on to the next thing...
i watched national geographic at night...
ahahha..im so into discovery all those when it comes to not having to watch any nice show...
btu i do watch lerh ..
and guess wat...
have u ever heard of EL CHUPACABRAS?
hmm nope? but im sure u heard of UFO...
both similarity is that...u will never know if such thing really exists...
this is the EL CHUPACABRAS...aka goat-sucker...
y called that..coz this creature kills livestock with the most gruesome way u can ever imagine..
but lotsa scientist as alwiz try to prove that no such thing exists...
wateva it is...is up to us ...
i watched this topics till like so into it...
seriously i mmg love all this mystery stuff coz itz so amazing...
like myself..
im a mystery too...
ahhaha
too find out on this creature..just google it ..ahah...it tooks 1 hr for me to watched the national geographic so basically it's more interetsing but yet 1hr i gained too many info..ahahah....so i lazy to say it all out again...
Sunday, May 13, 2007
frustration kills
all i can say is that..
i beh tahan!
coz of so many things...
im gonna b insane or somewhat having bipolar disease...
im nt so sure y these dayz i cant control my soul or my spirit..
sounds liek threatening my life but yet i cant do anything...
mayb someone is putting a curse on me...
*think too much*
eh but it is possible k...and this is so scary...
and i mean "scary"
ahahha
well donno la...i try nt to think so much...but i sense something somethign
just nt so right gonna happen to me
can anyoen sense it?
hmm...just hope i really think too much...
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next up....
basically i got aot of craps to say...
but i just dont know where to start it...
saw kids sneakers today...
so nice i really want it..just a size bigger more than i cna fit in..
i justw ant size 4 but the biggest is 3..grr...heartbroken..ahahah
anyway the fella looks so discriminative when he sense that i wanted to buy kids shoe..
like wtf...hey! i can fit in can d lah...i just need size 4!
ahaha
and so cheap la...i sced i regret buying adidas sneakers...
u noe lah it costs alot...
but iw anted a sneakers lerh..
in my life i din buy b4 nike or adidas...
so i just want to get 1 ....
just O N E pair...
ppl alwiz say i got alot of sports shoes...
eh where got la...
oh almost forgot...
i wanna clarify something ere...
perhaps ppl may think im a very cool person n "ba bei" for the first impression
"really ???!!! sad i have face problem"
k but let me clarify this..
i don ok...im very firendly..is just dat yea i have face problem elrh...
n once noe me..im nt dat cool or corky at all...
soemtimes really lerh...i think i have face problem..gosh...
need to do plastic surgery..ahahah
i think im gonna have a hard time during my degree d...
i lost all my fren that can translate the conversation for me
seriously thanks to them i survive in utar...
but now...i donno...
i hope i can cope btw...
i beh tahan!
coz of so many things...
im gonna b insane or somewhat having bipolar disease...
im nt so sure y these dayz i cant control my soul or my spirit..
sounds liek threatening my life but yet i cant do anything...
mayb someone is putting a curse on me...
*think too much*
eh but it is possible k...and this is so scary...
and i mean "scary"
ahahha
well donno la...i try nt to think so much...but i sense something somethign
just nt so right gonna happen to me
can anyoen sense it?
hmm...just hope i really think too much...
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next up....
basically i got aot of craps to say...
but i just dont know where to start it...
saw kids sneakers today...
so nice i really want it..just a size bigger more than i cna fit in..
i justw ant size 4 but the biggest is 3..grr...heartbroken..ahahah
anyway the fella looks so discriminative when he sense that i wanted to buy kids shoe..
like wtf...hey! i can fit in can d lah...i just need size 4!
ahaha
and so cheap la...i sced i regret buying adidas sneakers...
u noe lah it costs alot...
but iw anted a sneakers lerh..
in my life i din buy b4 nike or adidas...
so i just want to get 1 ....
just O N E pair...
ppl alwiz say i got alot of sports shoes...
eh where got la...
oh almost forgot...
i wanna clarify something ere...
perhaps ppl may think im a very cool person n "ba bei" for the first impression
"really ???!!! sad i have face problem"
k but let me clarify this..
i don ok...im very firendly..is just dat yea i have face problem elrh...
n once noe me..im nt dat cool or corky at all...
soemtimes really lerh...i think i have face problem..gosh...
need to do plastic surgery..ahahah
i think im gonna have a hard time during my degree d...
i lost all my fren that can translate the conversation for me
seriously thanks to them i survive in utar...
but now...i donno...
i hope i can cope btw...
hapPy mother's day
to ALL the Mother in the WholE Universe
even the animals and plants and mother EARTH
ahhaa
HAPPY moTHer's DAY...
to my beloved woman!
