HOLA!

its my holiday people..
and im utterly scheduling my days..
and hell it was hard to state watz my main priority..
just so stress of planning things.

so my holiday was just normal..
i went shopping saw many clothings that i wanna buy
but i go no cash)=
cant imagine that i "owe" whoel sum of money
from my dad..well jsut saying liek i owe him.
so that i feel guilty as i cant forgive myself.
ahah sound sliek im doing a crime.
yes i am.
oh and guess wat...im watching latin grammy awards now.
wow...Shakira is da bomb! got so many awards.
my goodness..so crazy n nonsense that i can feel how happy she was..
akakka..so silly* 
im reaching for my new year resolution soon.
guess which 1 im gonan succeed..
not yet but i hope soon!

ok well...
my day is so far watching tv blogging n shopping
for new year ocoz..bt nt much $$ and need to
be thrifty so dat i will not dwell myself
into a worse situation.
so what about u people?
whazzup with ur life?
please do share with me
!!!!

Xu wei Lun passed away)=

NEWS*

7.37pm on Sunday (January 28). Her heartbeat stopped at 5.09pm and the doctors didn’t managed to get her back after 2 hours of rescue.
Wei Lun met with a car accident on Friday night and couldn’t recover from her head injury. She suffered internal bleeding in her skull.

she's really pretty and ive seen ehr act a couple of time..
is nt that bad after all..comapre to most of other artists nowadayz..
rest in peace weilun* 

world is changing

the world is changing
everything is rearranging
forget others
as the frustration presence
wonder why ppl dont ready for plan B
anymore
r they desperate n think they r alwiz right?
doign the right thing at teh right time
bt nt looking at ppl's right
when they r wrong?
well thatz how everyone will feel
mostly i mean except may 20% of it dont
when they r in responsible
world is also changing
starting 2007
relationship comes rojak..
ppl round me
now there's 3 pairs who broke up
i wonder watz wrong this month
truly make me feel so depressed to see
hw depressed they are...
well world is changing
people is changing
and the mind have lost sense of direction too.

 

ExAM's OVer

yeay! exam finally over..

oh b4 that i wanna ask...hw come no1 comment on my 
previous post?
nt nice meh
i felt so cool!
ahahah
cheh....u all ah...grrrr

anyway miza im so excited to see u soon...
u going malacca wit us rite?
yeay eyay i gt teman d!
ahhaha
eh sry peeps doesnt mean u all din teman me yea
just that ..in u noe "li hai" prospect
ahahah

talkign nonsense again...

anyway i totally used up my entire energy for exam...
so now is time for me to re-energize...---sleep

but somehow i am bothered by something which..
erm really i dont know wat to do...
nop is nt bout [L] this time..
anyway...i dont now hw should i view it...
or hw am i gonna responds to it...i just...cant...urgh*
wanna scream!!...like...why does they have to..eash...
seriously i think in all of ur mind u all should know that
who's in and who's out already.
y wanna force? mayb i just think too much..anyway..
haihz i dono lah..
is like i dont give, it will lose..if i give is nt free...
*winks dont try to figure out! is hard*
*"you" refers to certain ppl..nt me nt some of us..just
dont b too eprasan k ahhaah*
ok nt funny

 

problem-digger....

im so confused, i dont know what to do besides hiding like im illegal to b in this place. standing 
strong, still moving on. Glad that putting myself in another situation can help well though not much (as ur presence never fail to eliminate frm my mind). then as i expected, the more i love life each day, the more i will dig depression. i was yearning some changes so badly. is not that easy though, not like u can write out ur undecisive to-do list in a box and just randomly pick up 1 n datz it. hoho hw i hope is that easy! then i wont indulge myself in such behavior. mayb datz a good idea if i ever 
gonna let go my perseverance spirit. Anyway, bet u can ever imagine how toxic u r. wonder y 
dopey ppl liek me will long for u till this day... again ignorant?NO. im just confused. mayb the vow that i make finally meet the excellent time to do so. but still i have a heavy heart..and is so hard just to carry such burden. yet is even harder to unload the burden. &&&
seriously confused by the feelings i have now. not sure how to distinguish watz fading n watz not.. i may say is fading bt somehow it tells me otehrwise. gosh this is getting worse. Mayb i shall just not say it anymore.im puzzled..

chemistry paper tomoro..
pfah!
dying and slacking!






