sick=(

been sick since yesterday. really torturing and once i sick i seriously think alot of stuff. rite now my head totally is spinning round n round. bt still i want to blog something ere. last nite was definitely hard for me to sleep. after all the events i drove home. and it was a long n hard trip. slept almost the whole day till now. this morning finally decided to go c a doctor. cant take it anymore. burning in me. last nite aso, when everyone went to my grandma's hse for dinner, and i stayed home, rest n sleep, i was thinking about **. how i wish **'ll call me and ** realised that im sick. and then, **'ll came over take care of me. how stupid am i to think that way. ** wont give a damn on such things. i cried for a moment. the tears running down coldly along my hot and sizzling face. im nt telling lies. my body is burning. about 3 am i woke up. went online for awhile. hoping to c ** bt aso hoping nt to c **. and yeah ** din online.perhaps **'s ahving good time with ** frenz. feel like fainting as i tried to get up of my bed. miss my mum for she'll take glass fo water for me. i used all my strength to crawl out n get a glass of water.man! this is killing me. this tiem round, no1 is at home. well, i hope im still small. when sick, everone will b like so concerned n b there for u all the time. *shaking my head* i must learned to grow up. im so weak now.
nowadayz lotsa things cant b predicted.like world cup. who will ever expect brazil will b out of the final? hw sad it is.
** hv started to mention her ex name again n agian in front of me. i do not know what ** 's tryign to do or trying to potray. but one thing i realsied is that ** hv been keepign in touch wif **. this sometimes freaks me out totally. yeah im afraid. i dont have time to actually find my courage. there's loads of stuff that i wanna let ** know and to find the answer. bt i couldnt.i fear. im afraid. im insane. ive no courage to do so. im over sensitive. shudnt b that sensitive. i think alot. i hate it.