happy birthday to me..

itz my bday today.. can considered it happie and sad..happie as in my uni classmates actually bought me a cake n it was surprising lerh...made my face kena the cake..haha..and i got lotsa greetings frm many many frenz n aso frenz dat i din expected to b remembered my bday..i feel so not alone..and thanks u all...
sad thing is actually...i cant celberate with my dearest frenz..got no greetings from my fren, lx..having exams tmr..the distance with ** getting further n further.. it's so uneasy to get through my emotions toward everything..rite now...9.43pm..im sitting in front of my computer..basically hoping that ** will just talk to me..but it seems like ** wouldnt want to talk to me..no longer like the way it is as a fren last time..but ** deny bout it..is obvious n y shud ** deny?..coz u hav got ur satisfaction?..yet...when will u tell me the truth..or sumtimes i ask myself..does truth relli that important to me? i dont knoe...

soon, will gonan b diagnosing myself with overdose work n boredom..is a fact that boredom is good to give urself a peace moment..where at first u'll feel so torturing..but later on..u're gonna b satsified with the tranquil state u r at taht time..i logn for boredom now...so tired of thinking n doin much work...i wish i could just sleep n sleep n sleep....wake up in a few weeks later..n dat everythign just change n my mind is totally washed up...i could start a new life then!..

i translate the meaning of a song that i trully feel is very significant to the special day of mine..today!

happy birthday!

i said to myself

the candle is lit up

loneliness rose up

happy birthday!

tears have thicken

i wanted to thank u for the thigns u gave and taken back

still love you

still abit of hate

still need time

only can heal

filled with scars n hurts

face changed arouse

wish me happy birthday....

doesnt make any sense...coz is a chinese song...ahah

misses all my frenz...misses YOU..