 

taDa!

its been awhile i din blog eh!
dis is wat exam will do to me

Lixin is back..
hey girl if u ever read this
i wanna say sorry for not able to spend some times with ya...
i promise i will call u up when im free!

nothing much to say..
coz almost 80% of my brain is jammed coz of exam!

anyway pics will say it all!





howz it looks? delicious?
guess where i ate this..
ahaha actually i cooked it!
i called it erm erm..."Le Voila Miscela"
basically i simply taruh only..but resultant is mama mia!





PILES and PILES of noteS hv to read! n study and understand and and..
well thatz me! feel so semangat to study!!!

AN HOUR LATER...






BORING! boring! sleepy sleepy!



FEW MINUTES LATER.....



ZZZZZZZ........

tsk tsk tsk...
hopeless*

nO longer beLongS to me..

1st of all HAppy biRThday to my COusin, cpt!
20th jan..another person bday too..
and so i hope thta i dont find outt his person bt
haihz i have so much fate with this person...
well, happy birthday ..
never i thought it could be so shitty when i read ppl's blog...
i mean i never felt so intimidated by it..
and yet they sometimes show such a sweet posts
which i, on the other hand, felt otherwise...

anyway scratch that...

exam is near...
and i dont know if i actually put any effort to it...
seems like is a challenge for me
to let me know whatz important n watz not
for that
i shall put something aside
no is everything aside
except psycho myself to finished up my exam
seems like my new year resolution got a long way to go...

*peace*

LaALLALA @@

seems like everyone is busy studying now!
i shall start mine too..lazy me..never try to study earlier but last mins.
thought im alwiz sucha genius *winks* (muahaha)
anyway sis came back today from cameron..
whoot whoot i got strawberries and guess wat..
a charming and marvellous and and and gorgeous white rose!
for me? (nt sure* she said so) ahahha...
was really mama mia!!!

let u see ha!







so nice rite and taste good too..
look at the white rose..so pure so delicate..
plus gt other flowers also i.e red rose and african daisies..
hmm this time no cactus i wonder y..too ugly..ahaha..eh some ncie 1 lerh..

today went to practice
and learned new dance
which is so cool coz we choreograph it on the same day
is a gd idea though
save time
today there's no jumps strength work n stuntss....whee! so nice...nt that tiring
only dance which is great!
after that cc n cw showed us their tachnical dance which is awesome
full of emotion and true artistic..
i heart it so much...

peeps don so stressed out!
study smart nt study hard (bluek i don study both)
enjoy the exam (though i don enjoy it) bt still
it will helps from being so miserable with ur life!
bahahaha
anyway i hope tmr i will study...
ahahha
(doubt!)
till then..
smileZZzz *toodles*

心深傷透

sam tung sam sui..ngo yi ging gam sao gwoh..yau si ngo gok tuk, ngo yi ging bin joh..gang gin keong..gang ga yiu kao gou..gang ga mm yi sun yan..yan dei ho nang yi wei ngo hei yutt goh hou lang dam hou ho pa geh lui hai..ngo bat wui ga yi..ngo ji nang ho yi gam yeong lei kam ju ngo seong hao..ngo bat yiu joi bei yan dei yutt goh guai guai lui geh gam gok..yi hei ngo jan hei hou seong wai..jan hei hou seong hei mogn ying sik nei ji qin, ngo hei yut goh hou mm ji ngoi geh yan..gam yeong ngo mou bit yiu soeng lei geh dong..mou bit yiu hou chi yi gah gm..seong soeng lok lok..tung seong ga tung..mm ji hei sei ding sang..jan hei hou chi yut goh yau wan yeh guai..tei ju nei yi ga..hu chi matt eyh mou fatt sang gwoh..ngo batt gam seong sun .. nei tuk gm fai mong liu ngo.. yau qi ji jung..ngo jao hou chi jung mou yim..nei dui ngo jao hou chi.. yau si jau jung mou yim mou si jao ha ying chun..ngo sing ying ngo jap jeok..ying yin mm wui fong hei ying yin jip sao mm dou geh si satt..dan ngo wui lam dou..na pa ngo joi gam yeong lok hui, ngo wui chi sin gim satt hui lei ji...

