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looking at one of my fren who's having problem with her uncertainty and having complicating and confusion in her own perspective, bt yet doesnt know what's goin on or wat she want.makes me catch the reflection of someone that i tot have been goin thru this situation b4. guess no1 understand wat im trying to say coz me myself dun really know how to express it. "false hope". datz wat this fren found in her sms. whether i know wat it means? well i cant say i know wat it truely means but from my point of view. i understand but it doesnt apply to everyone. but it seems to me that false hope i've been encounter b4. not wanting to elaborate furthermore for it is somehting that u dun wanna noe coz is just my thoughts of it.n it mite coz u to think elsewhere. complicating huh?
rite now im poring out my thoughts that i have now.datz y i cant really write logically or vividly. im supposed to b studying rite now. just thinking of posting for awhile n im off with my hardcore studies!

i lost my sense since few mth ago. i wish rite now my sight is clearer though have been blurred out for quite sometimes. often im thinking that im the most "cham" person in the world. so bullshit! yes i noe. but i lost my sense n logical state of mind. so i really need to get out of this thought soon. coz is liek eating my flesh bit by bit. i seems to be exxagerating but i swear im not..im like..u noe.."fan jin!" is not just simply fan jin..but a total fan jin which is worse than wat u expected. i need to get soem peace n really stop thinking of so many things. im letting everything ocme n go naturally..though it seems to b really slow but i think it's my best choice that i have. challenges just begin. n im not ready to face it yet.but there's no delaying. God, what r You , Father LOrd of Lord, trying to tell me. or trying to get myself into?

~off to studying~