total madness

today was totally unbareable! last nite i'd been a lil bit typsy after i went yam cha wif frenz and when i went home, just drink madly after few hrs...wakign up today caused me having bad headaches...but i manage to get myself fine again! i wish that i never again did that...was bad lerh...but it feels good for me to make myself sleep! finally or mayb not...i found a way to make myself sleep?! but it is bad...so i can just ignore it...i feel abundant of sin in me for being or looking or presenting myself so far off diff as a christian...
anyway, as i woke up, reali did nothing but to eat and online...feeling as if im a lazy fat bums...and just trying to have some relaxation by onlining...there goes this shocking news dat gets myself from excitement to disapointment to annoyance and to frustration...sometimes i wonder y do i care so much of my marks when i actually did pretty good...the thing is im nt satisfy for it is off the target and i tot it will b better....for some reasons, i realli need to do well for my sem1 if not im gonna be so stress for my sem2...even worst i doubt that i will be commited to study for next sem...i mean sem1 already is hard for me to commit myself in it...n here's the results...*serve me right!* (hmm..yes im so kiasu rite now, not till i finally get the results)...im so stewpid eventhough just foundation!
i really appreciate the thigns my fren said...all tryign to comfort me...so sorry for those unpleasant replies i gave in return...my bad! and i dont expect u all to forgive me also...all iw anna say is ...thanks!
ahuh...saw a person's blog...quite not bad...really din seems dat he is so sentimental...nto to mention who erm it was stated that ..ok hw to start..mayb i shud start by this:~

• take out a dictionary, and u check out "love"...u r surprise to c there's so many meanings for that particualar word...
• but do u all truly understand it?
• i believe it is very hard to understand...until u encounter it?!some people may say "YES I UNDERSTAND IT!" well den i salute u!
• for me i dont understand too...

• why do people get together for the sake of love, but end up losing and hurting each other. perhaps the dictionary forgotten two very important part:

1. pain/suffering
2. sadness

(this is wat the person wrote)
hehe...indeed so true...and this fella continue...

• but....
• i believe, we must feel pain and sadness, before we can feel true love. we can't see it, we can't smell it, we can't touch it. then how do we know that its there?
• we feel it in our hearts peeps!
• so hang in there, people in despair. love is coming your way, and there's nothing you can do to stop it.

so.....what do u think?...hehe....