jsut another day

pftt..didnt blog for quite some time....

tot of creating sumthing..but i just got no idea now..i need some oomph rite now..

wonder y those blogger can write on and on..and almost 3/4 of it is about wat they did on that day..seems so boring..yea i did write that too...datz y i need soemthign interesting..besides all my ranting towards **...how can some ppl's life so simple and filled with enormous incident or activities..looking at my life..so patethic...when there's lotsa work for me to do...i complaining that i got no time..and when i got nth to do...im so darn bored..when im bored..i tot of the book ive read previously that say bored is a way to let us feel the tranquility...but i can tfeel any peacefulness...instead...my brain is working so actively that i'll start daydreaming n thinking lotsa thigns..

hazy! hazy! hazy!...so ahte it..makes my days worse..

i want to read a book...entitiled "how to live the life you want" if there's any...jsut couldnt find any easy to understand and excellent book...

nowdayz..i keep thinking what did i spend on till i've got no money..again..yes..again..most fo the tiem i spend it on food and petrol..both i mean..is a must..compare to last time..i don even noe hw to drive...yup mayb driving really get myslef into trouble..ahaha...when u know hw o drive..it actually leads u to many disadvantages...most touchwood but is true---when u wanna suicide...just bang ur car or turn it...i bet u will just gonan feel excited..n without knwoing u;re dead if u're lucky enuf..

aiks im stoning now..wat am i gonna do...so early...is just 2.41am...wat is ** doin?...so looonggg...wanan smack whack kick hit burn cook drill kill strangle **....wish u really helpign me to find wat iw ant and not chit chatting for that longg...thoguh i think u r chit chatting...btu wat can i do rite...non of my business...hate it

aihz plz stop being sensitive...

grandma have accepted Jesus..Praise the Lord..but hw far can she go...how much she blif? is she willingly accept? i dunno..seems liek she was forced by my aunt...so i wish is not..and dat i'llt ry to talk to my garndma...got lotsa obtacle..and anti-christian frenz in my life..bt i dun mind...coz everyone ahve the rite to choose whetehr anot to hv a religion rite...

wateva...

my mood somehow extremely unpredictable...confused...