encumbrance still bind

wholly hugged with melancholy;
merely can whinge if only;
ruminating if it'd leave me;
no, haunting within the unelucidating creeps.
'd do the utmost of it;
remaining and undoubtly stays in;
espying the truth that hidden by me;
i.e. musing if me deeply feel thee.
utterly a plague;
like an abscess, the imperfection;
awefully unwilling;
but i cant bare no more.
was it a karma?
or just a random fault;
premonition said otherwise;
indeed the notion is gold.
doubtless i crave for more;
covet the moment before;
could retrace and unchange;
it halt ,undeniably state.
how to why;
if to a sigh;
i shall be condemned;
for this unforgiving sin of mine.
just show me the sign;
and i will try;
free from disguise;
that will be just as fine.
just so murderous;
note that nil is outta my follishness;
itz terrible;
all've been me;
forming the loner;
dat signified the dirt;
itz all whatsoever now...
too late and too sick...
i swear ive no sensibility...
coz im blinded by the light of hope
it once shown n lit me..
i captured without regretting it...
i do...i still do now...
the vow holding on..
thou evrmore i love and miss ....