broke

ah ah...
is not <3>
is im broke...
i got a saman...huhu...unpaid saman! 100bux weyh..
in just about 5mins im away frm my slk...
the smart-ass-got-nothing-to-do mbpj come n saman my slk...
once again im sorry slk for leaving u alone lidet...but hey i noe u think people are askign for ur autograph? gosh im insane...*scream* 100bux...
how much can i deduct from appealing tell me!!!!!!!
i need to save so much...
from now on i guess i need to starve myself...
instant mee all the way...and treat my dad extremely good (*impossible*)
so dat could get extra bux...
huhu T__T pathetic...
any performance CHARM????please count me in ...
i needed money rite now...
or any of u wanna donate to me? sponsor?
now i feel guilty fo getting the adidas jacket...
y must it be this way? am i destine to not able to enjoy life...?
i did this like once in a blue moon!just to get somethign to compliment myself...
is this a crime?
sigh*
how i wish i really get schoalrship again...but i really dont feel like getting the schoalrship i apply because i need to have 3yrs bond with them after i graduate..yerh i wanna work in some place that i put my effot to got hru the proper interview n stuff n work there...but well ont he other hand i really need scholarship...wah dilemma!!!!!!(not like i will b getting the schoalrhsip but then i need the schoalrhsip)and all this applying financial support is just total nutz coz u keep on photocopy the stuff which cozt u like at least 5 bux...n times by donno hwo many schoalrship u aplying..in d end coz u like tons! but end up not getting any responds frm them...not to forget posting it as well....ma fan....ive been this situation b4 my foundation..and it's sux...so if u ever wanan apply allt his thing..think twice...unless u r rich lah..unlike me 5bux aso sya cost me alot...
blame myself for not being genius or even smart ...someitmes i hope ima nerd that oni noe hwo to study n scores well n keep studying for my entire life till i end up in hospital bahagia....but then...is just kidding k..i dont hope to b crazy...it is shitty too...
degree is just so near to my life....*taking a deep breath* i shall breath when i can still bretah now...i dont noe watz ahead of me...all i noe is it will b lifeless...utar is nt where i can get used to..mayb for now...communication is a problem...but yet the major problem is there's oni a small patch of ppl that i could actually get along......shall say im the odd 1 there...being a banana is not easy u noe...but i lurve to b banana...at elast is unknown..ahahaha..and i wouldnt need to care wat ppl say...i can ignore anytime i want....i dont know if i can sense the smell of the first day i step into utar again or not...but i think most probably will..the smell of loneliness, new world, weird ....just weird smell...but eventually u will get used to the smell...*so ironic*
but my whole new world will b absolutely competitive world...
just imagine u are a primary tecaher working with professor!
yea da feelings is lidet coz i'll b studying with whoel bunch of 4.0-cgpa-people...
interetsing....oh wat am i get myself into!!!!!