17/6/06

last 2 dayz, we said nothing at all to each other. is alwayz lidet. nt consistent. whenever im gonna give up, only then you will appear again. you dont know how much i miss you & turn into anger. is funny to c hw u scolded ppl but if u r to act as if people is wrong, then why cant you take some times tot hink about us? you know what?! i really think that i'm a substitute for ur ex. i'll never be her. thus, u have never lose me. seriously, i think all the sincere and tru confessed towards me, is all bullshit. i fell in this trap. and holy shit, i cant seem to get out of it. u said that u wont think what's the future holds u. then...why do u think about it when it turns to our relationship? coz u doubt...n i doubted to...REcently, you've been so sucky. sometimes just feel like biting your lips to keep ur mouth shut. u're going on a trip again. gosh im so afraid.afraid u'll gonna have some1 better than me, afraid of u leaving me and all these shitty stuff. im going insane. im gonna miss u damn alot again. why must i be like this? when you feel bored, u find me.datz all that im worth now. can we be fren again? im nt sure. i just know that is really hard for me to look forward and ignore all the obstacle, trying as hard as i could to think that everything just normal, nothing happen. i got exam tmr.i dont dare to let u noe. if u think im stupid.well go ahead. im juts stupid to actually nt study n chat wit u online. i want to see you so badly. i want to c miracle soon.coz i believe. even seconds wit u, im more than enuf. im such a silly fool.ou said dat i shouldnt look down on myself. i wont anymore coz i will listen what you've said. i have watched the movie but since you wanna watch it. i'll never regret to watch again. but i'll definitely guilty to lie to u everyday just to have you concerned about me. the smells of you follow me all the time. when im totally in a f'ng situation in school. i think of you. den, everythings will just gonan b fien again. u r my strength and my soul. i will nt gonna forget you, bt i wont give up.u're d only 1 dat i will called..darling..oni u...even if the future i will hv some1 bt it'll alwiz urs..
what the hell did i do these dayz. crying for a person-like-me agian & again..useless fool