Mi i guess the best gift that u want is that to get to see us rite..?
but then as my sis say we r such a filial daughter..
for so many yrs we havent been to NY to visit u...
coz of lotsa consideration need to b considered...
SORRY mum!
but yet u r alwiz special in my heart
u r my mother, my friend, my counsellor, my phsychologist, my angel
u're alwiz being so helpful in my life...
i miss u so much
but im still so doubt...not sure y...
anyway really glad u like the flowers!!!!
XOXO
i love u mum!
XOXO
Thursday, May 10, 2007
penang again..
someone actually wanna noe bout hw is my penang trip..
well..is basically nth much to say d...
coz previous post already clarified..
and so it is clear!
so betetr read n use ur imagination ...
coz im so tired now dat i don feel like saying my trip frm day1 to day4!
haha....
oh and i got into top20 for cheer07 performing team..
really thx to chee wei for giving me th echance and still believing in me...
i hope i dont diaapoint him..
oh and im kinda pressured as im giving pressure to myself...
really hope dat i can handle it...
so wish me luck!
well..is basically nth much to say d...
coz previous post already clarified..
and so it is clear!
so betetr read n use ur imagination ...
coz im so tired now dat i don feel like saying my trip frm day1 to day4!
haha....
oh and i got into top20 for cheer07 performing team..
really thx to chee wei for giving me th echance and still believing in me...
i hope i dont diaapoint him..
oh and im kinda pressured as im giving pressure to myself...
really hope dat i can handle it...
so wish me luck!
1st day of cheer07 prac
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so this is wat happened to my back of my knee!
haha...it's bruised ...coz of constant stepping..
but im fine with dat..
proves that the flyer din step properly..and i admit
im a "WEAK" base...huhu~
need to work on my strength d....
anyway it is painful...i cant squad down at teh moment...coz it seems like swollened...
hopefully recover b4 fri...
which is oni 1 day to recover...
sigh*
asap plz...
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
PENANG TRIP!!
I'm back from penang!
guess by watching the short movie pics, u can get the rough idea of the entire trip..
it's in sequential order though..
haha...
enjoy!
p/s: wein...we rode on the banana boat!!! wahahah...
guess by watching the short movie pics, u can get the rough idea of the entire trip..
it's in sequential order though..
haha...
enjoy!
p/s: wein...we rode on the banana boat!!! wahahah...
Saturday, May 05, 2007
penang day 2
wah is only 11.15pm..
and im so liveless now...
wish could go out walk around.....
but hen horh...my frenz all sleep very early and they will b dead after 10pm...
wonder y r they so good girl..
wahahah....
just too bad....
anywya when they r so liveless, i felt the same way as well...
so right im here to blog again....
well nth much..oh let me tell u wat i did today...
i woke up at 9.20am...
and den we went 4 our breakfast nearby my fren's hse...
but since we r so late we missed all the food that is said to b nice....
anyway..anythign lah breakfast..i aso seldom eat breakfast....
den chi liang anf alvin soh aso join us as well...
ahhaha..
later we went to kek lok si...
so darn hot but camwhore damna lot...
next wen tto uhm...the famous 3 storey aqua shop...(pethsop)
and aso bought some biscuit frm forgot wat d/...him heang i guess...
den too tired..all dying d so end up our plan of going to various place all cancelled..
so leh we went home..den wait for BBQ!
ahahha....so damn full ...bloated like hell..
die d i need go jogging tmr...nvm tmr waking up early go makan dim sum...
ahahahaha
realli damn alot of food this bbq...haihz...cant resist
they playing mahjong now...i dont know hw to play...sienezz strike me again...y lah..
ahaha.....
still wondering wta did CHARM did....
i felt so far behind once again....
guilty aso...
whee tmr goign beach....
the wind the sea the sand the sky!!!
kla i felt so down again....straw u realli influence me d...ahahaha
sigh*
and im so liveless now...
wish could go out walk around.....
