a day to remember...

if i ever read back my post...

i hope this will be the post that reminds me of this very special day..

a day where i truly feel the multiple feelings swirling like a tidal wave in my soul..

im not imagining, not hallucinating, not thinking..

but i definitely feel it...

to make it even discrete...

it begins by having the enthusiasm...enthusiasm for me to actually finding thigns out by myself..

moving on to independant...independant for me to stand by my own...finding true enjoyment of loneliness...

wrapping up with warmness..so warm that i will not doubt and go ahead to do something that i will never count its risk.

possessing the satisfaction....satisfaction of getting the task completed....

threatened by doubt...doubting the nonsensical things that im doing for an unknown purposes..

ponder by frustration....dilemma and in a state of paranoia...

soon covered by professionality...able to work and a splendid occasion...

surrounded with worries....concerned bout my fren...so hard to mend the broken heart...how i wish i could let outmy anger...let the fume delivers my message to my fren..how silly she can be..worries oh worries...

happiness finally present...happiness dat is untold undefined..for i've opened my eyes...

sadness i defend...forbidding ti to enter in my life..for it is toxic and evil omen of mine....yet it is there..it will alwiz b there....yet to come....