Monday, August 07, 2006

i wish i can make it thru

few dayz ago, i watch back the show call "my left eyes sees ghost"..this show have made me cry for the 3rd time..and im dumb enuf to not realised watz da msg of it.. btu this time i get it..but i cant say 100% that im rite this time...but i think is a good answer for me..and it actually help me to let go.. datz y i told my fren that im fine..yes i am..have been so hard time for so many mth.. now i've realised.. i do not wanna doubt bout my state now..i just hoep that i really could made it tru this time.. n dat ok...yes i shall tell u watz actually made up my mind to let go..this show..is basically help me to realised that..if u dun let go.. actually u're so silly..i mean if u dun let go..and even if u try to hold on..watz the point? it'll nt gonan turn out the way u wan it too..n it aso says dat "we just met for 7dayz..u're talking bout love? bullshit!.isnt it u're just wan his money?" ..well in this shows thatz wat other ppl think about this girl who married to a guy after knowing that guy just for 7 dayz..and yes for many ppl...they wont blive that such love happen..n dey think they're not mature enuf..nto stable enuf..but no..let me tell u...a person shhould love unconditionally..if u question love...scuh love is not genuine anymore...both party shudnt question it...either 1 of them questioned bout it...relationship surely will break..coz there's no trust..and when the guy died passed away..the girl was depressed n dat she wanted to really c him once again..n she saw ghost..bt y cant she sees her husband?..tillt he end oni he reaised.. his husband is alwiz on her side n that he wanted he rto let go..n keep on living..this is how i apply to my so called perspective or philosophy of mine..is liek i shud b glad that (*touch wood to say*) ** is still alive..y not b contented...will i want to b satisfied oni when ** accepted me again or love me once again OR i shud satisfy with the person i live can live happily?.well i dunno..for me i'll choose that my lover will b happy..coz is hard to not keep contact with some1 u really loive n aso not seeing them in ur entire life...mayb some ppl think it is a gd thing...bt for me is not...this is not stupid..well who do not wan the eprson u like to loev once agin..? but the think is about..which is more worth it? lets say one day d person u love is nt ere anymore..can u imagine hw sad n hw u wanted to hv the perosn u love living int his world?..is u noe..at least u noe the present of the person u love..n if i dun let go...i noe t'll b harder n i'll really feel heavy hearted to atually let go the eprosn in d end..so i chose this over loving ** till the end..live isnt alwiz fair u noe...u just gotta apply this term in ur life n just go tru it like it is normal..

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