thank you mum..

finally!
my mum called me..waited for ages for her to called! n i was really desperate to let he rknow watz th eocndition im in rite now..n yes i did tell ehr lotsa thigns mainly about my studies n myself..surprisingly i din mention **.. mayb coz i think is no poitn now to actually still hold on to **. anyway, as i was saying, during the conversation with my mum, i realised alot of thigns n dat i made several decision that i never thought that i will make such decision that i actually take a deep breath n in such an abrupt, my decision pops out my mind. i hope i dun regret.for now, im nt regretting anythign yet..haha..im so touched by the thigns that my mum told me..my tears suddenly flows out..nt just few drops bt liek rivers of it..ahaha..never in my life actually thought that my sisters r so concerned about me int he first place. i feel like son of a bitch to alwiz think that my sisters are the worst creature ever living int his world..coz i alwiz think that day dont support me or so their part as sister..in short, just not my ideal sis..however, myt hought chaneg towards them..after my mum told me that they actually reportt o ehr that they're worried bout me?..omfg, i am seriously touched..though it may seems like no big deal but do u noe such concerened that they hv in their heart..really rare for me.in my opinion. they even questioned hw tired i am n that theyw anted to ask me but just that they dun dare to coz i alwiz bhave like their intention was nvr real. n dat they dun wanna make me unhappy coz they noe that wateva they say i hate it as it will nvr a nice advice!..im serious. well they actaulyl realised it huh. but deep down in my heart.iknew wat they meant. n wat they actaulyl trying to say. im easily offended sumtimes even the mild thigns that they say.i will think another things.datz y we can nvr b compatible. rtie now i feel liek huggign them! seriosuly i feel so bad that i cant do anythign but to cry for wat i did..im so evil! im jsut so wrong. i'd nvr felt such a warm caring moment b4..<3

last nite was another good day for me as i get to tok to ** for quite long..hehe..there's no emotional situation or aura at all..btu today..jsut seems so cold..said nothing at all..though i feel abit uneasy towards such circumstances.but well.not the first time..i really hoep i encounter even worse problem so that i could overcome the pain n hurt that i endure for all this while..i think i meantioned it b4 dat, ** doesnt being cnsistent b4..it is alwiz changing n im in a dilemma..** send sumthignt o me n i noe that ** wanna tell em sumthing.. i noe n i understand. ir eally do.. if u oni believe me. n trust me.

Gosh my bday si comeing soon. not that im upset wif it but is somehow bothers me. liek i'll b added 1 age.ahah..n think about who'll gonna brightened up my day.. seems like alwiz on my bday.. things doesnt seems to b much workign ont he right way..mayb is a curse..well i hate to mention it but i think it mite b..but i enjoy the time i celebrate my bday wif frenz n sis!..they're allt he while who celebrate wif me..oni once that is special which is bout my ex..but well dat doesnt seems to putany memory in my brain..ahahah...