yan sang jau hei gm chan yan...gm ho pa..yau si lei gok tuk...lei yung yau hou mei lei geh yeh..dan hei bat ji bat gok..lei wui fatt gok dou..lei soh yung yau geh yeh siu satt..jui ho pa hei..lei bei yan geh yutt chai..lei ho nang gok tuk hou jik chin..but gwoh hei yan dei geh fong min..soh yau yeh ji hei ji gei sam gam ching yuin..mm jik chin ga!..so yi..ji gei wui gei ju dan yan dei wui mong liu ta..pang yau ya hau chin lui ya hou..chi chung gam ching wui seong hoi kei jung yut gwoh yan.. dong bat yu lam ha lei yansang jung ging lik gwoh gei doh geh bat ho si yi geh si..yi ngo wui gok tuk..dong gno lam hei ngo yan sang fung mon sik choi fung moon hou doh yeh fatt sang, gm ngo jao wui ji dou ji gei mou bak fei ngo geh life..si man yau gei doh goh yan wui ging lik gm geh si leh?...haha...

cha satt ngo mm ji seong gong d matt yeh...ji hei seong type ngo yi ga soh lum geh yutt chai.. hou mou liu... ngo hou gui lerh..mm ji soeng dim... mm ji ngo hei mm hei jan hei......ngo?......ho bit gm jap jeok leh?...ho bit yiu jok jin ji gei...ho bit yiu gm oi yutt goh mm oi ngo geh yan...ngo sun oi jan hei hou powerful...ho yi ling nei dap dou nirvana yut hei dei yuk..kei satt ji chin ngo seh dou hou doh yeh..dim ji yi goh sei yan blog...bong ngo delete sai..yi ga ngo bat ho yi joi chung fook she goh yatt mou yatt yeong geh yeh..jan hei gik sei ngo...chi chi dou hei gm...
shuin le..doh mm doh siu mm siu...yi yin mou meh yan duk ngo geh blog...hei ngo sin wui jui yan geh blog...yau jei hei lei geh blog...mm ji dim gai..
ngo yut yutt mm duk mm tuk..ho nang ngo ji gei yiu sau yi jugn tung fu

yi pai ngo yuit lei yit gok tuk ji gei hou miu siu....tei mm hei ji gei...yan wei ngo jan hei ji dou ji gei hou chun jorh..dan hei pang yau chi jung douw ui wa mm hei...yau si gok tuk pang yau ho mm ho kao...
kui dei hei seong tung ngo jou pang yau yan wei ngo jou ngo ji gei ding hei kui dei gok tuk ngo
gao foolish enough ne?jan hei gu mm dou
ngo dou mm seong lam gum doh...
ji pa wui soeng doh gei chi
yau sei dou dai ngo ji dou ji gei hou gu duk
dai goh ji hao yutt ding wui gu duk jugn lou
soh yi ngo mei seong yau gm geh ching ying fatt sang ngo batt ting
sik ying ngo gu duk geh sang woot yi ga...
ngo mou meh yeh lek ah..ji hei lek gong d fei wa...
yau sei ngo jao hou jugn yi siu...
dan hei dim gai geh tin yiu bei ngo yu goh gm min keong geh siu yung..
cha satt ngo jan hei hoi sam..
dim gai ngo mou yutt goh hou jan satt geh gam gok ho yi biu dap chuit lei..
tai gin keong bit hei yut gin hou si..mou yan ji dou ngo fragile geh yut hak..

