october is coming.......

so dead...is october....is ** month!...is so hard to think bout it...it feels like things just happened yesterday oni...when everyhtign ws just so fine so perfect n thinking that it'll last till these dayz....great horh...but wakey wakey...stop dreaming!....
but seriously...it is harder than wat i think....
do i really put no significant to u?
do i?
*smirks*
i deserve to b left just like dat....
y must it b on me?
i realy hope someone can really understand the situation im in....
which is i noe almost 99% ppl thinking that it served me right and i shud hvae known i'll get this kinda conclusion....
all i can say is...
u wouldnt know wat's the silliest thing will u gonan do or will u gonna experienced when u found someone that truly special to u...
dat special is hard and difficult to explain....
d oni thing is th esame is that..it is one and only...
is rare and u appreciate it like u never cherish somethign b4.....
i oe the way** feels towards c* is just like me...
n omg..this 3some...
seriously hit hard on me...
n i can say i definitely nt the same person anymore...
iam not...
do u realised?
i've realised....and im so afraid of myslef...
so fear of my body,soul n my mind....
just bocz of someone that dont love me?...
hahahah...
so farny i would say...
but...
not easy...
is not easy...