menghitung hari

i stare at my face almost everyday. well it may seems nt a big deal.bt no.it is a big deal. as i look at my bloody fool face. i was much of meditating myself.haha..like im callign my soul to get otu of my body n comment on me. i smile.i forwned. i act stupdi.it just seems that i hate myself more n more. i hate who i am when actaully i shud b who i am. n proud to b me. hey guys noe wat.i finally hv my emotions back. i get back my tears.is nt dry anymore. i listen to seevral song. im touched. n im heartbroken. i dun wanna b sensitive.seriously i hate it. sometimes im so superstitious to think that i somehow living in karma n i sina lot. bt GOd sent some1 to tell me that. nt exactly tell me bt rmeind me the thigns that He has once taught me. if He can touched unlimited ppl's heart, i hope one day i will touched * heart. no no no. this is nt wat iw ant. the biggest thing that i wish i could succeed is to touched many ppl's heart. i wish that ppl aorund me is happy. n dat i will b contented for i have this ability.hw i wish i could. knowing that i dunno when, where, how, what i will gonna b happy.but as long as i could make others happy.my life hv been the fullest den. easy to say hard to do. coz rite now. no matter hw much sacrifices i give or making myself such terrible. * doesnt seems to care or appreciate it. so wat for wasting my effort. but.but. im stubborn person.giving up normally never come into my mind. and leo is loyal. guess many ppl dun understand leo. they doesnt come n go easily. bt is passionate n true.so true that it live their life riskily. just imagine lions.hw they survive. never innocent. try every way n means to stayput as king! like this "If I could tell the world just one thingIt would be that we're all okAnd not to worry because worry is wastefuland useless in times like theseI will not be made uselessI won't be idled with despairI will gather myself around my faithfor light does the darkness most fearMy hands are small, I know,but they're not yours they are my own & I am never broken" i know in the very end. iwill not possessed *. bt i achieved somthign that is so big n precious. the unconditional LOVE. is so great that it is my priority to protect it to saviour it. tis is wat JEsus hv for us. im asking my da*n life back. for once i said please. help me out.

though tonite.worries.fatigue.hatred. anger.numb.stone.etc. * din say any goodbye to me. im fine.im fine with everythign * do.im nt gonna beg for anythign that u think is so rite to do. hw.hw can u b like this.so self-centred. plz God. tell* wat is luv actually. show me show *. where's * brain? at ur ass? cant * spend some time to think b4 * say? must * b so mean? so...well well well. my feelings r just some shit that is a waste for u to even put a lil effort to care of.all u do is just shit it out. and u're satisfy.u're satisfy for ur own good.ur own satisfacton. wanna f* * so dA*n badly. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

* owe me hell lots of things.nevr can repay. is scars. a scars that ruins my beautiful sanity essence. dirt dat cannot b cleanse.wounds that bled endlessly. pain that numbs up my soul my mind. the worst thing i never encountered. truth that is real that * tell. so obvious."truth! somethign that cant b deny.cant b false.bt....this.....backfired.....lieS....a whole new hope....being sheltered witht he wrong confession. burning immediately. living dead now. u're....)`= so cruel...cruel...cruel...*holdign fist titely*....chances given to u..im stupid..doesnt matter now... im clapping oni 1 hand. nth more to try..

left=memory, * , the most preciosu thigns * gave me(a disgusted smashed heart) ha ha ha =] so funny...(shake head)