hou le hei gm doh lerh...
yuit gong yuit yi mou luin chi

sorry for those who couldnt understand kayZzz...^^

back to the day-my memories fade-you fouled it up easily-unconsidering the stages used to formed it-i fused up-yet i f***ed up-i complicated my life-being gullible and naive-being extremely clueless-making my soul so hopeless-since then i no longer alive-but survive i denied-sound of radio-neglecting the enjin that is off-feelign the heat that was-but i feel it isnt hot but warm-as u were beside me-oni two of us in the middle of the street-silent and speechless-feeling so breathless-tryign to read watz on ur mind-but i was too afraid to know the reason why-i know that this is somewhat a sign-of us to be together for the last time-so i tried to cherish these moment-trying to hide the solemn-then-things deteriorates after that-plain talk and soon ignored-and that im sad-i become such a whipper-all i do was shedding my tears-on and off being strong-but this soon doesnt last long- things begin to be so wrong-that i cant even wanna moved on-u're treating me like a moron-a hollow moron- among the unbearable things- i could never accept lies and broken vow-u can say me stupid- u may say me luantic-i just want to understand the matter-once again vivid and clear-never in my life had I felt so close to heaven-never in my life have I felt so dead-there's flame in me-an eternal flame that will never slip-reading the texts u written to her- really deeply hit me with hurts-im not a dummy to u-or even a fool-dont just call for me-only when u have means-for i knwo what u mean-in short, u're calling me to leave both of u alone-i did i tried but have u done anythign for me?-i get nothign in return from u-nothing except thousands of torns for me to step on-because of you-played by kelly clarkson-deeply emphasize-due to u i am afraid nt only me but everyone around me-staring at the screen-lookign at us again-i listened to the song that we used to hear-though i no longer sense your presence-but it's the closest i will ever be with you again-

(edit abit frm soemwhere)

 

tear drops

Is already almost half of the month. The beginning of this new year was really unpredictable. Lotsa thing i thought will hardly to happen , unexpectedly it happen! scary though. Well, what does this mean huh? Im just looking forward to end of this year. yea yea i know is a long way to go, but then just curious. haha.

On Friday, i got this evaluation thingy for my cheer. We're supposed to choreograph our own dance and audition. So, i was so "lucky" to be the first and i really scared the hell of my nuts. HOwever, i it turned out to be quite ok. Not as bad as i think it will be. phew! throughout the thing, i saw many talented people. Really admire them! but feel like im getting smaller and smaller. hehe.

Exam nevertheless, is around the corner. There ain't no time for fun edi.
eeks* so sad! So what i was thinking is to break the rules and just go for my last shopping spree just last one!
and wtf saturday got replacement class. HAihz but then nevermind lerh.
is our last class for this sem.
will gonna miss so many lecturer for this sem.
and aso nt to forget sem 3 is aso comin soon and then afetr that,
everyone will be on their own again.
is such a short time!
and i doubt we can ever keep in touch again like what it is now.
sudden emo strikes me now.
i admit i feel uneasy coz we're gonan separate soon.
what i mean is u guys! cynn,zack,wein,yee,sin*
seriously i hate this feelings.
feelings of feeling happy to knwo u guys but sad that is oni for a short time.
distance can really deteriorates relationship.
sigh* i don wanna say much.
i will gonan cry soon! teehee!

A closed person of mine jsut broke up with her almost 5/6 years bf,
hmm really shockign to me,
such a long period of time,
well was it that easy to give up?
mayb i dont get it,
however i know that they know what is good for them
as only they know the feelings
third person can never try to judge it no!
anyway im nt qualified to judge also