but hen horh...my frenz all sleep very early and they will b dead after 10pm...
wonder y r they so good girl..
wahahah....
just too bad....
anywya when they r so liveless, i felt the same way as well...
so right im here to blog again....
well nth much..oh let me tell u wat i did today...
i woke up at 9.20am...
and den we went 4 our breakfast nearby my fren's hse...
but since we r so late we missed all the food that is said to b nice....
anyway..anythign lah breakfast..i aso seldom eat breakfast....
den chi liang anf alvin soh aso join us as well...
ahhaha..
later we went to kek lok si...
so darn hot but camwhore damna lot...
next wen tto uhm...the famous 3 storey aqua shop...(pethsop)
and aso bought some biscuit frm forgot wat d/...him heang i guess...
den too tired..all dying d so end up our plan of going to various place all cancelled..
so leh we went home..den wait for BBQ!
ahahha....so damn full ...bloated like hell..
die d i need go jogging tmr...nvm tmr waking up early go makan dim sum...
ahahahaha
realli damn alot of food this bbq...haihz...cant resist
they playing mahjong now...i dont know hw to play...sienezz strike me again...y lah..
ahaha.....
still wondering wta did CHARM did....
i felt so far behind once again....
guilty aso...
whee tmr goign beach....
the wind the sea the sand the sky!!!
kla i felt so down again....straw u realli influence me d...ahahaha
sigh*
silent night
guess wat..
for the very first time..
everyone was shocked tat i came early to pudu!
often im the 1 who will alwiz late and overslept
yet today i still overslept coz i promise someoen to b there at 8am...
n he kinda "sei ban" coz din call me when is edi 8.08 n i havnt reached kj station...
coz b4 dat i told this fren to nt call me coz i will most probably scold him..ahaha
n he really didnt..sigh*
so sorry...
but overall i reached there earlier than i thought..
than yoon sin,weicyn and shing yee..ahahha
really thanks to my fren for sending me to pudu which i donno wher eizzit...
ahahaha
reached penang at 3pm!
nice bus bt still is a bus whihc often lack of the comfortable-ness ahaha...
it was such a small place...but yet we hv fun..
we did lotsa stupid things...
stays in tzyy shyuan hse n sheril hse...
got com so i blog abit...
*in a state of frustration and depression....shedding tears..but soon tmr i'll b fine like
fogetting watz happening int he past!*
for the very first time..
everyone was shocked tat i came early to pudu!
often im the 1 who will alwiz late and overslept
yet today i still overslept coz i promise someoen to b there at 8am...
n he kinda "sei ban" coz din call me when is edi 8.08 n i havnt reached kj station...
coz b4 dat i told this fren to nt call me coz i will most probably scold him..ahaha
n he really didnt..sigh*
so sorry...
but overall i reached there earlier than i thought..
than yoon sin,weicyn and shing yee..ahahha
really thanks to my fren for sending me to pudu which i donno wher eizzit...
ahahaha
reached penang at 3pm!
nice bus bt still is a bus whihc often lack of the comfortable-ness ahaha...
it was such a small place...but yet we hv fun..
we did lotsa stupid things...
stays in tzyy shyuan hse n sheril hse...
got com so i blog abit...
*in a state of frustration and depression....shedding tears..but soon tmr i'll b fine like
fogetting watz happening int he past!*
Friday, May 04, 2007
au revoir
leaving to penang tmr...!
abit of uneasiness coz im still in a dilemma..
but yet i 'd make my decision...
will b back on monday...tillden...
adios!
abit of uneasiness coz im still in a dilemma..
but yet i 'd make my decision...
will b back on monday...tillden...
adios!
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
avril-lavigne-when you're gone
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
mayb u really r scary to me...
scares me to death that i dont hv the courage to stand for myself anymore...
i just dont know why..
already ive said i'll let u go...
freeing u away is my biggest humanity that i ever did..
coz i love you and that is why im letting u go as ive said b4...
but there's soemthing that i missed out...
im not that hapy since the day u're gone..im serious..
coz i m living in a place where there's oni fear surroudning me
and also the world that somehow dont seems to be mind...
somehow, i didnt just close the door...coz.....
lara fabian-i will love again
I will love again though my heart is breaking I will love again stronger then before
I will love again even if it takes a lifetime to get over you heaven only knows
But I've got to be strong tell me wut else can I do
but i just cant let go the fear i have in me...
mayb i just dont deserve anything...
