i begin to be ill-advised of....

i read many blogs from 1 link to another and it goes on and on.
when i keep on reading numerous blog, it eventually get boring and i stop.
however, each and everyday,when i read somethign new or discover new blog, i will alwayz have the urge to compare mine with them.
the resutls of it is alwayz pathetic.i mean my blog is pathetic.
in other saying, im abusing blog.
supposingly a blog is somethign that is to post somehting that is knowledgeable, special, and as a medium to change person's life which was my intial purpose but i failed to do it.
i really admire those blog who having large no. of comment and visitors, their coherent languages, and their variable posts daily.

ah~ yes den when i look at mine, gosh wat a blog?! full of disatisfaction, rantering, whine, saddening and depressing posts: which 80% is all bout me and ** ; but i stated below that it is anyway bout ** n me!
mr kuru (public speaking's lecturer) actually mentioned that blogging is somethign like public speaking which is speak to the audience and which can potray the identity of the speaker.
so means this shows dat i am a depressing person, a saddist, a loner?...i bliv it is true den.
who iam before..no longer becomes a matter.
human change anyway.

if u r observant enuf...or being my fren. if u don realised this.erm..den..erm i donno lehr. just wanna say. do u all relaised i never tell about who i am or giving any description in my profile neither here or anywhere.
coz i feel like i never be who i am.
it's difficutl to be me.
no matter what's the thruth, whether im making it complicated or difficult for myself or i am this kinda person.
i really don care that much coz does it really matter to know the truth soemtimes?
not really.
wth. again im nt sure wat im trying to say...so scratch that.

at this hr....while iw as talking to my fren, wein, ** suddenly online..freaky isnt it?...
i mean is not freaky
but is extremely freaky...
freaks me out of my nerve!
but again.
i don expect ** to greet me.
mayb i shudnt said ** until like ** so bad, mayb ** indeed bz with the work..rite?
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