@---}{-----@-----}{------@------}{-------@----}{-------

part2

aihz really i cant understand what i really get myself into
or even understand about myself
supposingly i shuld be happy with a lovely couple
but then it will b another case if it is the other case u noe
when u realised that "eh isnt im supposed to b having the bliss?"
seeing something that i dont wish to see
makes life harder
im such a lunatic as i never stop stalking..wtf
just 2 dayz ago, thought hope is coming my way
thinking kinda naive*
indeed i never let go
bt {L} really talk to me since for 2 month we din really hv a REAL chat
tis was also shokcingly and miracally happen
out of the blues
so i was thinking was it fate?
and that i start to think wat God wanna do to me now..
and at the splurge of time,
fren told me, when {L} talk to me i doubt bout it instead of happy.
when {L} dont talk to me, i wish for these day to come.
seriously i blame myself for being so indecisive and that i dont noe wat i wan!
just wanan noe the reason why?!
 just cant get u outta my head
tonite is another nite of me to mourn for my death
things u post, really hurtful
i think whatz left of me
is the grudge that lies beneath the hidden love i spilled on u..
),=

im so hollow

i am so hollow to you
dat you can do this to me
left me in despair
so cold so empty...

 

random thoughts

kinda missed this particular monday as the monday 
often declared as a holiday..

supposingly im rushing my chemistry reports 
but as usual i cant help it but
something just cameacross my mind..
so as simple and short as i can
so that i can finished up my reports,
here it goes..
just few hours ago, me and few classmates actually talk about well relationships..
and erm just wanna say that..
well mayb ive been say it plenty of times..
just wanna emphasize again..
love can be such a wonderful and beautiful elements..
but never forget it can be just so cruel..u cant sense the presence of the disaster that will strike any moment while u're enjoying it just liek tsunami hit phuket out of a sudden. at least the fault can be determined which is the nature. but in this scenario, who can u blame? is so hard to actuallyblame the 1 who hurt u or the 1 who got hurt..because.. u'll never know who's rite or wrong..u may think ur other half is wrong but hw sure r u? mayb th efault is within u..
undoubtedly, love hurts no matter wat.. is a game that play with your feelings..tough game tough decision..involving your pure sensual sentimental genuine entire soul which if u're nt strong enought o handle it, it might kills you...love can be a very self-centred persona which leads to confusion till you left with the only choice..
sometimes you may need to really believe in fate and destiny...as love is so unpredictable and that it will come when it is time to come..desperation often leads to dead end..love, the more u gain , the pain remains, but the strength will never fade..
alwiz ready for any consequences ...
i may nt b a gd example but i study every relationship ive been through and i cherish and learn frm it..i just surrender and let time prove to me..
succesful love doesnt need the requirement to b 100% honest to the 1 u care because everyone need space for their personal..and datz what we call "secret"..do not try to doubt the person u love..for trust will show hw much u really love the person..

tupperware

don misunderstood.. im nt talkign bout the "tupperware" u think it is..well i performed for 

tupperware today in pyramid convention centre..besides allt he frustration and shocking incident, such as missing a member, tellign the changes on the same day, my car jam start, overslept..haha soudns so horrible to me..and yes.. i really felt annoyed..when i reached the place, i really felt like digging a hole underneath and burried my head into it..i was totally feel sorry for my member and my acptain for showing such unforgiveable act but i cant help it..i even skip my physics class which is a replacement..but at elast evrything just went well..n most importantly the client didnt complain or else mayb im gonna jump down fromt he building..ahah..nah jk..well ont he other hand, i felt great that everything goes fine as i never manage so amny ppl by myself before..and from this incident i learnt my lesson and i hope i acn do better next time..

but well this depends on Cw if he will gimem another chance after doign such shitty job..i don wanna think much so, just wanna take soemr est frm now on because my final exams are near the corner..and i gotta get at elast gpa 3.6 so dat i can egt myu cgpa3.3 which hit my targhet for scholarship..well is darn hard ok..the subjects gettign tougher..somuch tougher than sem1..everyone is chnaging course too..i also wan but what else can i do? do wat i like ocoz is gonan b great but think bout it,things i liek is nt in msia...which is so limited..i cant even choose...im puzzled..samo if i change course, im wasting th emoney and gosh dad is having difficulty with his job..samo i gotta stop my gym for th emoment as i need to b really thrifty by now..but somehow i just dont know hw to let my seniors know..is like who gonna care rite i eman for soem ppl rm50 mite b a small sum of money.bt nt for me n others who may kno my condition.