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today i chat with straw..ahaha first time we've been chatting for so long..till uhm 4am?
well is truly unexpected...thank u for spending time wiht me straw!
hahaha
and cant stop saying how banana speaks mandarin..
cis...ok wert no meh...
ahhaha
anyway datz all bout today....
adios
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
mayb u really r scary to me...
scares me to death that i dont hv the courage to stand for myself anymore...
i just dont know why..
already ive said i'll let u go...
freeing u away is my biggest humanity that i ever did..
coz i love you and that is why im letting u go as ive said b4...
but there's soemthing that i missed out...
im not that hapy since the day u're gone..im serious..
coz i m living in a place where there's oni fear surroudning me
and also the world that somehow dont seems to be mind...
somehow, i didnt just close the door...coz.....
lara fabian-i will love again
I will love again though my heart is breaking I will love again stronger then before
I will love again even if it takes a lifetime to get over you heaven only knows
But I've got to be strong tell me wut else can I do
but i just cant let go the fear i have in me...
mayb i just dont deserve anything...
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today i chat with straw..ahaha first time we've been chatting for so long..till uhm 4am?
well is truly unexpected...thank u for spending time wiht me straw!
hahaha
and cant stop saying how banana speaks mandarin..
cis...ok wert no meh...
ahhaha
anyway datz all bout today....
adios
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
shabu-shabu and sushi
ahhaha shabu-shabu is not the steamboat in this case...
just thought that this name is kinda suits this...
doesnt seems delicious aight...
but no is delicious n healthy* *wahaha...tak kenal malu*
nt supposed 2use this mee...but then i got no other mee..
so haiyah nvm lerh..
next is...i went to eat sushi tomo...in ss2..
ahah
che favourite sushi restaurant...
indeed the salmon is so voila!
c! ahahah thatz da okonomiyaki..not quite nice actually...
ahaha
just thought that this name is kinda suits this...
doesnt seems delicious aight...
but no is delicious n healthy* *wahaha...tak kenal malu*
nt supposed 2use this mee...but then i got no other mee..
so haiyah nvm lerh..
next is...i went to eat sushi tomo...in ss2..
ahah
che favourite sushi restaurant...
indeed the salmon is so voila!
c! ahahah thatz da okonomiyaki..not quite nice actually...
ahaha
exam is over..
yeay..finally my last and final foundation exam is over..
feel blessed that it went fine...
i have so much trouble for my management...
i was so worried and i go n consult my mum n told her my probs..
finally after a session of emotional moment...i was so tired that i went to sleep
but i cant sleep! n i turn to elft n right like several millions times n i cant sleep
stupid...killing me...
anyway long story short...i think i did fine...
den after that went to 1u...i had a hang out session with the same gang... watch wild hogs...
humour show...not bad....hehe...
den don hv a satisfying dinner coz ate in waffle worlds...
ahha...thought of buying sneakers but realised ive got no money once again...grr!
ah!!!! geram....
came home sis use the com...
so sorry straw* dat i cant c u online...sos orry....
den by 1 liet oni get to online...
talkw ith 2 crazee monkey...
now is 4.09AM n again i cant sleep...
ping! my improper timing struck me again!
bah! my effort failed...
anyway i so wish to watch hills have eyes but i couldnt find any kaki...
sobz sobz...
feel blessed that it went fine...
i have so much trouble for my management...
i was so worried and i go n consult my mum n told her my probs..
finally after a session of emotional moment...i was so tired that i went to sleep
but i cant sleep! n i turn to elft n right like several millions times n i cant sleep
stupid...killing me...
anyway long story short...i think i did fine...
den after that went to 1u...i had a hang out session with the same gang... watch wild hogs...
humour show...not bad....hehe...
den don hv a satisfying dinner coz ate in waffle worlds...
ahha...thought of buying sneakers but realised ive got no money once again...grr!
ah!!!! geram....
came home sis use the com...
so sorry straw* dat i cant c u online...sos orry....
den by 1 liet oni get to online...
talkw ith 2 crazee monkey...
now is 4.09AM n again i cant sleep...
ping! my improper timing struck me again!
bah! my effort failed...
anyway i so wish to watch hills have eyes but i couldnt find any kaki...
sobz sobz...
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