my dad never fail to fulfill wat iw ant like when i ask for money, he'll try his best to give me asap..bt this time really he told me that he don hv any..whatsmore gonan b chinese new year..sis n dad no bonus..dad's workign place lack of business..CNY will b soemwhat patehtic this yr..i dont want to compare or tryign to show if im such a poor girl well inf act im nt poor...as i got house,car education n stuff..bt try nt to think bout poor as in damn poor...the thing is ...well mayb my condition is "soon-to-be-poor"..yea datz better...i mean we need to hv thigns that we supposed to hv..dammit i donno what im talking BOUT..

i wish i hv a job...a job dat is gonan be beneficial for me..and at teh sam eitme i can gain some income..mom totally erm..im speechless about it...

well, guess i cant think bout anythign rit enow besides reports and exams and holidayz..yea...so tillt hen im gonan make a good posts soem day..astala vista..

cheerleading!

for once i doubt bout my passion thta is cheerleading..

im nt sure if i ever liek cheerleading..

i get this symptom when i really not doing anythign for cheerleading..

i mean at leats last time when im in dynamitez..

my job is to b the team memebr who gonan attend every practices to strive for champion in cheer200(x) and the final year i succeed..

im nt happy coz we become national champion but im happy that

i never thought i'll become cheerleader or getting into the squad to be specific..

well no1 will know how hard and how much effort i put on int his field..

as ever of my fren even my sis..they know that im nt active in any sports

and whatzmore im nt the kind of hapepnign ppl...

as i know in my school, those ppl that the cheerleader know definitely will be in for the squad

ims erious..

when im in form3, i finally got the guts to reallyg o for audition

but as i step into the hall..no i shall sa as i look into the hall..i got really sced or feel like

nt belong to one of them..i mean is liek the whole school knwo who they r...n who am i?

im just a typical nerd n short n nt to mention yes i nt attractive..

so in d end i end up iving up...n went home..

so iw en thome thinking that...i realli don believe that oni the bitch will ever get into cheerleading (erm..well last time i alwiz think that cheerleader is a bitch coz i've encoutner a few on hw they treat the nerd..so im quite pissed ahah) so form 4 that time..is when i pull my fren along n go audition with me..somehow i have the feelings that iw ont get in as ...they don even focus on any of us...oni those "well-known" ppl..i was looking at their eye contact ..but i totally feel so embarrassed..i really do..but ppl like me..u will never know whatz hidden bhind me actually...and so i din get in..but during the hols..

i din noe that i ever gonan sent an email o sandra..n she's the 1 who's giving me this preciuos opportunity..frm then i realized perseverance can at least giev u a chance..but giving up means u got no chance at all..i really do lotsa research bout cheerleaidng b4 hand (haha...so kiasu org ni") cant help it i tot the more i noe the more i master it the more chance i can get in...bt well mayb in reality like int his world..ppl often see the outside instead of the inside..

so after all my yada yada yada...

what im tryign to sya is...often when i stop cheerleading..i will definitely missed it n well datz y i join CHARM coz i can never live wihtout cheerleading i guess...

coz i work real hard for it..n i enjoy doing it if i ever hv the chance again..

bt now..time is nt getting my way..n lotsa time, inconvenience comes my way...

think bout it, i cant sacrifice anythign for cheer anymore...

i feel like im nt commiting myself to it...since the office fella ask em this question:

"education or cheer?"

oh man as CW say..this is 2 diff things..i agree...

nowadayz as i teach others..i felt liek im powerless n i don hv the rite to voice up anything..

coz i don even hav ean official cert as a coach just because

i don hv money to pay for anythign...i think my passion is gonna end just liek this..

soemtimes i really think that...

with money, u might nt hv everyhtign...but wihtout money, u definitely cant hv evryhting..

opportunity came yes it came...but obstacle came first...so is nt much i can do...

if ever im gonna end cheer just like this..well imite just gonna spam my blog bout hw dissatisfy am i about it...

wat i wanted?!

for past few month, i really hope that i can get over some thing by leting myself into a ver very busy schedule..and i din noe such thought can ever come true..well i kinda regret it but then somehow it really helps..but memory is still memory...and alwayz just memory..

Miza how long have u left us? hehe seems like just yesterday to me..still feel ur absent in utar though..

L how long we've been apart? officially is 3 month and 28dayz; unofficially is 9 month and 31dayz...how often do u rememebr me? probability....0.00000000001?

jo how long we've been yau char kuai? officially almost 3yrs? unofficially 6yrs!

lx how long havent we seen u? about 4 month?

my girls! how long we've been suffering togeda in utar? almost 8 month? ahahha

ok this is getting abit too annoying..well actually just reminding myself that actually been quite sometime now that so many things we're possessing it for a logn tiem...well if u dont realsied it...that show u're busy...

not a good example but well im outta things to post..really..

for the first tiem i dont knwo what to post...

mayb as i keeps ayign i donnno wta to post...i will eventually coem out somethign to post..

i admit my typing sux ...plenty of errors..

exam is coming real soon...final samo..

tmr i will have performance..hoepfulyl im gonna keep my resolution n not so blur during that day! and i hope i din overslept...well erm there's big possibilities that im gonna overslept...bt better nt curse now..ahaha..for i willoverslept...

hahaha

oh i save this for the last! bt it doesnt mean the least...

"i wanna say that i really sorry to the CHARM (if u knew who u r..well im nt sure i annoyed whoa lso) well just wanna apologize for my bad gas n raising my voice out of a sudden! i dont mean it and i really don wanan do dat but sometimes word can be sharper than a sword!"

p/s hahaha posting for no1 to read..yeala i feel uneasy to sya sorry sometimes..ahahah neway

well if ever anyone of them know bout this site..ahaha except u chengchoo...kakaka(=

"dear readers, though is not many but i really thanku for all this almost a year, for allt he responses u left in my blog..thanks banyak! never thought i can actually read any comments..im serious! coz i realised im nt those hapepnign kinda person whose blog can be damn interestign with happy happy stuff thatz wta make it coulourful ..and what my blog actiually tells otherwise...physically colourful but innert was just plain black and white...and whatzmore my language is totally speechless!"

n/a

doesnt seems like is a new year now..
on this day, i would say is a terrible day for me..
everything was just so sudden, not right, frustrating and screwed..
i came home feeling so exhausted, so unbearable..
den i did something so ridiculous..
on way back, i jsut cant stop blaming..
blaming from 1 things and another...
till i finally brokedown...several times tillh ome n bak home n in home..
im sux rite..
2 eyeballs was flaming red now..
sis let me try a few sips of black label..just want me to taste
i really hope that i could drink the whole bottle of it n passed out
i drinkt he first glass..tryign to ask for more..i was mute since i came home..
sometimes i just felt lucky that i have sisters..at least those stupid thigns they did
realli makes me laugh..
and rite....i did nothign rite today..
i still confused now..
confused with many thigns and plenty of questions that haunting me
i get no answer and mayb i just dont want to know th eanswer
or im not being understood or mayb i dont want to be understood by ppl...

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My New Year Resolution(s)!

1. mild down my bad habits i.e perfectionisms
2. curb myself from being a binge thinker
3. sleep and wake up the right time (doubt!)
4. getting at least 3.5 for CGPA.(pfah!)
5. eliminate my spare tyre and those evil fatz dat haunt me!

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for now thatz all, though im not sure whether it is considered as a resolution or not.

we'll see if i can ever make my resolution a success this time..hahaha

It'S 2007 people!

So is 2007 already..
wat lies ahead, who knows?
soemtimes is just so scary to really not know whatz gonna happen next in our life. 
suppsoingly im gonna posts the longest post but then i think my life jsut full of obstacles..gotta go klang tmr just to do assignment..and thereofre i cant spend so much tiem on blogging yet..
hectic week soon...really hoep that i will experienced holidayz asap!

happy new year people!
i heart u all
and may the new year brongs new beginning!